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raininglillies13
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PathStep 307 Compassion hearts164 Forum posts219 Forum upvotes189 Current upvotes189 Age GroupAdult Last activeAugust, 2021 Member sinceFebruary 25, 2021
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Hi! My name is Grace! I've come to 7cups to work on my BPD & OCD etc. I'm a Swiftie, I am a Huge Katharine Isabelle fan & I love animals. Here to improve my mental & physical health and also help others along the way
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Bullying
Anxiety Support / by raininglillies13
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July 2nd, 2021
...See more Hi, so I'm somewhat depressed and really anxious right now. I work in the hospitality industry and I feel like my coworkers are out to get me fired. One of them keeps backstabbing me, the other two don't listen, one uses my log in info and so I get blamed for their mistakes. The manager yells at me and instantly blames me for everyone elses mistakes. I'm not one to say i never make mistakes. I always own up to them. I'm just getting so tired of being the scapegoat. I made a post on this a while back and you guys responded so nicely. I thank you for that. Right now, I'm facing getting yelled at about something I was told I could do - by a manager (If the guest came from far away) and now I'm facing also getting yelled at about someone who fooled me into thinking that the guests were emts etc. I'm losing my hope in people. I have an amazing husband, but everyone else keeps just backstabbing me, throwing me under the bus, etc. I know I can't change people but, at this job I feel like I pick up Alot of the slack.. no one cares though. I've always been nice, and its hard to change that part of my personality. I just feel ... bullied.
Possible BDD??
Bipolar, Schizophrenia & Psychosis Support / by raininglillies13
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July 29th, 2021
...See more So, I realized today that I might have BDD, but I of course don't want to self diagnose. I Do have BPD & OCD, I was reading that it can be comorbid with OCD. I have times where I look in the mirror and I don't feel like i'm seeing what others are. This morning I was looking at photos of myself and for whatever reason my face looked very different from what I think I look like. I usually avoid mirrors if I can, mostly with my face though. Is facial dysmorphia a thing? How does one work through this kind of thing?
Disappointed in myself.
Personality Disorders Support / by raininglillies13
Last post
June 9th, 2021
...See more I'm just so tired of going through this cycle over and over. I keep self sabotaging myself by taking payment from debit cards at work when I'm not supposed to (its not part of our policy) but to avoid confrontation I do it.. I've had some bad confrontations so being that I was nervous before I'm even more nervous now to deal with the confrontation. I know jobs are like that but I feel like an idiot when I do this because it could cost me the job. I feel like I can't really tell anyone because I am breaking the rules, it is my fault. It's frustrating because when I do make these "Mistakes" they become intrusive thoughts later and keep me up at night, keep me stressed and upset. I just feel like I could be doing a better job in general, at work and at home..
Scared of confrontation
Anxiety Support / by raininglillies13
Last post
June 3rd, 2021
...See more Hi, so I work at an inn. I am only allowed to take certain types of payment and I do this over and over to myself. I sabotage myself by taking the wrong payment.. because I want to avoid confrontation and I'm anxious about making people mad!!! Any tips on how to stop this behavior?
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