Breaking relationships and work stuff
I have bn able to steer away from suicide attempts and cutting, but I still have a lot of turbulent relationships. I get super mad when people are not nice to me, or feel that they are attacking me. I’ve quit three jobs in the past three years bc of my rash decision to quit after feeling really offended by my coworkers or employer. I’ve also blocked countless friends that I used to be close with bc of something they said or their attitude towards me. Bc I don’t want them to cut me out of their life, I cut them out from mine first. I hate myself for it. I wish I didn’t feel so strongly or cared so much about how others treat me. I know it’s a defense mechanism due to past trauma and how my brain works, but it’s still really hard to not get super angry and then end relationships with friends, or quit jobs that had a really great environment/pay. I definitely want to be less rash in ending relationships and I want to not feel hurt so much but that’s an aspect of BPD that I have yet to overcome or figure out ways to get around. I hate myself for continuing that type of toxicity. Any good resources for this???
@nyanpupu517 Maybe try a listener here at 7cups.
The listener service, is free.
I hope this is helpful.
@Happy900
helpful information happy <3
@nyanpupu51
I’m so sorry your going through such a difficult time regarding relationships with friends. I understand there is some fear of rejection am i right? So instead of going through that you choose to end the relationships. I understand that you feel horrible about that, have you ever taken the time to reach out to these relationships you have with your friends and tried to explain your side and how you feel, as maybe they may be understanding,? Jw anyways i hope things get alot better for you, please dont hesitate to reach out to a listener in the general queue or even browse the listeners, as they can provide such helpful insight and support into your situation<3 thank you so much for sharing your story with us, you are strong and i dont see you as a bad person or any type of way doing this, sometimes anxiety can play a factor too, :)
have a great week!