Alternatives to head-hitting?
I've managed with alternatives to quit cutting. I stopped when I was a teenager and I haven't cut since, I use alternative things like snapping an elastic band and hot wax on my arm.
But recently as in the last year and a half I've started to hit my head with an open palm.
The root issue here is seeing my childhood abuser hit himself in the head repeatedly during my childhood and my childhood abuse is something I've been trying to work through lately, so I believe I'm subconsciously acting out what I saw.
I'm looking for alternatives to this act. I've tried to hit a pillow but its too "soft" and hitting a table isn't satisfying and makes a lot of noise.. Any ideas?? I'll try anything.
Obviously trying to stop outright is the key which I've been doing and in the last month I've only done it once (instead of weekly) but i'm looking for something to do when I'm at a breaking point with a self harm urge.
@Disabledfemme
Thank you so much for sharing. CLICK HERE for a link to a similar discussion on behavioral challenges and what can be done about them. Please note incompatible behaviors in this thread and the article in the link at the bottom. It may be useful!
This thread also lists various coping skills including expression and distraction which might help until the urge passes.
I know how immensely difficult self injury can be. I have lived with this compulsion for over ten years myself, namely cutting, but it take various forms.
Best wishes! And for you- my heart. 
