DPD and me

While it's hard to have an official diagnosis, my therapist pointed out my symptoms that relate to DPD. People pleasing, constant need for approval, neglect of my self (especially for others), my downword spiral when critisim feels too heavy (especially with my music), inability to explore myself and make decisions because I wanted them, constant need for social activity (even if I know I don't want to be there). These are all difficult to manage.

I find myself being used or feeling used because I am willing to jump right in and help, especially when I feel I'll receive praise for helping. The praise tends to only give a small boost, and then I feel like I need to do more otherwise someone might get mad at me, or their constant stress will somehow affect our relationship. I know this stims from my childhood, and that need to take on others stress and find a soultion for them is unhealthy. I don't know what help can be provided here, but speaking out about it is at least a start for me, as I feel it's allowing me to express my needs by my own decision.