Avoidant Personality Disorder and school life

So basically, Avoidant personality disorder is F u n. Especially with the fact that my mom thinks I may have a learning disability, and if I turn out TO have one my teachers will have to be informed. Whcih means I'll wanna die even more than I already do.
Not to mention I don't really have anyone I talk to anymore. I was homeschooled for a few years, and I loved every second of such, I used to order all my clothes online, I never shopped in public, and when I did it was very brief and with my parents, But now that I'm back in public school everything, the fear of being judged,the always wearing long sleves no matter how hot it gets because I'm afraid someone might stare at my skin a little too long, everything's coming back and I hate it so much I'd sooner climb one of the mountains we now live next to to get better wifi than come to school. Sorry this is a mess, Like writing like Author I suppose.