For Kyler Buddy 💜
Hi Kyler 💜 I hope you’re doing okies 💕
This is just a little thread I’ve made that can be our forum space (: like we were talking about earlier in TCR.
Edit: Please don’t read/post here unless you’re Kyler or me. 💜
@LoveMyMoonflowers
i miss u...so much ni....
@kylersartpace
i been missing you too friend and been thinking of you… but i thought i hurt you or made you feel uncomfy or something so that’s why… mmmmmm. we not been talkie ing much :( but i do miss you friend, hugs if okie
@LoveMyMoonflowers
u didnt do any of that...i promise.... *big huggies*
@kylersartpace
big huggies 💜💜💜
@LoveMyMoonflowers
love u ni.../p
@kylersartpace
/p
@LoveMyMoonflowers
ni...
@kylersartpace
mhm? <3
@LoveMyMoonflowers
nvm...cant say it...
@kylersartpace
awww :( you can though friend i’ll listen. (if you is comfy)
@LoveMyMoonflowers
i cant...ill get in trouble...
@kylersartpace
….okay…..
@LoveMyMoonflowers
sorry...
@kylersartpace
you don’t have to be sorry kyler bean <3
@LoveMyMoonflowers
ok...i hate school sm rn...
@kylersartpace
:( aren’t you graduating soon? :o
@LoveMyMoonflowers
yeah...but dealing with so much from class...and teachers....
@kylersartpace
i’m sorry kyler :( *hugs if okay* school can be a lot but it’s worse when classmates and teachers are being meanie/bullying/not understand and not trying to understand. :/ when’s your graduation? 💜 *sending lots of strength to you* i believe in kyler buddy though 💜 you’ve got this
@LoveMyMoonflowers
graduation is on the 21st...
@kylersartpace
im sorry for the late reply friend i poofed :(
that’s like 11 days from now :') :')
@LoveMyMoonflowers
me will do this...because its really long....might be able to see it better...possible tw...
so pretty much a lot of *** happened within the space of like an hr or so and well it started that we had another maths mock exam today because our teacher decided it so we had to move our tables around so we wouldnt be near each other and stuff my table is always away from others anyway and at the wall so i didnt move mine and well we had 14 tables out as many as we needed but then my class tried to force me to move just because they wanted to put another table even though we didnt need it and well then the person in my class (whos like a really bad thing and does really bad stuff like that and all) moved her table right up to my chair so i had no room to even move and stuff so i told her to move back because like it was *** breaking boundaries and stuff she wouldnt move because she didnt want to be squished so i had no space for 2 and a half hrs and like my teacher had left to do something and they were still forcing me to move my table even though i didnt have to because we didnt need that other table and well i told them they cant force me so one of them litterally came over and dragged my table away and touching my stuff from it so yeah i did lash a bit and told them to *** off and stuff because its my stuff and all then the teacher came back and said we were going on a walk i didnt move because i 1 didnt want to go for a walk and 2 i was very shaky and dizzy and stuff from the class and them touching my stuff and all without permission so i just stayed there and didnt go so the teacher came back in the room and was trynna force me to go and i just was like i dont want to and all and he was like its a class activity and i was still refusing and all so he went and told another teacher to keep an eye on me and stuff (also this teacher is transphobic) then also last class some1 was sat right beside me even though they know i hate it so yeah that was all happening today then another teacher did something wednesday...
pretty much on wedneday we had to go do a stupid assignment thing to do with banks and post offices and stuff so we all went down and well even just walking down i nearly fainted because i got very hot and dizzy and stuff then i had to be in a group with that person from today who i really dont get on with and all and she ended up saying that teacher was talking about me behind my back and saying things like i wasnt helping with the work and all and then later because i couldnt find anything about stupid credit cards on flyers she tried to force me to go back and ask the person about it i didnt but then when we were back in the school my class were all planning to go out the night that the exams finish for us and well she is supposedly going aswell and well i said i wasnt going because like yeah and she just goes ahhh kyler you should be going and stuff and trynna force me to go even though i said i dont drink and she was just like ill be driving and theres others that wont be drinking and well i had to say i dont have money because like i dont and all but she kept trynna force me to go and all even though she also knows that i dont talk to any1 in the class and if i were to go id be sat there by myself and all
@kylersartpace
kyler bean 💜 im v sorry i didn’t reply to your post about what happened at schoolybobs :( i’m v sorry friend 😔 i promise i wasn’t trying to ignore you or anything i bookmarked the post so i could reply to it when i could 🥺 im gonna try to get on again later tonight, in a few hours and try to reply 💜 love you friend. *hugs if okay* i’m proud of you 💜
@LoveMyMoonflowers
its ok...dw...
@kylersartpace
hugs if okie…?
@LoveMyMoonflowers
*big huggies*
@kylersartpace
*big huggie wuggies* ni friend wuv you /p
@LoveMyMoonflowers
kyler loves ni more hehehehehhe /p also kylers gf embarrased him and made him blush
@kylersartpace
awww that so cute lol 💜 kylers gf sounds nice 🥺 you deserve someone nice friend
@LoveMyMoonflowers
shes the most amazing beautiful caring and more (my brain cant think of words its stuck in day dream land over her) person ever honestly if u could meet her i would interduce u to her
@kylersartpace
awwwww 🥺💜
@LoveMyMoonflowers
my brain wont get out of laa laa land and i need to sleep soon lol i have an oral tomorrow
@kylersartpace
lol can you maybe sleep and spend time in laa laa land in your dreams? 🤔 *sends sleepy beams to kyler*
it’s 2 am here and i’m tired but i promised people i would reply to their replies tonight but i’m too tired and don’t have the mental energy to and now i feel bad :(
im actually such a bad friend to so many people here it’s nuts
@LoveMyMoonflowers
hey youre not a bad friend u need sleep
@kylersartpace
what is sleep
i feel like i’m an alien to sleep
i’m actually from saturn
blah blah wa wa giyvholoyddtgb this is my native language
@LoveMyMoonflowers
ni pls go sleep friend
@kylersartpace
noooooo
aaaa no sleep sleep :(
@LoveMyMoonflowers
ok
@kylersartpace
kyler don’t you gotta sleep too :(
@LoveMyMoonflowers
yeah but rn a friend needs me so yeah
@kylersartpace
aww 💜
hope you will still get some rest though friend
@LoveMyMoonflowers
cant not now
@kylersartpace
i understand <3
@LoveMyMoonflowers
cant ever...
*confuzzled* :o
@LoveMyMoonflowers
nvm...
@kylersartpace
im sorry
@LoveMyMoonflowers
its....fine....gtg....
@kylersartpace
…okay… take care kyler bean
@LoveMyMoonflowers
mhm....😭😭
@kylersartpace
what happened 😟
@LoveMyMoonflowers
c-c-ca-ant s-s-sa-ay....
@kylersartpace
kyler….?
are you safe? what’s wrong
@LoveMyMoonflowers
m-m-me..y-y-ye-es...
@kylersartpace
okay… is something wrong or is it something good?
@LoveMyMoonflowers
b-b-ba-ad...
@kylersartpace
what happened :(
@LoveMyMoonflowers
c-c-ca-ant s-s-sa-ay...
@kylersartpace
🥺😔😔😔😔
@LoveMyMoonflowers
h-h-he-ead h-h-hu-urts...a-a-and f-f-fe-el s-s-si-ick...
@kylersartpace
Can you take meds?
@LoveMyMoonflowers
n-n-n-no...i-i-it f-f-fro-o-om c-c-cr-y-y-ying....
@kylersartpace
whys you crying 🥺
@LoveMyMoonflowers
c-c-ca-ant s-s-sa-a-ay,,,
@kylersartpace
😔 idk how to help you friend
@LoveMyMoonflowers
i-i-its o-o-ok-k...
okay……..
hi…
i’m sorry about last night friend. i was dealing with some of my own stuff too. i’m v sorry 😞
@LoveMyMoonflowers
*big squeeze huggies* its ok
@kylersartpace
*big huggies*
@LoveMyMoonflowers
u ok?
@kylersartpace
yeah idk, mostly okay i think. how’s you?
@LoveMyMoonflowers
im good i think
@kylersartpace
*hugs* im glad to hear that. 💜💜💜
@LoveMyMoonflowers
hehehehehe yeah
@kylersartpace
💜
@LoveMyMoonflowers
What is ni up to
@kylersartpace
nothing much, wbu
@LoveMyMoonflowers
Just got back to my nans from school
@kylersartpace
awww i see
@LoveMyMoonflowers
im staying at my nans for a bit because my mother has covid and i cant get sick
@kylersartpace
is your nan nice?
@LoveMyMoonflowers
yeah i g...she forces me to eat more though...which i hate....
@kylersartpace
:') i understand friend 💜
@LoveMyMoonflowers
yeah...
@LoveMyMoonflowers
hey....miss u sm....happy pride month....
@kylersartpace
i've been missing you too. i’m sorry. :( i saw your post but forgot to reply, i’m sorry it’s been hard friend and you not been doing okie. 😔 *hugs if okay?*
happy pride month ❤️🧡💛💚🩵💙💜
@LoveMyMoonflowers *tight hugs crying*
@kylersartpace
*big hugs for kyler bean*
@LoveMyMoonflowers *bigger hugs for ni*
@kylersartpace
wait since it’s june that means your done with school right..? :o
@LoveMyMoonflowers yep graduated may 21st just have exams on the 5th 6th 7th and 10th
@kylersartpace
aww i see :') good luck with exams friend 🩵 i have exams soon too on the 4th and 5th :')
@LoveMyMoonflowers
ill need the luck i cant study for them
@kylersartpace
:( *sends more lucky beams* 🩵 i wish i could help but i’m only in year 9/8th grade
@LoveMyMoonflowers
hey...been a bit....really miss u....
@kylersartpace
hey kyler 💜💜 been missing you too friend, how’s you? ni friend sees you joined the pat on cups :o and you been doing really well friend 💜💜 i used to be a part of pat, i think your graphics are awesome 💜
is kyler friend on their summer break now? mine doesn’t begin until the end of this month :c
@LoveMyMoonflowers
kylers not the best....but hru....yeah on summer for nearly a month now...no more exams nothing...
@kylersartpace
aww what’s wrong :c how's your summer break going? <3 i’m glad your done with schoolybobs tho and you don’t have exams or anything anymore. <3
i’m doing okie i guess..
@LoveMyMoonflowers
a lot going on....got no1 to talk to about things on my mind really so i bottle it up....
@kylersartpace
me understand when we got no one to talk to really we tend to bottle things up :( but friend i know bottling up isn’t fun either, sometimes it just feels like instinct and sometimes we feel like we'll be a bother if we open up a little. :( after bottling up for a while eventually it can get super overwhelming and we may feel numb or overwhelmed :(
i promise your not a bother though 💜 *hugs if okay…?* does kyler friend wanna talkie about what’s happening? :c i’m not sure i’ll be able to help but i can try to listen 💜💜
@LoveMyMoonflowers
*huggies* idk...and i really am a bother....because i was told to stop venting so yeah....i just lock everything away until i break and probably relapse.....like always...even if it means my gf will be mad....i try to open up to her...but idk...something stops me....
@kylersartpace
no friend your not a bother :c it’s okay to vent, it’s okay to open up. it’s freaking hard honestly… trusting people is hard, opening up is hard, because there’s so much overthinking and there can be so many memories involved :c it's different for everyone i suppose, and i’m not in your head, i’m not you so i probably don’t understand fully… but i know it’s hard. :(
idk why who said that to you said that 😔 was it someone on here? :c or irl? :( 💜
i’m so sorry to hear you do this a lot friend and it eventually leads to a relapse 🥺😔💜 *hugs* (if okay)
what do you think holds you back from opening up to her friend? :c
@LoveMyMoonflowers
i hold back because i dont wanna hurt her.....i mean she knows when im upset or down....but i just never can find the words to say why i am...
@kylersartpace
awww why do you think it would hurt her friend? 🥺💜 so sweet of you to think of her but still… 💜 and i know how hard it can be to find the words sometimes 💜
@LoveMyMoonflowers
ive hurt her opening up in the past....it had gotten so bad in my head....and it lead to her crying....
@kylersartpace
i’m so sorry 😔 but friend do you think it might have been because she’s worried about you :c and cares about you 💜
kyler bean 💜 i’m gonna be on a break for a while, me so sorry. :c it’s because of schoolybobs, my break hasn’t begun yet… i have exams close to the end of the month. :c i need to prepare for those + finish some other assignments i haven’t done yet… which is why im gonna be on a break from here for a while. 💜 me gonna miss you, me sending huggies your way if okie.
from ni friend.
@LoveMyMoonflowers
youre on break when i see this....but its ok...ily ni/p....pls be safe.....ill be here....waiting for u to come back....
@kylersartpace
wuv you too <3 and yeah i’ll try to be safe, please try too friend <3
Ill try....but no promises..... love you ni...sm..../p.....youre the only friwnd i have from teen side left...none of tge others talk to me....
@LoveMyMoonflowers
ik u wont see this....but i miss u so so so so so much...