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Jaeteuk April 29th, 2023

I hope this can be a start of support for the long-term for the both of us.

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Jaeteuk OP January 13th, 2024

So, since December 2023, I've been getting some dental work done. The past Monday was the final appointment in having all the fillings completed. Had my upper left side done, but now my lower left is sore. The lower left side was done in early December. My gums bleed when I brush, and my mum says my face looks a bit swollen. I've also been rinsing with warm salt water. I was like, but we did the filling on the upper left side the past Monday, not the lower left. So mum things maybe the dentist might have did something to it by accident, without me knowing, because I had been numb the entire process.

So, I called the dental office this morning, and made an appointment for Monday afternoon. The receptionist told me to continue with the rinsing of salt water until the appointment, and told me to try and not chew on that side. You know what though, my mum thinks that this dentist is not really thinking about their patients and their needs, that they are more on the want-to-earn-more-money side. They talked me into getting all the fillings done, with additional ones as they discovered more when doing the ones that I first got an estimate on. In the past couple of months, I had probably already spent close to $4000! As I don't have medical insurance. My mum said, if it was the previous dentist we went to, he would've only offered to do the fillings on the teeth that are more critical, and say the other ones can wait, and also give me a 10% discount, knowing that I don't have insurance.

But with this new dentist (I found them because it's close to home, the previous dentist was someone we saw before moving back to our hometown, so it's an hour drive away now), they are good at talking me into doing it all at once. While my mum says they are probably all for cosmetic purposes, and not really critical.

At the same time though, when I had decided to get the dental work done.. it was part of my changing journey.. Thought I should make myself look better, starting with my teeth. So, I was kind of prepared to get my fillings done at once. Since I can't wait until 2025 (that's when a new dental plan kicks in from the government, where I'll be covered, because I don't have coverage from work). Also, thinking that I want a career change, I wanted to get it done, in case my career change succeeds and I'm to leave the country. But, it would be nice if they had given me a 10% discount without me asking for it. Knowing I don't have insurance, just like my previous dentist. The last time I asked for it from these guys, they said they don't give discounts because they guarantee their work for 2 years. I'm like, it's not like I don't trust their work, it's to help a patient ease off on the price because they don't have dental insurance. That time, the dentist only agreed, if I added 2 more fillings to the already planned 4 fillings to do. That's like a rip-off, especially with the other appointments, where they kept adding additional ones as they found more during the dental work. Both appointments in January the past couple of weeks, were 3 hours long! 

And now, for some reason my lower left is hurting, bleeding, and swollen. When work was done on the upper left the past Monday. I was hoping to see someone today, but the dentist working today is not the one I saw, and she's fully booked. So, I'll have to wait until Monday. It'll be discomfort until then.

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bestVase7265 January 14th, 2024

Teeth troubles can be really hard. I am so sorry that you are struggling right now. I have had lots of work done.

Sorry for a slightly shorter message tonight. I am very tired from attending my aunt's memorial service today. I will try to write more tomorrow maybe if you can write something here so I can respond. I fly back home tomorrow.@Jaeteuk

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Jaeteuk OP January 14th, 2024

Take good care of yourself, @bestVase7265

Sending you hugs 💖

We went out for lunch this afternoon with my Uncle.. as the 3 of us have Birthdays in January, his treat (My brother's today, mine is 10 days later, with my Uncle's on the 30th). I was only able to eat all the soft and steamed dim sum varieties. As I needed to chew only on my right side. I'm hoping I won't need antibiotics when I go see the dentist on Monday. At least, I don't start my 2-month work schedule until next Wednesday. So, I'll still have time to recover. I'm starting to lose some appetite, as there isn't much to eat. Can't be anything too hot or hard. I also can't stand ice cold beverages/foods yet either. The lower left side is still sensitive to coldness. I used to brush my teeth with cold water, as it makes it feel more fresh. Ever since I had that lower left side done, I need to brush and rinse with lukewarm water instead. The sensitivity shouldn't last more than a month! That's why my parents think that this dentist is not good.

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Jaeteuk OP January 15th, 2024

I was just brushing my teeth just now, and noticed one tooth is chipped. My parents think that the dentist might have thinned down the tooth when doing the filling and cleaning the stain, that made it easier to chip. The bad part is, that tooth, is a baby tooth. In my mouth, I have 2 teeth that does not have an adult tooth. The other one, when the baby tooth came off, I have an implant in it's place. Now, the other side is chipped.. you know, I think this dentist will probably suggest I have it extracted and put another implant in its place. But, if that is the case, I'm going back to my previous dentist and doctor who did my implant.

When doing the most recent fillings, the dentist exposed 3 of my gums.. as he claims my fillings were close to the gum line, and had to expose them to do the filling properly. My parents now told me, even when my dad gets the special deep cleaning of his teeth, the hygienist doesn't need to expose his gums. Mum explained, gums are at the roots of the tooth for protection, exposing it (have the gums lifted up revealing the roots more) makes the teeth more vulnerable.

Now, the dentist will definitely say something about my chipped tooth when he sees it tomorrow. I'm wondering if I should bring my parents.. get them to talk to the dentist and ask why he exposed my gums, and if he had thinned down my tooth that is now chipped. I don't even eat any foods that are hard, and it's not like it was cracked, as my dad said it would've hurt. I only remember that with that tooth, I had stains on it, a line across the middle. The line is now gone, so he must've polished it, thinned it off until my tooth is even without the line in the middle.

My parents think these 2 dentists are no good (father and son). Seeing how they talked me into doing all my fillings at once, rather than just doing the critical ones, or ones I feel bothered by only.

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bestVase7265 January 16th, 2024

So sorry for all the teeth trouble. I think that your parents accompanying you might help. If they want to charge you any more money rather than fixing their possible errors, I would walk out the door and just go back to the dentist that you trust to get that person to fix things. I would also leave a poor online review and let them know that you will be doing so.

You deserve to not be in pain. You will find a way through things.

Sending strength and peace. @Jaeteuk

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Jaeteuk OP January 16th, 2024

So my parents had plans this morning during my appointment. But I went to have a chat with my brother before my appointment and he made some points of which I should voice about. So, it turns out the swelling on my lower left side, is not because of my teeth, the dentist found a small cut wound in the cheek area. The chipped tooth, I ended up with getting a filling done for free, as that was one of the teeth he worked on last time. As for the sensitivity to cold for the lower left fillings, he tested my two teeth with the cold test, says I still feel the cold and didn't screech in pain, which means my nerves are still fine. He asked if he knew how I got the cut.. I'm like, well, I haven't really been using my left side to chew due to the pain, and I don't eat anything hard, so not sure how or when it got cut.

Come to think of it though, the dentist himself might have accidentally punctured a wound when he worked on my upper left side. I have a small mouth, so it was really challenging for him to work on my inner teeth when doing the fillings. Which meant, he could've easily made the cut in my left cheek, and since I was drugged with the anesthesia, I probably didn't feel it being cut during the procedure. He says with the cut and swelling, to continue with the warm salt water rinse. Monitor it for the next 2 weeks, if swelling worsens or there's more pain, to return immediately, and will stick me in for an appointment.. as if swelling worsens, then it might mean the cut is infected. 

Then with the chipped tooth, he says if the filling falls off, then I might need to consider a crown. When I got home, and looked at the mirror up close, the filling doesn't look really nice, you could easily see it's an added piece to the tooth. 

How are you doing/feeling these days? Hope you take time for yourself to recover with all the things that has been happening. Sending you hugs too~

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bestVase7265 January 17th, 2024

It is distinctly possible that the dentist nicked your cheek while working. But it should heal. I know that none of it is perfect, but I hope that you will start to feel more healed and more yourself soon.

I will admit that my last week has been really tough. The same day that I flew in for my aunt's memorial I found out that I didn't get the job that I wanted after a month and a half of waiting and being told that I would most likely be the only applicant. I wasn't and they chose the other person. So I have been working through lots of disappointment. I also now have to teach an additional class that I wasn't expecting. But I will figure it out.@Jaeteuk

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Jaeteuk OP January 17th, 2024

It's already starting to feel a bit better today. I'm afraid to chew with my filled chipped tooth though. My mum was saying, she had an experience with one of her lower tooth, that the filling kept coming off, and had it done more than twice. This was with a different dentist, but she was saying because it's her "chewing" tooth, that's it's more easily to keep chipping. With my tooth, it's the one beside the front teeth. Dentist called it the peg lateral, meaning a smaller tooth. So, along with the chip, the filling almost looked like half of the tooth needed to be made. Since it's at the front, it's like every first bite of food, it will be with that tooth. I'm now afraid to chew with it, as I don't want it to break off. 

I remember that job you applied to, we were so sure you were the only applicant back then. I'm sorry it went to someone else. Another additional class? That sucks, you have so much to do already. 

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bestVase7265 January 18th, 2024

It may just be the front part of the tooth and not go as deep as you are thinking. Eventually you will have to eat with it. Take it a step at a time. Glad that your mouth is starting to feel a bit better otherwise.

I will be okay with the job stuff. It will just take a bit to recover from the disappointment. @Jaeteuk

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Jaeteuk OP January 17th, 2024

Did you hear about the new Pen Pals Community? It looks like they will be relocating this thread there. I guess many members have created threads like this throughout the forums in 7 Cups, that they decided to make a designated community for it.

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bestVase7265 January 18th, 2024

Sounds good. @Jaeteuk

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Jaeteuk OP January 20th, 2024

I took the day off for my birthday next week. We're going to try a new Korean Restaurant very close to home for dinner. I haven't decided whether or not to have cake though, maybe nothing that's too cold, as my teeth are still sensitive. My parents wanted to take me to a Korean Brunch, but they close every Tuesday.

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bestVase7265 January 21st, 2024

That sounds like a good plan. Your teeth are getting better so focus as much as you can on enjoying the food. @Jaeteuk

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Jaeteuk OP January 22nd, 2024

Ever since Covid, my parents have a negative view of people from China. They always tend to say bad things about them and get angry when they watch videos showing how disrespectful the people are. I know they watch a lot of news, which mainly only talk about all the bad things about the political side of it. So, they've had a growing negative perspective about them. In our Cantonese language, there are two ways to address the people from China, and my parents always use the impolite form.

I'm kind of feeling uncomfortable with their views and whenever they talk about it. Because in the eyes of an average Caucasian, they will probably see us as Mainland Chinese persons too. So, it's kind of like they are bad mouthing ourselves as well. Of course, in our own knowledge, those from Taiwan and Hong Kong, are different type of Chinese people compared to Mainland China. But probably 90% of Caucasians can't tell what our nationality is just by looking at us. They can't even tell apart Chinese vs Korean vs Japanese people. To them, we just all like Asian.

It's just the way my parents talk about China, that makes me feel uncomfortable. I mean yes, their political stance is not very good and they have so many restrictions, kind of like North Korea.. but, to me.. each country has their own type of political standards. There is no right or wrong, if you're not disagreeing with it, doesn't mean that it's all bad. I feel my parents are being brainwashed from watching all the negative news about them, and it's causing my dad to always speak negatively. He's always complaining about things, like 8 out of 10 sentences, is a negative comment. We try to tell him to think of the good side of things, to be more positive.. to be happier and blessed with what we have, to live a better life.. he makes his life more depressing by always saying out these negative comments.

I always tell my parents to lessen on the news and videos that they listen and watch, as all the negativity that they see is affecting the way my dad process thoughts.

I just wish they could respect these fellow people from China, and use the polite form when addressing them in conversations. If you think about it, we are kinda the same type of people, at least, in the eyes of others, we are all the same.

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bestVase7265 January 23rd, 2024

It is so, so hard to get people to change their prejudices because they draw a certain comfort fro them. To know that they are "better" than someone else helps them feel less frustrated with their own lives. But it can take such an awful turn when it becomes the way that you center yourself and you become bitter.

I am sorry that it is happening to you and that solutions are harder. I would keep talking and keep mentioning that everyone deserves respect. Find examples of good people among those he has decided that he dislikes. It might help just a little bit. @Jaeteuk

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Jaeteuk OP January 23rd, 2024

It's mainly government related figures he doesn't like.. and he watched a video this morning, showing how some tourists in England were being rude.. then, he goes off saying that it is those type of people that make us look bad. And my dad is upset in what Hong Kong has become because of them.

I just kind of walk away when they make negative comments about them. I think it's difficult to tell my dad (in his mid 70s), to change the way he thinks and speak more positively. But my mum helps with telling him to be more positive, as being more positive and happy = living a longer life.

Every Sunday, my parents and brother will go out for breakfast. I never join them, because I don't like the restaurant they go to. When they came back, and parents took their own car to church, my brother was telling me. From the moment they sat in my car, all the way into the restaurant, my dad made 3 complaints. (They've been driving my car during these snow days because it's already parked on the driveway). First complaint was, my car seat was too cold, as he forgot to remote start it before getting in my car. Then, when they were halfway down the hill, being a heated seat, my dad complained about the seat getting too hot, and is afraid it'll affect his bowel movements. Then, at the restaurant, he complained about the drinks not tasting as good as before.

My dad and his negative comments, reminds me of how my depression had cause my initial thoughts as negative perspectives. For me though, I don't speak up of it, but he says it out all the time. Making it look like he's a very negative type of person.

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bestVase7265 January 24th, 2024

You are right that gratitude and happiness lead to longer life. But you also know from your own depression that it is really frustrating to turn things around once you start on any kind of negative path. So your father's path forward isn't an easy one. It is tough getting old and fearing that the best of life is behind you. Then you look at the world around you in search of things to blame.

But you also know how best to help. Listen, but also offer him things to be grateful for. Comment on nice things that you eat, music that you hear, pretty things that you see, etc. Get him outside when you can.

And above all try to keep his bad attitude from making you feel bad. @Jaeteuk

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Jaeteuk OP January 24th, 2024

Yes, turning things around takes patience and a mindset that you want to change. I find that my dad doesn't admit that this negative way of thinking is not healthy for the mind. He often says that he's only telling the truth. Then, says, if we don't let him talk like that, then he'll just being keeping things to himself and he'll feel restricted. But my brother and I hope that he could think things through before speaking of it. Like to think of the good and the bad, and not just straight out say something negative.

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Jaeteuk OP January 24th, 2024

So, I had requested the day off today as my birthday. My parents took me to a shopping centre by Skytrain that I haven't been to after they renovated the Food Court. So, we had a brunch in the Food Court. The mall itself, there aren't a lot of stores, 90% of it is closed. We're thinking, maybe they want to upgrade the mall too, as there are many high rises surrounding the mall. We left the house around 11am, got back home around 3pm, after picking up my cake and some alcohol. Then, we tried a new Korean Restaurant that opened just down the hill from our house (like less than a 5 min drive) for dinner. Very delicious. Authentic Korean cuisine, will definitely go again and recommend colleagues who also like to eat Korean food. A very small restaurant though, like a maximum of probably 20 people. Close on Sundays and open until 9pm. Will rest for 30 mins before eating the cake. I requested a fresh fruits cake. As my teeth are still a bit sensitive to cold, I'm afraid to ask for ones with lots of mousse or ice cream.

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bestVase7265 January 25th, 2024

Happy, happy birthday! It sounds like you had a lovely day. I am so glad that you had a nice experience at the Korean restaurant. I tend to like the smaller restaurants too.

I hope that the cake is equally good.

I also hope that your dad also enjoyed the restaurant and the cake. Just a quick reminder of what he enjoyed today might help his brain to settle a bit. Maybe make less of a big deal when he goes negative for a few minutes and more of a big deal in pointing out that he is enjoying something. @Jaeteuk

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Jaeteuk OP January 25th, 2024

The cake was a huge disappointment. My parents ordered it at a place where we buy the buns from, as her friends say it's better than the bakery we used to order from. I requested a fresh fruits one, but the cream that had on top and sides of the cake, it seems like the pastry chef didn't whip the cream up enough, that it all kind of collapsed. And it's obvious they used some canned fruits on it. My mum said they even asked for more money because we wanted fresh fruits. So, it was a total ripoff, and it wasn't as good. My mum says maybe it's a new pastry chef, or like an intern with no experience.


I've recommended them in watching a drama from China that made me feel warm when I watched it. The drama itself is about the male lead who works as a heart surgeon, but has a side job of voice dubbing for advertisements, and end up singing after meeting a girl who has a unique singing voice, that told him he has a good enough voice to sing as well. I told my mum to watch this drama as a positive thing before bed.. as dad had probably been speaking negatively during the day. So, it's good to end the day with a drama like that. They watched the first episode last night, and they recognized the male lead. Said they watched a drama with him before Covid. I was telling her, since his last historical drama as the second male lead, his fame has been increasing. After I watched this current drama, I searched him on YouTube, and found out before he started singing and acting, he was a professional Latin dancer, won several international competitions with 1st place. He has a good singing voice, and can sing different genres. I saw he joined a singing contest show, and one of the judges was his favorite. A female singer, at the end of his performance, she tested his knowledge of her songs, as he claims that he knows every single one of her songs. In spoken form, she said the first word or two from the lyrics, and he easily continued singing a few more phrases. She chose one recent song, and one from when she first debuted. She was like, yes, this is true love of her songs.

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bestVase7265 January 26th, 2024

Well sorry about the cake but it is great that everyone is enjoying the show with the singer that you like. It is nice when you are able to show something like that to your parents and you can see it makes them happy like it made you happy. Overall it sounds like it was a good day for you. That is what you want out of a birthday - not perfection but overall really nice. I am going to hope that my next birthday will be like that. My aunt died in my birthday this year so anything will be an improvement. But I have quite a bit of time to wait - next November. @Jaeteuk

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Jaeteuk OP January 26th, 2024

Yes, they don't usually like watching dramas from China, because of his they don't like the government, so anything from them, they will not support. But since I told them that this one could be a good stress reliever, that it's worth watching. That they agreed to watch it. Or they will only watch something with certain actors they liked in the past or if it's recommended by my mum's friends.

I hope this year's birthday for you will be more enjoyable.

I was a bit surprised with myself this year, that depressive mood that my birthday always dragged along wasn't really there. Maybe it's because I've been keeping my mind busy with trying to make a career change, that there's a little bit of hope in my near future of a change for the better. So I haven't felt the same kind of depressive mood prior to my birthday. That's a good sign.

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bestVase7265 January 27th, 2024

That is an excellent sign. You are fighting back despite all the recent teeth issues. Go you! @Jaeteuk

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Jaeteuk OP January 30th, 2024

It's almost time for me to send off a follow-up email for my job offer in China. I've planned to send one off on a monthly-basis until I get a reply. I've been writing out drafts of the email in the library, in the mornings before my shift. I'll park at the Hospital early, like around 8:30am.. then, walk to the library that opens at 9am. Leave the library by 11am to return to the Hospital, get changed, and sit in the lounge until 12pm. When my shift starts. I've written it up until for May. As planned, I'll send it off on the last day of the month, that way, when it's received, it's the 1st of the month. Even if I email it off right after work, it would be around noon for them. It will be the first thing I do after I get home form work tomorrow. So tonight, I'll have to wash my hair after work, so I don't have to worry about it being too late after sending the email tomorrow.

So, I told a nurse about my book.. and she gave me suggesting to how to promote it.. that I should print out colored posters and post them on bulletin boards.. around the Hospital, at Starbucks, rec centres.. just anywhere with no restrictions of posting them.. so, I'll try and come up with a poster over the weekend. The only thing is, I'll need a nice color printer. I do have color at home.. but if I were to need a lot of copies, might ask if I could print it at work. I know some nurses have printed personal documents in color before too.

So, my mum is sick.. last night, she said she had a sore throat and I asked her to take a Tylenol cold before bed.. she woke up this morning with a worsened sore throat, and she got an appointment with our locum doctor for this afternoon. The Covid tests now don't work as well, especially if its the newest variation. So, my mum had tested negative. There was a nurse who called in sick for 2 days last week. She had the same symptoms, she a doctor over the weekend, and is now on antibiotics.. both her and her mother-in-law. So, maybe my mum needs antibiotics too. I'll have to ask her how her appointment went later. I just told her to drink some honey water and rinse with salt water for now. Alright, I'd better get ready to start my shift now.

Hope your day went well~

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Jaeteuk OP February 1st, 2024

I finally got a good night's sleep last night. For the past week or so, I've been waking at least once in the middle of the night. This morning, when I thought it was the middle of the night again, I looked at the time, and it was 4 minutes to my alarm for 7am. I actually slept through the night!


I think it's because I had sent off my first follow-up email on my job offer last night. I even left work 30 minutes earlier. Got home, quickly washed my dishes (packed dinner for work), got changed and sat down in front of computer. Typed out the email (drafts I've written in the library) and attached my Cover Letter and Resume to the email as screenshots. So, I think it's because I'm continuously making steps to achieve my dreams, to have handed that in by 8:45pm, I subconsciously felt relieved. So, I was able to sleep through the night without waking up. It's all good.


I plan to send out these follow-up emails until I get a reply. Not giving up.

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bestVase7265 February 2nd, 2024

That all sounds awesome. I am so sorry that I missed a night. I had a long day yesterday and a student who needed some extra attention in the evening.

All of your plans are great steps forward. You are moving in a good direction. I like both the book and job ideas.

I hope that your mom feels better. @Jaeteuk

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Jaeteuk OP February 12th, 2024

So, we have the dog again for a week or so. The joint custody of my brother and his ex-wife. The dog doesn't like me, or remember me.. I went to pet him, and he gave me a low growl and angry bark. This has happened in the past, but it happened after I went home from work.. so, we figured that maybe he doesn't like the Hospital smell. But here at home, after my dinner, I went to pet him.. and he still barked at me. He had forgotten the times I took him out for walks when both my parents and brother were out of town for a few days. I took care of his walks and food. 

I took Tuesday off, as I'm seeing my Gynaecologist again. It was supposed to be a phone call appointment, but last Monday, I called to have it changed to in-clinic. I've been still getting my periods after having the IUD. As my official second replacement, I'm still getting my monthly period, except it's not as heavy. But, the downside is, I'm getting the same symptoms as if I were to have a regular heavy period. Which is extreme fatigue, and I noticed a new symptom. Aside from the lower right back soreness, there was one day where I felt a dull-ache down my right leg. Almost as if it was a pinched nerve. The worst of it all is the extreme fatigue, especially when I'm at work.. I felt super tired, like if I was allowed to close my eyes, I'd probably fall asleep. I don't think I have low iron, as I'm not losing that much blood from my periods.. so, I might ask the doctor to run some other tests.

Oh, my parents also agreed to drive me there. As it's expensive to park there if I drove myself. But if they drive, they could park at the 1-hour free parking area and wait by walking in the supermarket. Except my mum has lunch plans with her friends, so it'll just be my dad and I for lunch. Will have to think where we should go eat.

How have you been? It's been super busy with work lately, days are long. I can't believe the weekend is over already. Definitely feel like I need more time off to rest.

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bestVase7265 February 13th, 2024

Sorry about the dog. Some pets aren't friendly and can smell that hospital smell for hours and hours. We have a cat who was hissing at her sister 3 days after the other cat went to the vet.

I also had an IUD placed about 9 months ago now. It is only in the last two months that I really don't have a cycle any more. My guess is that they are just going to tell you to wait. But the pinched nerve is much more problematic. Hopefully you will get some answers soon.

I am okay most days at the moment. Still trying to recover from not getting the job that I had expected to get in mid-January. It is hard to be around the people who decided not to give it me and not get mad. But I am working on it. @Jaeteuk

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Jaeteuk OP February 13th, 2024

I'm just frustrated with this IUD, compared to the first one I had 7 years ago.. the second replacement gave me so much trouble.. I had it replaced 3 times for it to be in the right position, as for some reason, it kept being mis-located. And I'm either spotting in between, or getting a light period monthly. So, I'm always needing to wear a panty liner, because I never know when I'll be spotting. It feels like I never get a breather down there. Every time I decide not to wear the liner, I spot. With the first one, 7 years ago, my period stopped altogether within the first 6 months. My energy levels were normal and not feeling any symptoms. But this time, it's really frustrating.

I'll have to see what my Gynecologist suggests tomorrow. The thing is, because I'm still single, and I do wish to have a partner in my future, I don't want to have surgery just yet to remove the reproductive organs, just in case I change my mind in wanting to have kids. I've decided long ago, like in my early 20s, that I don't want kids of my own.. but now that I'm older, and being single for so long, and knowing that I want to have a partner or husband in my future, I want to keep the option open, just in case my future husband convinces me or really like kids. But also, I'm way past the ideal age to have children, because in my mind, I don't want to be having a kid say when I'm 40, because I'll be 60 by the time the kid is only 20 years old, not even finished with University yet.. and I'll look like their grandmother, not mother. And if my kid doesn't get married until much later, I might not even be alive to see them get married.

My thoughts about having a kid is the same as the reason why I didn't go get my driver's license at the earliest legal age. I feel that the responsibility is huge, that I'm not up for such a big responsibility. I don't mind raising a dog, but another version of myself? That I'm not too sure about.

I'm still holding hopes of getting a reply from that job I applied to. I have decided to send monthly follow-up emails, until I get a reply.

So, it looks like my colleague will be retiring by June, and she's taking all her vacation from May. Manager says she will hire someone to take her place and start on May 1st. But this year, will be busy for me.. sometimes I wish my colleagues were more considerate of me.. instead of taking turns with their vacation time throughout the summer, to leave me a week of summer off too. My mum was just saying the other day, because my shifts are to cover other's vacation, I never get the sunny days of the summer off.. often a good time to meet new people, as the weather permits going for hikes and such. But because my colleagues all take the summer off, either to go on short vacation trips or further away, I only get the weekends off. And then I won't feel like going on hikes to meet others over the weekends, when I'm already walking so much at work Monday to Friday.

Things will get better for you.

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User Profile: Jaeteuk
Jaeteuk OP February 13th, 2024

For once, my appointment went quickly. The gynaecologist saw me instantly and only for 10 minutes. She says that my symptoms doesn't seem like it's entirely related to the IUD. So, she suggests that I see my GP and try and rule out if there are other things happening in my body causing those extreme fatigue and leg sores. As with dull aches, she says it's a possibility that it's a spine problem. So, I've made an appointment with a locum for March 14th. As, that is the only time I'm available without work schedule. Looks like my GP is on vacation, as she's not available for the next 2 months. Which is okay, as she has 3 children, probably all under 5 years old. So, makes sense that she needs time off from work. 

My parents waited for me in a coffee shop, as we thought my appointment will be long. I'm thinking, maybe I was the first patient, since the clinic opens at 9am, so it went quickly. So I went to the coffee shop to take a sip of their coffee. For lunch, I'll need to drive my mum to the restaurant where she always meets her friends every Tuesday as a get-together. Then, I'll meet my dad at the Korean restaurant I planned to have lunch with him in. The same place we went for my birthday. It's nice to take the day off from work. 

It's a long weekend this coming week, a holiday next Monday. 

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User Profile: bestVase7265
bestVase7265 February 14th, 2024

I am glad that it went quickly for you and that you got to spend some time off with your parents. You very much deserved a day off from work.@Jaeteuk

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