path away from not being someone to being seen for being someone
this may seem crazy to more, but it what we have lived. seem like all my life i was not allowed to be a full person. seem like i was just seen as my mom daughter and my brothers sister. many did not call me by my name at all. some even thought i was just like my mom with her likes and dislikes. no one asked me what i personally liked and dislikes. this made me feel like i was no one at all.
may 2017 i moved to different city in same state. first time in my life i been not close to were my family lives. so people now here know me as me call me by name. even ask questions about my likes and dislikes. this even after more then 7yr still feel odd, but to others it be normal to have name used and asked questions about self. not even sure why it just feel odd to me. here i living free from them who abused me. not even hear from family members much.
but i also find myself at times lost to what i like and dislike it just so new to me still. feel kinda crazy writing this out even most would know answers to what they truly like and dislike but i question that a lot
@stormieandpaws
We see ourselves differently and this must be confusing to be YOU. when you are someone's child someones sister but not seen as just YOU.
Even though it has been years ...........now is time for YOU to find and recognize yourself and your likes/ dislikes /views and such. Guess what those too change in time. I did not see myself at one time ....... I was someones mom / someones wife ..... it can happen to anyone.
I sometimes have to tell others things like "NO i do not like X ... YOU do, that does not make it be my favorite too." I used to get angry that my likes were ignored ..... then I realized I can speak up and do whenever I feel falling back into a category in someones eyes.
@toughTiger6481
thank you we kinda did that when we moved in may 2017 my family did not want us to move. dad even stated you want to move back in less then a year. he said you depend on us way to much to move away too. see this as away he was trying to brainwash me emotionally. mom even said we was abandoning her and did not love her. mom know about the abuse in my childhood, but she made excuses for them when we brought it up to her after we moved. we allow her to visit us stay with us a week too. over that time we found out she did know and she did abuse us.
we think the greatest thing after we moved and mom was here visiting. a new friend of mine picked us up for church my mom called her a friend. my friend right out stated i not your friend i am her friend. the look on mom face was priceless as this new friend of mine. let her know that she was my friend alone. so we have got better after we moved but still have a long ways to go too.
the big thing is we love art most my family see it as a worthless thing to do. so after we moved we started painting and few other things. no we not the greatest at them things but we enjoy them.
but when you have lived you life as a nobody it hard work to change that thinking too
@stormieandpaws
Understand that my mom did not like any choice i made without her input she warned me of silly things to make me NEED her help / advice. It is about control and them feeling needed.
