The people in my life do not care about me
I have thought for a long time that I suffered from depression but I am starting to think that I'm suffering from being surrounded by people who treat me terribly and who bait me to get a known reaction so they can put me down for having a reaction they know they can trigger out of me
I am so kind to people and I am 100% dedicated and they I have a husband who I can't really trust who is deeply immature and selfish and who deals with his own issues of putting himself first before others. He grew up in an environment where harboring resentments and grudges was modeled and with an immature father who thinks drinking is a main priority in life and a mother who is a rageaholic and narcissistic manipulator. So he repeats these actions. Our friend group seems to kind of get a rise out of triggering things between us.....like they want to see me blow up and it's driving a wedge between us.
@thoughtfulCranberry1972
I think many of us have those people ... your spouse is very very similar to what you describe.
Cranberry, you seem very aware not only of how badly their behaviors make you feel but also of how unhealthy and inappropriate such behaviors are. Have you looked at any information on setting boundaries and not tolerating abuse? You understand they are abusers, but they probably don’t and won’t unless you call them on it and ask them to stop.
I have a somewhat abusive spouse who began changing when I called her on it. I also spend substantial time away from the abusive environment doing things I enjoy to recharge my batteries so I can deal with the issues at home. It has helped both her and me to get better. My heart goes out to you. It’s tough living in an abusive home.
And I bet these are people that used to call friends one thing about getting triggered is that when you get triggered you were giving the power to those people and you need to take your power back you need to be able to say they can talk about you that you say whatever they want to say about you and they say it in your face or behind your back one thing I'm not going to do is allow what they say about me or affect me or change my behavior
