I'm about 4 months pregnant and a SAHM & Homeschooler to an 8 year old.
This month we lost our dog, Sage... she was so precious to us, a true member of the family. She died due to an infection after I'd kept her as healthy as possible with cancer over the last 6 years. She was 13 years old.
Losing her as an emotional support and friend was really rough... I had no idea that after losing her, I would lose interest in my pregnancy also...
I think in part Im blaming myself for becoming pregnant and noticing the changes in her... she became a little distant once she realized I was pregnant. I just knew she wasn't the same.
In the midst of all this, my husband has been struggling to provide fully, leaving my son and I without insurance, and I've seen no OBGYN yet. We also lost a baby a couple of years ago, so I'm consistently worried about this one and it's survival.
I can't talk about my pregnancy to anyone... I've been informed to keep it away from my family as long as possible because they may not be well meaning towards me in this position.
Each day I'm attempting to serve my Family and Spirit appropriately, but I'm so stressed and worried.
I feel VERY alone. And I feel like I'm going to lose my mind. I've thought of leaving this earth several times and find it difficult to calm down after stressful thoughts or conversations. No substance is safe to take right now in consideration of the little one...
This is all my answer to question 1.... smh and I feel totally ashamed about it.
Help seems so far away so much of the time.