I’m struggling today …
i have a big problem with compulsive online shopping. For me, Temu is evil and triggering and predatory for people who struggle with this. I’ve definitely become addicted to it after thinking about past obsessed buying sprees that everyone else has always labeled as a manic spending spree and now my psych nurse says no, that sounds like OCD. So I’m on Luvox and I’m hopeful that it works because I’m struggling today with this whole situation, there’s other reasons why she thinks OCD. I’m really struggling with motivation and anxiety and I know in my heart I’m fine and I’m just stuck in my head but I’m stuck today and now I find out my bonus daughter is coming by with her new boyfriend and it doesn’t look like we’re getting a break from the 10yo bonus son this afternoon either so all my plans are gone in an instant and I’m lost.
I don’t really know what to do with myself right now and it’s just not a good day in my head. I tried to talk with my boyfriend about this and he just didn’t really say anything other than he was sorry. I don’t know what I need right now but I know I need something. I’m just trying not to get myself all worked up about everything but it’s my brain waiting for a full psych evaluation next week and probably an actual diagnosis for ADHD too. I’m overwhelmed. I’m so stressed about this. I’m trying to research everything and I struggle so much.
i just needed to vent I guess. I hope that I make some sense to someone. Maybe you have been where I am. Newly diagnosed but yet still not sure what is what and how to explain everything to the people in my life. It’s hard today. 🥺