Scared of health issues
I do not have any OCD diagnosed, yet...
However I have read a lot about people describing they have diagnosed OCD plus anxiety and have the same issue I have, so out of curiosity I wanted to hear if anyone else here got the same or similar.
I do have anxiety, and would not be surprised if it has led to some sort of OCD, I have tensions all over my body and can experience weird pain all over, among these pains is my little lady bump ( read titty ), I've felt pain for 2 years now, sometimes it's all gone, sometimes it's stingy or more a cutting feeling, sometimes it just feels like a bruise and sometimes it's discomfort, and I am probably hyperaware of everything that grace the skin, a shirt, a bra, freaking out when it was just my braided hair that fell over the tit.
So as you might guess, what my anxiety tells me, is that it's breastcancer, and I have this obsessive behaviour of always checking, checking checking and checking again, several times a day, like something would have popped up within that 30 minutes since last time I checked, or "maybe I missed something! I have to check again", over and over and over, so surely, my tit might be sore cause I'm constantly prodding on it, but if I don't I think I'm missing "the cancer". I've tried to schedule the pain and see if it somehow lines up with my period, and I don't do anything really during my period cause my boobies are naturally lumpy then, but for the rest of the month, constant fear, constant checking, theres no lump, no redness, swelling, thicker skin, no nothing, the pain could be fibrosystic surely, but also the muscle cause I got tension in my whole body, hormonal, or anything else that is not cancerous, and I don't really have a family history of cancer, but still it feels like I will freak out if I don't check all the time!! It drives me insane.
I will go to the hospital soon and talk about that pain among other things, maybe they do an ultrasound, maybe they don't find anything, but I'm afraid that my anxiety will tell me "doctors can be wrong" and I will keep checking myself to madness.
@Ladypearl I don't think that's OCD, you're just paranoid about the cancer. I'm so sorry. God bless you. My godmother passed away in '11 at only 54 yrs old from breast cancer. I miss her so much. Now it's 2018 though, they have so many more solutions and you can get the help for it. I wish you all the best. :)
@Ladypearl I am diagnosed with OCD, and my sister is not. My sister is exactly like you. She's hyper aware of her body and every other week she's convinced she has cancer. She does extreme things to cope. She doesn't go into the sun. Ever. She has a parasol so she can walk from the car to the building.
But she doesn't have OCD.
I am diagnosed with OCD. I have a fixation on violence and sometimes I'll get a fixation on stabbing myself. If Im holding a pencil and I can feel myself stabbing the pencil into my thigh. I carry that pain in my thigh around allllll freakin dayyyyy. I get anxiety, but its not centered around my health. Its centered on a fixation that wont dissipate. I have no "off" switch. That triggers the anxiety, not the health problem.
Yes, obsessive checking appears in both my sister and I. And yes, imagining bodily senses appears in both my sister and I. But she doesn't have OCD and I do. There's a lot more to having OCD than just checking your body the way you described.
I'm not saying you don't have it. But this small sliver of what you've described isn't really classic OCD. It sounds like something else.
