Being Thankful and Going Crazy at the same time. I cannot grasp the disciplines.
I'm starting this thread in the first week of 2025. Three years of struggle has put me in a spot of advantage. But now that I'm in that spot of advantage, I can't seem to take advantage of the time to make it more beneficial.
I think it's because I don't have a strong support group (other than here on 7-cups). And also, being 65 is slowing me down a bit when I still need to be going full steam.
The biggest deterrent to me is my brain going 9000 miles an hour about all the things that I wanna do and wanna get done. I simply exhaust myself. I have done so many things in the past three years to stay on track and push past obstacles and hardships that it's getting monotonous to keep trying and I wish I had the money that I could just stop and relax. But I can't, not even close! I may deserve a break but I am not entitled to a break. Bummer, right?
I have no choice but go strategically crazy for 2025.
If I do it right, I may set myself up with some residual income.
It's 2:25 PM and I really need to stop drinking coffee but I'm gonna fill myself up with it and try to push through the evening. So much stuff that I could have gotten done today and all I did was eat and sleep and make a mess in the kitchen. Stupid, stupid, stupid.
I should not have to be cleaning up a mess in the kitchen when I have so much other work to do. Time to go crazy!
It's 3:30 and I'm almost done with the kitchen. It drives me crazy how I can't just keep going from 1 chore to another without thinking about something to eat or something to drink.
I have no longevity or discipline when doing tasks.
Right now I'm drinking a mint and honey tea, trying to avoid coffee but I know I'm gonna have to have some coffee this afternoon if i want to I wanna get everything else done that I want to get done.
Enough time used here.... moving on.
There are so many thing to do... important and time sensitive.... but now I decide to do the recyclables... Dragging feet.... makes me crazy but my choice so still crazy.
The only sane thing about it is I'm doing something.
+ a dumb thing... bowl of potato soup = comfort food = sleepy... no discipline!
557pm... why do i sit here dumbly looking at a screen.... with chores to do? the answer doesn't matter, just stop and do a chore.
SATURDAY Jan. 4, 2025.
Follow my written plan.... it's doable if I stay diligent and disciplined.
SATURDAY Jan. 4, 2025. 518pm-clean kitchen-
6pm-fold laundry
SUNDAY 1/5/25 3:06am: Vacuum living room.
-3:57am-Clean kitchen floor.
- 4:19am - Vacuum bedroom & office & empty/put away vacuum cleaner.