2024 November Stay STUCK in my own Muck OR FIGHT like never before!
I HAVE HIT ROCK BOTTOM AGAIN.
I've made progress in 2024 but here towards the end of the year, trials and tribulations have me feeling impotent and useless once again. This rock bottom is not the same rock bottom as a year or two ago. I know from my accomplishments this rock bottom can be approached with some extra advantages. With that said, ROCK BOTTOM is ROCK BOTTOM regardless of what you have or what you don't have. Rock bottom makes you feel impotent and useless.
(I am grateful and give thanks for all of my blessings)
BEEN STUCK IN THIS EPISODE OF MY OWN MUCK FOR TOO LONG AND I'M TIRED OF IT!
TIME TO FIGHT AGAIN! (Fight or give up..... my choice..... my results)
This is my November fight.
Family Relations, Nephew intrusion into my space.... Started as an asset but quickly turned negative.... TRY TO SAVE a positve spin to it. Holiday Communications. Keep equipment repaired to make money. Make money.
All feels hopeless, futile and disparing.
Where is the sunshine after all of last years hard work and progress?
Maybe my December post will feel more fruitful.
dishes done
i can't let the illusion of futility discourage me
755am FIGHT! reorganize freezers
freezers are done
indesicisiveness is muddling my mind
try to go to work job in frigid temps with cold diesel equipment or continue core balance chores
excuses or legitimate choices
confusion wants me to throw in the towel, but NO. one or the other is better than nothing
9am FIGHT fold laundry
145pm
I lost the last round.
i watched tv and slept for 5 hours
the fight continues..... fold laundry
laundry done and other small chores.
it is very late for me to run errands but i'm off to it.
@mytwistedsoul
Thanks for your support yesterday.
This is kind of my dark place thread so I never really feel like talking much.
But having pokes of support is always helpful and appreciated.
I've broke enough barriers yesterday that this morning is looking more encouraging.
Thanks again. /
PS.... Did you get slammed with a snowstorm? If you did, is everything OK?
@IsayUncle No thank you necessary. I hope the day continued on the encouraging route.
