The opposite of hustle culture

Hello everyone! I swear this post does have to do with mindfulness!

I just wanted to take the time to talk about something that's been on my mind for quite a while. I've seen mindfulness talked about a lot in the scope of slowing down, a coping mechanism to combat or deal with 'hustle culture'. And while it's a great technique to use, I find myself actually getting discouraged by all of these messages online and in real life such as "it's okay to slow down" or "Take time for yourself." It's not that these messages are bad or incorrect or anything, but I find myself suffering from something that's not the 'majority'.

I'm suffering from the opposite of hustle culture. I'm not talking about laziness. I'm talking about not being motivated, feeling disinterested in tasks, having self-doubt so strong that I delay work that needs to be done. Being so much of a perfectionist that I don't even start. I still get depressive episodes from time to time, which makes these feelings that much worse.

So although these encouraging messages to combat hustle culture are fine and true, I cannot really relate to them. Because instead of needing to slow down, I actually need to speed up.

Anyway, those are just some of my thoughts I wanted to share. Please if you also have been dealing with this sort of thing as well I'd love to hear your thoughts! I am told mindfulness and meditation can also be used to find motivation and energy, but I still consider myself a beginner in the practice and wouldn't mind if anyone shared how these techniques helps them become motivated.

Thanks everyone!