sometimes i just want to disappear

@lanyard hi there! Thank you for sharing first of all, it takes a lot of courage!

It must be a stressful situation, given the fact that your husband is a good person like you say. However, perhaps you should ask yourself if it's fair to keep being In a relationship where you're not completely fulfilled and where you would like to pursue another interests.

Sometimes it takes a lot to sit down and be honest with ourselves, but you are in a great step already, by writing this! I wish you nothing but the best!

thanks! i do feel that letting it out gives me some sort of relief bc im unable to do it irl lol

@lanyard I hope you are able to do it someday! Rooting for you

@lanyard

I so relate to your situation ..... i look and do not feel what i think i should at this point in a marriage

Questioning our previous beliefs is very hard .........and many can relate to the stress involved with it....

Many items in life are very hard to deal with .... I am just coming to terms with my changing thoughts on some items .... do not blame yourself for questioning your previous belief.

Love is IMO fleeting and needs work to keep it going...... it is not selfish to want something else and even explore those feelings ......

i really hope i can be alot more comfortable of who i am. wishing u all the best too!