sometimes i just want to disappear
lanyard
July 30th, 2022
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im married but lately i began to wonder if this is what i want in life. i have a wonderful husband. he really is. is just that, i dont know if i love him. do you ever look at someone who is supposed to be your soulmate and feel nothing?
i feel selfish bc i cant love him the way i should, and at the same time i dont want to leave him. to make things more complicated, my attraction to women is raging these past few years and sometimes i really want to explore more on that.
i also considered myself quite religious and all these issues had been affecting my life like alot lately and it gets to the point where i wish i could just disappear