i need help..

Hi,do you still live with those people or around them who have that opinion and whom you were listening it from over the years?

@EllieElle

I've never been one to have too many friends in general, actually, I only have one best friend and I don't have the courage to tell her because if she doesn't accept I'm left completely alone. I still live with my parents unfortunately who I have quite an unhealthy relationship. whenever anything LGBTQ is related or when we see a same-sex relationship on media, it's always followed with rude comments or disgusted faces from my parents. It's basically shoved in my face which feeds my inner homophobia and i just don't know how to save myself

I completely understand. Try to somehow question her about these things but in a not direct way and see how she reacts,for example scrolling through news feed and showing her some video or story about the topic. Have in mind that family sometimes can have double standards - reacting differently when it's about their own member@when it happens to them. And as soon as you have the chance,try to go on your own,change the surrounding,you will be amazed what wonders can that do. You are wonderful as you are & there's absolutely nothing disgusting or wrong with you!

@slytherinluvbot

thanks for your post. Rewiring our automatic and learned (or socially-taught) responses is hard, and you described yours so eloquently. It sounds like coming to terms is taking a lot of energy, and it's a real struggle to swim against the current, so to speak, so I want to recognize the efforts you are so clearly making. Accepting your true self is a process. You're unlearning however many years of social conditioning, and that didn't happen overnight. Likewise, unwinding all those "cords" that society wrapped around you is going to take time. Be gentle with yourself and recognizing that you're patiently sloughing off years of social conditioning to reveal the beautiful butterfly that you are inside. :)

I like the first response from @EllieElle. Perhaps removing yourself as much as you can from the people who have negative opinions of homosexuality would be an excellent first step. Finding your community around you is going to be a bit more challenging, what with social distancing etc. but online communities can help as well. People on 7Cups are generally very kindhearted and welcoming.

@InquireWithin thank u so much!!! ur really sweet and what u said is reassuring :) I'll keep that in mind