Situationship

Hey everyone. I was dating a girl for almost one year. We had a planned breakup because she was moving away to a different state for grad school. I wanted to do long distance but she didn’t want to. Our plan was to stay friends after the breakup and I was hoping she would still be in my life somehow because she wasn’t only my partner but my best friend. Anyways I told her that she needed to be the first one to reach out to me if she wanted me still in her life. It has been 7 months of silence. We have not spoken since the last day and I feel so incredibly hurt. I did not think the ending of our relationship would turn out this way. Some days I struggle with grief. Some days I feel fine, then angry and then still cry about it. I miss our wonderful memories and I wish she had messaged me. It confuses me because she told me at the end of the breakup that I was “ amazing, wonderful partner, unforgettable and loving”. If I was all of those things then why lose me in your life? We never even fought in our relationship either. Feeling lost and need some advice.