@Barltik2065
Aww. I feel you. My mom can understand but still she prefers that I end up with the opposite. My dad, hmmn.. not sure..
The feeling that you want to be proud of who you are because for the longest time you’re in a hiding. You want to be accepted and not just by everyone but especially those who meant a lot to you. Like your family and relatives.
You still consider what their friends will say and think, their co-workers, their friends in the community, in the church. Then you also consider the people you know from school, work, church etc who never knew.
All these crushes you inside, your heart and mind are very much in pain.