How do I learn to accept myself

Hey @Moon171
I can imagine how difficult it would be for you to accept yourself but also if you don't accept yourself first how could you expect from others to do the same ? ❤
It will be hard because we are wired to think of some things as good , acceptable , worthy of acceptance and others not so much . So maybe a good step is to begin changing this wiring and conditioning?
try and list things you feel you are unable to accept or don't seem good to you , then list why it doesn't feel acceptable to you . 9 out of 10 things would be something from outside conditioning what others , the people around have told you . Let these go and try and to rediscover yourself from the start, your likes, dislikes, your personality . Eventually someday you will be proud of keeping on going in this journey of self love and acceptance . And just believe in yourself, you're worthy of accepting and loving yourself as how you are . ☺

it was really difficult when i started to question my gender but the friends i had at the time were very acceptable so i practiced with them first. i tried to tell teachers i trusted but when i put my name on class work, they wouldn’t even grade it cos it wasn’t my legal name. i eventually came out to my dad and he literally said ‘maybe you just like dick again’ and that destroyed me. i dropped out of school and went back into the closet but i knew i wasn’t a girl and refused to be called one, so identified as non-binary until i knew for sure that i was a boy. i had sit and talk to myself about it for a while. i realised it was very much getting in the way of my mental health and if i chose to accept it and believe what my brain was telling me that i would some how feel better. so i came out again to my whole family and it’s taken them time to learn and some of them think they get it due to absurd reasoning but everyone respects my name and pronouns. my grandma still calls me she sometimes even though i’ve been out since i was 16 but my dad keeps blaming it on her being old. i’m on testosterone and that has also changed my way of thinking. i was never physically able to picture a future where i had a flat chest but i knew i needed it and my life changed after top surgery. i’m currently trying to get my hysterectomy rescheduled cos i missed it, but i have never contemplated phalloplasty until recently and my brain is so confused. i’ve never felt like you need a penis to be a boy, but i never thought i’d want one this badly until like last year. if you’re able, maybe watch some videos on youtube made by other trans people to see if you maybe relate to what you’re going through. if you don’t, at least you’re educated and you know.