Questioning or not?

@Quest4me2

It sounds like you have the challenge of questioning complicated by trauma. It can leave us feeling sort of tied up in knots trying to understand what is "real." For many sorting out their identity separate from their trauma requires processing the trauma and understanding how may not have changed what they want, but more what they are willing to want, or how they are willing to fill that want.

Overall it is a very personal journey of self understanding, and while having a label can be comforting, it can be very hard to find one that fits. I tend to focus on understanding what I want as the most important thing, and what I call it is more about simplifying communicating that to others. It does sound like at the moment 'questioning' might be a good label for the feelings you are having but only you can decide if that's right for you.

There are more and more labels every day I still learn new ones all the time, most recently I've been learning some that actually incorporate the effects of trauma into the label. For example, caedsexual is an asexual spectrum orientation, defined as someone who had experienced sexual attraction at one point, but that it has been "taken away" as a result of trauma.

So many words, but ultimately understanding yourself and what you want and need may be more useful than any name you give it. You mention wondering if it is something you need to revisit in therapy, ultimately I would ask if you feel that will be what you need?

I hope that you will be able to listen to yourself, and find answers to your questioning.