revanentoftriquetra journal-nhillosh (possible trigger warning but unlikely)

i recalled the laws for drinking alcohol or drugs in the combine, for alcohol the drinks you could get were determined by your age, for exampel if you were a teenager you would only be able to get ale or perry, when you grow older the % per drink of alcohol you could consume would get higher, for example when you were 50 you could drink vodka.

high elves happen to have a sense to see if creatures that mean them harm are nearby, because i am half high elven i have this sense it was just triggered by a nearby creature which i sensed as goblinoid, i only get a rough idea of what the creature is usually and it only works on beings with souls.

typically a drow would be the only creature that could make this sense off target, however i hope that its just off since i came here

i somewhat hope i will vade away at some point, hopefully soon. when i first came here i saw this as a miracle, now i see it as a disaster. when i first saw this world it facinated me, now i just see places where i dont belog.

i hoped to find a place where i could belong but now, i know thats nearly impossible. so many like me die before reaching such a goal, why should i be any different

Out of the three I preferred the third book The Return Of The Kings no doubt you have your own favourite.

at the combine i cant remember what we had for breakfest but lunch was always a curry and dinner was usually something like cucumbers. we also had pudding cups and jello

no matter where i go i need to remember who i am and what i am, i am not human, and i am here to spread my knowledge that i have gained from that. i cannot listen to anyone who says otherwise, but the combine says listen to all, it creates a paradox. someone saying the combine doesnt exist but the combine's teachings telling me to do listen to all opinions.

i suppose i will jsut have to listen and not let it effect me, like a barbarian.

so if you didnt know the elven naming system is different from human names, while i didnt use it my crush/bff bryn (del) did, you see at birth and childhodo they are given a (meant to be) genderless name, and when they reach adulthood they choose their own name. with the old name becoming their last name, children dont have last names.

elves dont sleep like humans either, we kind of just turn our motor system off and we meditate. so we "sleep" for 4-8 hours, with ourbrain fully functioning, a popular passtime is trying to work on a mental project like imagining your future or remembering your past. i tried to sleep like an elf my first night here, but i ended up falling asleep.

sweets are a weird concept aswell, i like them. i think gnomes had sweets but thats about it.

so drow have a tendency for telepathy and mind linking, it happens naturally to those they care about. so i was thinking, if i tried to connect to him long distance it could work. giving me a line back, it would work like multi dimensional Email.

my experiment worked whether by multiuniversal laws or im mad, but im happy with how it turned out.

i reconnected with my homeplane, however its in to much chaos to get a clear reading, i only got some information. it was a choldrith raid, not a rift. (the alert that i died during). choldrith are agents of lolth, horrible mixes between man and spider. they probably came to kill bryrl, i hope hes alright, due to his ptsd from the lolth cults hes afraid of spiders