moonspace. (my lonely corner)
TW just in case.
hi,
this is just my new diary thread. :') …i was going to write an introduction and then a paragraph or two about why im making this new space until i realised i’m not a person worth knowing anyways, and nothing i say would actually matter. now that i think about it most of what i'd write would be pathetic.
*i’m doing it again - being pathetic. ugh.* anyways… there is just one note i’d like to add here… please, no replies 💜 unless i have tagged you somewhere in this space. i probably won’t be tagging anyone right now though.
this is just my new corner. my lonely space.
thanks for reading :')
- ni.
today i realised that i genuinely may have *** up my body somehow. i don’t mean through sh, i just mean i *** it up without knowing. which doesn’t make sense because i’m being extremely vague. it’s weird *** so i don’t wanna go into detail. but i think i *** something up so that’s great :D
of course there’s no way of knowing what’s actually been *** up, i don’t talk about it ever. my mom used to be a nurse… i could ask her i guess but i never do. i can’t bring myself to. and of course she never lets us see a doctor unless she says so…
bruh why i am complaining
i should shut the *** up.
tw///talk of su!c!de.
i've been trying to find reasons to stay alive. attempting… that would take planning and preparation. and that takes TIME. and i have time, sure - but bro i'm not good at planning i'm not good at preparing *** i’m good at procrastinating. and i joked about this once but this is the biggest thing i’m procrastinating on lmao 😀 😂
i’m trying to find reasons to stay alive, i have a few i guess. idk. it's not working too well. most things make me think of… k.ms. this thing, it’s literally like a disease. the ideation. i don’t think these thoughts will ever actually leave me, they might come and go, but they won’t truly leave. Which is fine idk i don’t really mind.
I genuinely think i'd do it if i had the means. i don’t. which is sad…
tw///death
i don’t think it will matter much when im dead. it’ll just be like…
one pathetic life began, and then it ended 😀
it didn’t affect anything 💃🏻
i feel bad for the people who are lurking and reading this…
it is literally pointless ***. what i write, i mean.
i'm being really insensitive rn. 💀
there are so many things to hate about me :D
i'm sick of this pain
my stupid body
i’m sick of myself
