moonspace. (my lonely corner)
TW just in case.
hi,
this is just my new diary thread. :') …i was going to write an introduction and then a paragraph or two about why im making this new space until i realised i’m not a person worth knowing anyways, and nothing i say would actually matter. now that i think about it most of what i'd write would be pathetic.
*i’m doing it again - being pathetic. ugh.* anyways… there is just one note i’d like to add here… please, no replies 💜 unless i have tagged you somewhere in this space. i probably won’t be tagging anyone right now though.
this is just my new corner. my lonely space.
thanks for reading :')
- ni.
i always ask myself
will this happen, will that happen
somethig bad is always going to happen and you warn me of it and fill my brain with it every damn day
something bad is always going to happen and when it doesn’t happen it drives me insane
like why am i not anxious about it, and there you go something else to be anxious about
i want to talk to those people again
they are nice
they pretend to understand me, and pretending makes me believe in the lie
they pretend my silly little life matters, and it will mean something
there is some queer kid in the earth
a shockingly stupid one, that shockingly stupid one is me
this kid does stupid things ever dang day
this kid is dirty dirty dirty dirty disgusting disgusting always
me
myself
that’s me
no sir, it doesn’t matter, none of it matters
bro you told me to come out to them, do you even know my parents
do you even know what would happen if i told them i am the way i am
you don’t know, that’s why you told me that, that’s why you made me believe my life meant something to you when it didn’t mean anything
im sorry
remember the other day we said we wanted to hibernate forever
when was that, i don’t remember but i want to hibernate
forever and ever and ever and ever