in the wonders of my mind💗.

_{almost everyone left. or is on break.}

a lot got banned.

_{one permanently.} 

_{shadow hasn’t joined any online classes.}

_{or done any assignments since school got canceled.}

_{which is weird for him I guess.-}

_{dad came back gotta go.-}

_{I found my brothers (social media) account.}

_{he’s on 3 different social media platforms.}

_{"never back down never what???"}

_{I’m gonna cry.}

_{I really can’t rn.}

_{my heart hurts so bad.}

_{I miss having friends.}

_{I miss having someone.}

_{I miss smiling.}

_{literally all the time. I smiled all the time.}

_{I miss laughing at everything.}

_{I miss shadow asking me why I laughed so much. It made me feel like ***. but less than a minute later I’d be smiling again because of my friends.}

_{I miss thinking with my friends about what college we would go to together. and how we’d be in the same room. and grow together.}

_{we thought nothing would ever separate us. we’d be best friends till the end of time.}

_{we thought we’d adopt kids or. work at the same job and company.}

_{that we’d be the type of friends to grow so old and tell others we were best friends since primary.} 

_{we used to go on this one amusement park a ton and we’d sit on this one ride where it’d take us really high up. and we’d laugh at everyone else on the ground because we were on a "higher level"}

_{we used to go to cinemas and talk about how we were so cool as a joke for walking in malls without parents.}

_{we used to go window shopping because we’d make jokes about how we were shopping the broke way.}

we used to argue about who’s face would be in a subliminal video because we thought everyone would want to look like the other.

one of us would stay afterschool to beg a teacher to put us together in the seating plan. 

_{lmao I made the text white to make myself feel less lonely and to not have to reread this again but *** that I guess.}

_{I swear I’m gonna cry.}

@Sunisshiningandsoareyou

hehehe💓

awwwwe yu shoosh cos sunnieshines don’t get to compliment beanies cos we all know they all apply to yu more than anyone🥺🤗💕💖🩷💗💞💓🩷💕🩷💗🩷💞💓:3💜

nuuuuuuu stoppp switching this on meee D: smhsmhhh we’re appreciating yuuuu and drowning yuuuu in loveee🥺💓erases me from yur thoughts💜now let’s thing about sunbuddy💖🦕💖

*not me counting the "ha"s cos I’m literally the best comedian✨😜/j/j/j/j* that’s five :000 flexing my humor✨✨😛/j/j/j smh life D:💙nothing gets in between me and frend🥺💕

:000 I missed yu x♾️+♾️ and I love you x♾️+♾️+3😛😁💖beat that heheh🤗💜

D: D: D: D: D: D: D: D: D: D: D: D: D: D: D: D: D: D: D: D: D: D: D: D: D: D: D: D: D: D: D: D: D: D: D: D: D:🚨🚨🚨🚨🚨🚨🚨🚨🚨🚨🚨🚨🚨🚨🚨🚨🚨🚨🚨🚨🚨🚨🚨🚨🚨🚨🚨🚨🚨🚨🚨🚨🚨🚨🚨🚨🚨

sorrysorry- reactions a bit extra xD? 

cough first of all >:💙you’ve never said you were doing or been anything but good/okay/alright etc :P💜and this makes me genuinely sad😞

my cups friends always like "everyone’s sad atp yu shouldn’t feel bad or wish yu could take it away whiskslalala etcetc" :P💙which I’m not sure I agree with😭

yus everyone’s sad atp but that doesn’t mean yu should lose all sense of empathy and or sympathy.. :')🩷? I understand what they mean too tho- I just don’t fully agree💜

I think there were other times where yu weren’t doing the best friend :')💙but still said other things :P💜that’s maybe why my brain thinks yur really not okie now >:🩷

second friend no matter what yu think I’m always gonna worry💕yur my friend and I care about you so much🩷

I know the sunbuddy most of us know is always vv positive and sunshine-y and bright💖but really- issokie to not always feel like it💗

third :P💓lovely can we talk about- yuuu cos like😭you reply to about literally every forum I see- I noticed it on my very first day here xD💕do you remember when I was kind of hm- obstinate? or like I wouldn’t budge and I only said at the end that this convo made me smile💖? I- kinda thought yu were a male fsr xD

@iloveyouxx

 and I was like noooo males are scary and cruel and disgusting and selfish and psychotic and evil and they’re all the same no😭and you were *so* insanely nice and sweet😭so i was like ughhh don’t let them fool you😭but you did xD💖you stole a huge bit of my heart and you own it💗nothing else fills that space but you🩷you’re so- how do I explain it?? xD💗

@iloveyouxx

you’re such like-(watch me fail to word words✨) your own originally beautiful persun- yur like the most innocent and pure and cute and sweet and bright and optimistic and beautifully unique little angle kid hehe🥺💖you’re everywhere-making yu the first persun I ever talked to on cups💜

@iloveyouxx

you’re got the honor haha xD🩷everywhere spreading love and happiness and so many smiles and laughs and so much love💖

friend there’s smth wrong w my cups :') it wouldn’t let me post except in small sections but then it wouldn’t let me post at all. code 064? I really have to go now I know it’s harder to read I’m sorry I love you💖

@Sunisshiningandsoareyou

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@Sunisshiningandsoareyou

_/nfta💓

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