Weekly updates: Welcoming everyone to join!
@determinedWater55, @takashiwd, @mandapanda96, @dontbekiwi , @politeCup86 , @wanchan , @[Anyone + Everyone]
Hello my dears!
Hmm, I am tagging all of you here with a purpose, and that purpose is to get updates from you guys on weekly basis. My classes are going to start tomorrow, and I won't be able to come to 7cupsoftea so much, so this forum thread will be a medium for me to use~ You are tagged here, because you guys have really touched my life~ Really! And, so many other guys fall in this category, I am sorry that I could not tag you all, but if you see this just hop in here, okay? Love you. I am really grateful that I came to know you guys, you all are really special to me. *ghost hugs*
Okay, I want to start this thread with a question. *What are the changes that you want to see in yourself/your life in near future[in some months, probably a year at most]*.
You don't have to answer it right away or ever if you don't want to, just a question to think about! But, I would love to read your responses on this! <3 But, no pressure!
Okay, I will try to answer that question myself.
Hmm, my new term kicks start tomorrow, and like just another regular term , it will last for 6 months. During this semester, I want to become the kind of student I used to be. I want to work on my passion/interests, I want to remain fully focused with my studies during the whole term, I want to live one day at a time. That's it! :)
There have been some positive happenings in my life. I have started to see a therapist and had been on some helpful meds which is supposed to work against depression and anxiety[these are the problems I suffer problem at times], I got myself admitted to a meditation training center which starts in this month, it's a 4 day workshop[I am really looking forward to this], I am starting my guitar lessons from the next week. I hope I can remain emotionally stable with/without helps/support. Hmm, I hope to use this thread on weekly basis to post my statuses, I really wish to hear from you all as well! <3 I will , surely, nag you all to share your updates[your life happenings or anything you'd like to share, no pressure though, but I'd really love to know you guys more closely! <3] !
Okay, if you don't know me or any of these guys but you happened to bumped into this page, WELCOME!! Everyone is welcomed here, we could be friends, and you could participate in the chatters if you want to, I am encouraging you to do so! <3
Okay for those who don't know me, bit about myself,
I am currently just a student o_o I study computer science and engineering in an engineering university. I like playing the guitar, playing strategy games, reading novels[sci fi, fantasy , psychological thriller, mystery etc], watching movies[ mostly sci fi, psychological thriller], swimming, walking, yes you guessed it right, I am just another human being~~. I like to ponder about existential questions, mmm, like where we came from, what's our purpose...these kind of questions.. I am deeply interested in psychology , how human mind works, how cognitive functions drive us, how limbic system determines some of our behaviors etc. I am also interested in artificial intelligence. I love physics[Love reading about quantum physics stuff, I really want to know concepts of Quantum physics deeply] ,combinatorial discrete mathematics andgeometry. Hmm, many things from Harry Potter havedeep impression on many of the ideologies that I hold, you can safely call me a potterhead :D My favorite movie is matrix. I really love the idea of matrix and inception. Okay, that's a lot about me for today.
I wanted to write a lot more, but I am going to stop here. Gonna post again on 21th February, I wish for the best for all of you! <33333333333333333333 I really look forward to read from you all! <3
[P.S: I had a really long post, I think that'd more emotions in it, but it got lost in some misfortunate incidents, this is an attempt to recreate that message.]
Weekly Update #2
I realized I haven't given anyone an update on my life for awhile, so I thought now is the perfect time to do so. It may be a little sad, so only read if you want.
Today I went to see my therapist again and I felt for the first time, we really connected and I could be honest with her about how I was feeling. She refeeredme to a psychaitristbecause after our conversation today she thinks I may have a form of bipolar disorder which could explain why none of the medication I have tried has been working for me. I feel like I hit rock bottom on Tuesday, but that means it can only go uphill from here. I am hopefully that maybe soon I will get better, it is just going to take a lot of time and a lot of hard work, but I cannot give up.
Tomorrow starts our first day of Spring Break. I'm excited because I need a break from school to refresh and hopefully relax some. During spring break I plan on making a song for one of my friends on here and plan on drawing a lot. I'm also hoping I can cook some really good food. I love cooking, I find it comforting. Tomorrow I have to go grocery shopping, so that should be fun. I should make some homemade cookies over break and hand them out to the other students who are stuck on campus. I bet that would be really nice and people would be thankful for it. I love doing random acts of kindness, it makes me happy.
Hmm... what else...
I'm not sure, not many things are happeing in my life right now. On Monday I interviewed for a community service based program and I will find out in a week if I got in our not, but I'm not sure if I have. It's a competitveprogram but I think I can get into it. During the program, I will have to do 900 hours of community service , and I'm excited to make a difference in the world and work in my community.
I also found out today, we got the house for one of our organizations, so now many of us will have a safe space to live, which is awesome.
I guess that's about it.
mandaaa~~~ so much stuff~ wonderful stuff~ :D *claps*
Thanks Manda 4 sharing. It's nice and I really wish you a good luck. I will update also about me. Last Saturday I have tried hypnotherapy and since Sunday I'm on a healthy diet. She was good enough to make all the diet and exercise my plans and she somehow entered it into my subconscious :) I'm happy after that session and looking forward for my other sessions. I have stopped my anti depression med which was useless I guess and I wont see my psychiatric anymore bcuz withing 5 months there was no progress at all and I was able to open up in the hypnotherapy session much much much more. I miss u all guys and wish to hear from you soon. Love
Sounds so interesting~~~ I want to try hypnotherapy too~ Cx
I'd like to congratulate you with your amazing progress, Cupsaan~! :D I hope much much much more progress to coomee~~ :D
Love u Mizusan. Waiting for ur update lovely water. Hugsssss
I have nothing good to say though, Cupsan:o
I have nothing good to say though, Cupsan:o
Hmmmm how about any new song u heard? New book u read? New programm ur watching? Any progress u made? Any pic u paint? :D will love anything u will say
Nothing much, really D: I did go back to continuing a drawing I left~
http://i.imgur.com/PU2SH2h.jpg
but this was last month, and I think I started this last October or November 2014~ Cx
I showed the photoalready to the owner of the face, despite being undone~ XD I don't know if she has seen it and/or has she said anything about it. I deactivated my Facebook account some hours(?) after~ (It's where I sent her the photo.)
Last week, I did this:
http://i.imgur.com/Vc2sjt7.jpg
I couldn't find my trusty kneadable eraser, so I can't D:
It didn't turn out like the photo I was copying, but it still looks like a person~ XD
I still haven't got that "energy" to continue it, so it's still stuck like this~
(Plus I hate doing the eyebrows. They always end up looking so flippin ick XD I don't know how to draw them lol)
Oh, and I kindawrote something on our class' group on Facebook about asking for their support and help so I can catch up and get me back on track with my classes, knowing the semester will end this March. :)
That's great Mizusan! <3
You know what Mizusan~ You are a *good* person, seriously, can't really stress this enough. I hope you believe that as well. And, we need good people with heart full of compassion and empathy to influence differentframeworks, to make a difference. I am sure that whatever path you choose to walk in, you will leave people with positive vibes in them.
I am really glad that you are working toward getting back on track. *huggles*
Thank you so much (>/ / u / /<)
I would love to just do whatever and spread rainbows and hand out cookies and whatever where ever I want to go~ :D
(But I'm kinda like stuck in a cage with lethal guard dogs 360 with a pager LOLCx )
Also, an update to that me-asking-for-help-from-my-classmates, it didn't turn out so well (^ ^ ;)
Mizusan, you are very capable of everything you want to do :D pls try harder, with me
Thank you so much, Takashisan~ :D
@OnlyTemporary ;-; *glomps*
Yayyy, thanks for tagging me here Mizusan~ <3
Thank you for your update, Polite :) I hope that hypnotherapy works well for you. It actuall seems really interesting.
I miss seeing you around.
Your words are sweet just like U Manda, and your picis so sweet too, all the love 2 U
Omg!!!!!!!! Water is that ur drawings 4 real!!!!! Or these r real photos? ?? U r soooo talented! What an amazing real talent so professional and so perfect. U can be a greatest painter with that talent. I'm sooooooooo proud of u. How about painting laura the community manager here or anyone here we know? It would be a greaaaaaat idea as we can relate :) keep it up beautiful girl. Salamat 4 sharing :*
Thank you Cupsaannn~~ But I take ages and lol, it's rare for me to get that weird energy to go drawing stuff like these~ XD
Well I managed to get through another week of work without losing my job. I can't keep spacing out for periods of time doing nothing for much longer before someone notices.
ive been referedto a psychotherapist , I've seen her once but I don't think I'm gonna be able to open up to her I don't feel any connection to her .
Broke, i really hope you will figure it our soon and you will be able to keep your job and to connect with your therapist, please keep updating us and writing to us, wish you all the luck!
Hello Brokemind~~~ :D
I hope you keep getting through one week after another and another and another~~ (and not lose your job~) :D *shakes your hand to congratulate*
About your therapist, I think s/he needs to gather information about you and your needs in order to help you more? I hope you could connect with him/her/with someone and get the help you need~
I send you much love and hugs~~~
Thank you for sharing and have us updated~ :D
Update 2:
Oh well, wanted to post on February and this is middle of March, but here goes my next iteration of update mania.
Hi guys, I am doing well. My classes are going on infull swing......loving the courses so far I'm working on a big project of software engineering and I'm to give presentations every other week, while I'm pretty comfortable with the materials, but standing in front of a room full of teachers and fellow students and giving speeches seem bit daunting :3 I hope to overcome my stage frights, at least to a workable level. My team's project is to deploya collaborative peer driven academic support web platformfor university students(more on this another day), I'm really psyched about this project and I hope that we can deploy the way we envisioned.
There are some skills that I've always wanted to flourish in, I want to get working on them again as soon as possible.
Bit uncomfortable stuff:
I am not happy with my parents(I live with them as my university is really close to our home, I always think that I should move to the dorms but I don't do that.D:).
They want me to become a money oriented person. But, I am so not like that. They want me to become a regular person, you know? They have this flow for me,
Study -> Get a job -> Get a house ->Get a wife -> Make babies -> Grow old ... o_o
Seriously, I don't want that life. I feel scared when they talk about me getting married, Ifeel like 'Holy Jesus muffinChrist, I gotta run into the wild' .
Kidding apart, I seriously feel disconnected from them due to lack of proper communication , specially because of their close mindedness.
They don't get that(probably don't believe me) I study for the sake of knowing more. I'm not studying to be a sell-out at the corporate world.
I'm currently on my third year, so not much time left before I graduate, I want to study further. Currently I study on full free scholarship, so I don't rely on them for money.I am not sure whether I will need help from them when I'll go for pursuing my masters degree but if I do need financial support, I don't think they'llhelp me, which scares me a little bit. More on this later.
Love you all, stay amazing as you're, thank you all for being so nice and supportive to each other.
Oh goodness fudge. My parents, I think, are close-minded too.
And:
Study ? Study hard ? Get good (if not high) grades ? Get a job ? Earn money ? Keep earning money ? Get a house ? Get married ? Have children? Have grandchildren ? So on (this may be where I can do what ever it is I want LOL)
Thank you for Update Numero Dos~ :D
Stay fabulously amazing~
[Might be bit triggering, sorry]
[For future references,I never mind constructive arguments, so if any of you ever feel that I'm out of line at some point or should avoid something while conversing, please let me know! Love you all.]
ABundleofQuestions for everyone~
When we come to this world as a baby, we come here as a fresh , pure hearted human being, whilewe keep growing up, we becomedifferent persons bybeing influenced by different ideologies. Everyone has their story of how they've become what they are, right?
Okay. Now, lets say you meet this person who has done some horrible stuff in their life, andyou are given the full story of their becoming, will you hate that person if they say that they are going to continue doing the horrible things?
My point is, while at times we probably can't but feelbit hatredtoward the evil doers, but given they have their stories, should we hate them? Or, more like, is the hatred logically justified with respect to empathy?
(Sorry, Pretty vaguely presented. feel free to ask questions about what you find unclear)
Uhmmmm....... I.... I don't understand how to "hate" a person.... D:
Maybe... "not like"
I do not like it when people "forget" to return stuff they borrowed (like, LOL, they suddenly had amnesia. Oh, hey, remember the hair tie you borrowed from me last month. And the other one you borrowed the week after, the other two the week after that, and the cute ribbon hair pin you borrowed too yesterday. "Uh, what the heck are you talking about? *laughs*....... oh hey, can I borrow your hair tie?")
I donot likeit when a person accidentally sprays their (wretched) perfume on my face.
The acts of people, maybe. But the people themselves.... eh,I can't.Are you getting what I'm trying to say here? Am I making any sense? LOL
Bikey, I've been thinking about this kind of problem.
We have to connect to our intuition, more than be affected by other's words, so much of them are bad to us.
We have to practice it again and again, repeatedly.
Our purpose must be our priority.
Here's a question you can think about.
Crimson I think this is a very deep question. I've been introduced to this idea recently that evil doers have their deep pain and horrible stories and they are the result of it. And I think that it is being completely compassionate when we are asked to be compassionate and understand them and on the contrary to try to be kind towards them! But on the other hand how about ppl like us maybe :) who have been abused somehow and chose to be kind ppl and not continue their evil system. Maybe im not clear also lol. Thanks for your update biky and I love u and miss u allllll
I checked my grades for this semestre.....
I got F's~
Oh im so sorry water. Don't ever lose hope and try harder and u will be able to get what u want for sure. Hugs water. Is crimson bike is unknown now! How saaaaad is that!
Thank you Cupsaaannn~~~ cx *hugs back~~*
How is everyone. Please update us about how is everyone doing? Miss u all
Hallo~!! Cx
(Can't believe it's been this long (O u O;;;) )
I'm still in college (still having a bit of trouble, to be honest), and I got acquainted to new people (thanks to loud, friendly people LOL).
I finally told mom (through internet) about some of my troubles--going to some little details here and there and not labeling it as "Depression" or whatever disorder. It was really difficult, but I did it. She spoke to me when she got home and although she has told me to come to her whenever, I still can't gather courage and, well, just think about what to say, exactly.
She also advised me to talk to my sister, sorta emphasized she can help (she's taking up Psychology). But so far, throughout the years, it seems like despite everything I've told her--little things I notice here and there, my excitement, my worries, my happiness, my troubles, so and so, I'm always wrong. I never think. I overthink. I'm being too hopeful. I'm being too negative. And all of the things she says, I consider. It's good to hear an outside point of view.
I always conclude she's right.
I'm always wrong.
Why am I wrong every time? Why can't I learn? Why why why why
I don't know LOL Sorry this turned into a rant *sigh*
Soooo..... I got a new niece and nephew, each from different cousins (they are soooo adorable T u T), and one of them's gonna have a party on Sunday (August 2)~ I'm so excited to see little people being happy and playing and everything fun without a care in the world~~ <3
I scribble and draw little random stuff here and there, kinda like this old photo here: http://i.imgur.com/HZ0vKUD.png
If I haven't updated the previous one, this is how I have left it: http://i.imgur.com/v0FKDTq.jpg
An old friend from five, six, seven years ago(?) contacted me recently and asked if we could meet. (She knows where I live, so she'll come barging into the house if I say "no" anyway LOL) I do want to accompany her to her grandma, so hopefully we meet soon~
This is all that I can think of at this moment, but I'll go write anything alse on the next update~
I love you all T u T~ I miss you and stay awesome~ <3
*serves magic rainbow pastel cake of happiness~~*
@consideratePenny4784 Jajaaann~~~~ Cx
Hello Mizusan 
Yeah, it does feel so long since anyone posted last here. Thanks for reviving this thread once again! 
I'm glad to hear that you got acquainted to new people. Having connections is nice. 
Proud of you that you shared some of your inner feelings with your mom as I can understand, it may take immense courage to do so. Your mom seems like a friendly person!
About your sister, it's great that she's taking psychology! Best wishes to her.But, I
am not sure to what extent she can help in handling real problems given that she's a student, not a professional( I mean, without experience). One question, Mizusan. Does your college have a student counselor? (My college doesn't. >.>) If you have one, I think using that resource can be better.
Glad to hear about your new nephew and niece! :D I love kids as well! Humans in their happiest state, right?
I'm really happy to hear about your soon-to-be-happening meeting with your old friend, <3 I love these moments.
Thanks for all the happiness and rainbow stuff that you share with us~~ <3 I wish you all the happiness in the world, you deserve it! LOVE YOU LOTTLES!
P.S:
Your drawings are amazing like always! <3 Please draw more and if you do, post it here! <3333333333333
And, the rainbow pastel cake was tasty! :DDD
Please write here whenever you can and want to! 
(Lots of love)
Mah Bruchachoo~~ Cx
We have counselors, but... I didn't like it at all ;-; I gave it another shot, but I really didnt' like it ;-; it made me feel more awful and they kinda emphasized I'm not doing enough or I'm not doing things right to help me become better ;-;
(I know I'm trying real hard, but true or not that I'm not being enough, it made me feel more down than I already am which stresses me out and drains me so much O - O;;;;;)
About my niece that had a party, it was on the spot that they told me I had an important role to fill * - * I was quite shocked to even process it, but oh well~ XD
And oh, I hanged around the children at that time (which is kinda weird because the adults were on a different side of the place xD ) and I had lots of fun scribbling with them and watching cartoons and playing dolls and toy cars~ CX
My friend and I havne't met yet, sadly. hopefully, soon~!
I have drawn a few and will try to remember to post them next time~! Cx
And oh, I was sick for the past few days. ;-; have been doing chores and making improvised home made ice cream (which have been turning out quite gooooddd~~), random silly drawings and some chats here and there~ Cx
Take care and lots of love and rainbow sparkles~!! <3