Weekly updates: Welcoming everyone to join!
@determinedWater55, @takashiwd, @mandapanda96, @dontbekiwi , @politeCup86 , @wanchan , @[Anyone + Everyone]
Hello my dears!
Hmm, I am tagging all of you here with a purpose, and that purpose is to get updates from you guys on weekly basis. My classes are going to start tomorrow, and I won't be able to come to 7cupsoftea so much, so this forum thread will be a medium for me to use~ You are tagged here, because you guys have really touched my life~ Really! And, so many other guys fall in this category, I am sorry that I could not tag you all, but if you see this just hop in here, okay? Love you. I am really grateful that I came to know you guys, you all are really special to me. *ghost hugs*
Okay, I want to start this thread with a question. *What are the changes that you want to see in yourself/your life in near future[in some months, probably a year at most]*.
You don't have to answer it right away or ever if you don't want to, just a question to think about! But, I would love to read your responses on this! <3 But, no pressure!
Okay, I will try to answer that question myself.
Hmm, my new term kicks start tomorrow, and like just another regular term , it will last for 6 months. During this semester, I want to become the kind of student I used to be. I want to work on my passion/interests, I want to remain fully focused with my studies during the whole term, I want to live one day at a time. That's it! :)
There have been some positive happenings in my life. I have started to see a therapist and had been on some helpful meds which is supposed to work against depression and anxiety[these are the problems I suffer problem at times], I got myself admitted to a meditation training center which starts in this month, it's a 4 day workshop[I am really looking forward to this], I am starting my guitar lessons from the next week. I hope I can remain emotionally stable with/without helps/support. Hmm, I hope to use this thread on weekly basis to post my statuses, I really wish to hear from you all as well! <3 I will , surely, nag you all to share your updates[your life happenings or anything you'd like to share, no pressure though, but I'd really love to know you guys more closely! <3] !
Okay, if you don't know me or any of these guys but you happened to bumped into this page, WELCOME!! Everyone is welcomed here, we could be friends, and you could participate in the chatters if you want to, I am encouraging you to do so! <3
Okay for those who don't know me, bit about myself,
I am currently just a student o_o I study computer science and engineering in an engineering university. I like playing the guitar, playing strategy games, reading novels[sci fi, fantasy , psychological thriller, mystery etc], watching movies[ mostly sci fi, psychological thriller], swimming, walking, yes you guessed it right, I am just another human being~~. I like to ponder about existential questions, mmm, like where we came from, what's our purpose...these kind of questions.. I am deeply interested in psychology , how human mind works, how cognitive functions drive us, how limbic system determines some of our behaviors etc. I am also interested in artificial intelligence. I love physics[Love reading about quantum physics stuff, I really want to know concepts of Quantum physics deeply] ,combinatorial discrete mathematics andgeometry. Hmm, many things from Harry Potter havedeep impression on many of the ideologies that I hold, you can safely call me a potterhead :D My favorite movie is matrix. I really love the idea of matrix and inception. Okay, that's a lot about me for today.
I wanted to write a lot more, but I am going to stop here. Gonna post again on 21th February, I wish for the best for all of you! <33333333333333333333 I really look forward to read from you all! <3
[P.S: I had a really long post, I think that'd more emotions in it, but it got lost in some misfortunate incidents, this is an attempt to recreate that message.]
Hey guys :)
I thinkthat this is a great thread so we are able to keep in touch with everyone because we all have become so close over the time that we have been using this website.
To answer Bike's Question:
Currently I am in my second semester of college. I have been sort of lagging on my assignments and not working to my full potential. I want to give school my 110% and continue to be involved in as many organizations as I'm in now.
I also want to see myself find happiness. I know it will take awhile and I just have to give it time, but day by day life gets harder. I just have to wait it out and hope for the best. I also hope to find a therapist that works well with me and will help me on my road to recovery. That's about all I want to change in my life that I can think of right now, but I know there's more.
Positive things that are happening in my life:
I am attending a "Make a Difference" dinner tonight because I got nominated for a scholarship. I'll find out if I won it soon and I'll let everyone know :) I've also been invited to many leadership events and uhm, yeah. I also visited a soroity house to meet the sisters last night and I really enjoyed my time there. I may be joining one soon in order to have more positive influences in my life :D
Info about me:
I am currently a freshman in college. I study psychology and criminology. My dream is to work in the special victims unit and then open a nonprofit organization for survivors of abuse. I plan to use animals as therapy to help them and other uncommon methods such as music. I love being outdoors and exploring new places. Nature is my go to when I have a stressful day(if it isn't super cold outside). Hiking and rock climbing are so much fun. Hmm, I guess that's all you all need to know about me for now.
I hope you all have a good week and remember that I love you very much <3 You can overcome any battle you are facing and I'm sending love from my heart to yours <3
Thanks a lot Manda. So glad to read about u
Crimson bike what a nice idea!!! I will try to tag more ppl if u dont mind. They r great ppl . @pixie . @whyme11 . @daddylion003 . @rainyday15
Okey crimson. This needs brave but I will introduce myself. I'm polite and I'm really polite. I was raised in not a very healthy environment. My mom acted like a man and my dad acted like a women. They fighted a lot and mom abused dad a lot. He was never enough for her. I'm the youngest among my siblings. I was physically, verbally and sexually abused by my mother. She at the same time spoiled me a lot and I lived without much discipline. I was very much neglected as a kid and teenager. I was punished verbally and physically only if my mom felt I was being disrepectful to her and not bcuz I did something wrong. My mom is control freak and don't believe that I deserve any privacy. Her way is to spoil me by money. I tend to get out of the house everyday to stay away from home. I'm obese my whole life and I have binge eating disorder which is killing me slowly. My mom picks on me slowly for that reason. The more she verbally abuse me the more I eat. She cry a lot bcuz I'm obese. She loves me too much. I think too too much of love which is too much! I studied what she chose for me and worked in the field she chose for me. I'm in my worst weight ever. I reached 343 lbs - 155 kgs. I have a boyfriend who live in different country and I didn't see him in 4 years. I have a great friends and sisters and nieces and nephews and boyfriend. I'm very kind and smiling person who usually get loved by anyone who meet me. I'm pretty but not atractive at all bcuz I'm obese. I have a great anxiety . And I lack self confidence and I have a very low self esteem. I don't believe that happy end will be for me. I don't feel like I belong to my body and I always felt that I am suppose to be born as a male but I'm female. I think I'm bisexual but as a religious person this is not even an option for me. I never drink or did drugs or anything bad. I'm only addicted to food and that is it. I'm seeing a therapist for the past 4 months and he put me in antidepressants meds. Till now im unable to talk with him as it is so hard for me to express my self. I'm verrrrrrrrry sensitive person and I'm extremely glad to be tagged here as I'm glad that I'm welcomed by ppl here and im not a burden. I talked a lot and I think I should mention WARNING TRIGGIRING
I'm so glad to know more about u
Sorry I mean crimson I'm so glad to know more about u :)
@daddylion003 thanks a lot for ur nice words. I regretted my honesty lol but when I read ur post now. I feel that it was really better to share my story :) you are very caring father and looking forward to hear your story!
So... uhm..... I'd like to start with:I am not used to talking about myself and I find it uncomfortable and I don't like it.
But I'm tagged..... so I'll try...?
I'm sorry for anything wrong in my post (or the entire post itself.) I stink at composing stuff and everything. *sets aside my perfectionism in an airtight box in the other room*
(I held my tears from the beginning of your post, Crimson-kun.... that heart/chest pain kinda thing was goin on.)
For Crimson's Question:
With all honesty, what came to mind were a lot of negatives. (Will not state them for they can be triggering.) Yes, they arewants.Forcing positivity into my head, I would like to have control over myself again, just like I used to -- not breaking down and falling apart so easily, not having such pains even with the littlest thoughts with things, not having unwanted negativity that constantly runsthrough my mind, so and so~~. I would also like to be back into "the good things", and not be enslaved by this.... "reality" that I am in now.
To summarize everything because expressing myself is fllippin difficult for me, I want the old stuff back (and possibly better.) *bows*
Positive Happenings for the past few days:
?my heart still beats;
?my lungs still contract and expand;
?I haven't cut and burned myself intentionally;
?I helped my sister with her school stuff (a report);
?I told a close friend(online)and my sis(in person)about my urges to self-harm(cutting), I just told them, then *changes subject immediately*;
?I have been using this RR Eating Disorder Management app (Cupsan, you check this app out too~), and it helps me become aware that I havefeelings and labeling them (or whatever it's called);
?I saved spiders (these are the ones that I just happen to see as I do my chores and are in the way, so yaay, I didn't get them hurt or anything by accident~~);
?I posted something on social media that kinda "hints" what I am going through. (I'm planning on opening up to everyone someday. It's flippin hard and I have absolutely no idea how to because I don't even understand myself and everything..... I don't think anyone reads my posts anyway, so I'm a bit relieved~);
?I have connected to a few listeners;
?I've made new friends in the chatrooms; and finally,
?This post, right here.
(I can analyze the previous days and think real hard about all the littlest positive things I could possibly find, but nah.)
I'd say I've done well so far, making this post within 24 hours~~~ (and yes, with tears and chest pains and taking breaths and some short breaks, to-and-fro)
I wish you all the best~~ ♪Take care and spread love~~? *hugs hugs hugs~~*
PS: I intentionally skipped the "About Me" part. Sorry. I just can't. What I've written above is all that you get~ (^ u ^;)
Thank you @CrimsonBike, @mandapanda96 and @politeCup86 for sharing~ (including the love and care~) ?
Cupsan, you are very beautiful and strong and really brave~ :D *extra hugs*
Thank you for sharing Water <3 I love you very much and you are so strong.
I want you to know I'm always here for you and I am so thankful that I met you.
Thank you so much Manda~? (Q u Q) ? So sweet of you~~ ?
Mizusan, you are a wonderful, talented , lovely being! I am a big fan of your drawings since I saw your sketch one time, I still remember it, that sketch showed real expertise, and you're amazing in many ways, you support/welcome many people in the group support rooms through your positive vibes, you touch us with your sweetness, your kindness, we'll always be here for you as you're with us, though virtually the feelings meant are not so much tangible but I hope that our love for you can touch you closely. <3<3<3
I trust in you Mizu, whatever you're going through, I have faith in you that if you try, you can improve the situation. Love you.
Ohhhhhhhh Mizusan water u r amazing and so brave and what a fantastic way of writing. U make me imagine things while reading which is very creative of u. I really appreciate your efforts and tears and chest pain. If u keep writing these will be less everytime. You are a very sweet person and u always make me feel special like when u told me extra hug for me :D I will search for that app and download it. Stay strong. You are a fabulous determined water
Aaaaawwwwwwww~~~ Cupsan, that's toosweet of you ? (Q u Q) ? Thank you so much, Cupsan~~ AndI'll do my best to keep on writing and opening up to people. :D
And also,
??? ~~CupsanisSpecial~~ ???
*showers you with rose petals and sparkles*
Ohhhhhhhhh your so kind (good tears in my eyes)
Here is some positive Energy
:D I was lurking
Best luck to us all
It's Lunar New Year here
Happy New year Taka Taka Takashi 💖
@mandapanda96, @politeCup86 , @determinedWater55
Thank you so much for sharing your life happenings with me. I am really glad to read your posts.
@takashiwd , Happy Lunar New year to you too! <3 You're one of the positive beings here.
I totally forget about posting my weekly update status last Friday but I will post it soon.
Love you all. Mizusan, it's okay , feel free to share as much as you want to, no pressure. Politecup san , thanks again for sharing, you're a great soul! <3 Manda, thanks for sharing more about you, I feel really glad to know you all bit more. :)
Oh Bikey you are an amazing writer. And so loving person. Can't wait to hear ur updates. Ur writing makes me feel less lonely. I miss u guys. And hope to hear from everyone. Don't be kiwi is missed here a lot. I have not much update to be told. I'm less lonely. And I'm hoping to start dieting tom (lol as usual) let's see if I will stick to it :D wish me luck.
