This thread belongs to me and Spruce

@selflessSpruce1515

OH MY GONDOLA IT’S SPRUCEEEEE!!! MY FAVORITE 7CUPS USER!!! I MISSED YOU SO MUCH AND I LOVE YOU AND I CARE ABOUT YOU BEYOND WORDS!!!!!!

Trust me, not a day has gone by where I don’t think of you.

Okay here’s the paragraph (it’s what I formulated after reading your diary forum thread, so I’m just gonna jump right in to some heavy topics, mostly the first five words, sorry about that) (the font change was because I copied and pasted from my notes app)

Dear Spruce,

Even if you hate yourself, I love you more than you could ever imagine. I know that life hasn’t been easy for you and I’m so sorry. You’re a wonderful person and you deserve so much better. I know I probably can’t be of much help, but I’ll never give up trying. I’ll be by your side on good and bad days, listening and supporting you in any way I can. Please remember that your feelings are valid but not forever. If I were god, I would make it so that you were given all the happiest and love in the world. No matter what happens, you’ll always have me, through thick and thin, I’ll always care about you. I want to meet you in person so badly, I would hug you and never let go. I hope you know how much you mean to me. I would do almost anything to make you happy. As someone who has serious trauma, I can really relate to the aftermath of yours and how damaging it can be. I cried reading your difficult entires, I love you so much and I never want you to have to suffer. You know you can always come to me when you’re struggling, right? I don’t mind at all that you’re a bit older than me. I just want to be there to comfort you, always, forever, no matter what. Even though you’ll always deserve someone better than me, I want you to know that no matter what happens, no matter how hopeless it seems, no matter how little light there seems to be at the end of the tunnel, I will always, always be right by your side, giving you all the hugs and encouragement and empathy and kindness in the world. No matter what, no matter what you are worthy, valid, and beautiful. Even if you don’t believe it, I know in my heart that it’s true. I don’t care if it takes the rest of our lives for me to convince you how amazing you are, I’ll never give up. You’re truly perfect just the way you are.

*Huggles you tightly* I can’t wait for August when we can talk via private messages again! I don’t know how I’ve lasted 20 days without you. I hope this isn’t too much to say since we’re online friends, but you’re one of my favorite people. I’ve never met someone as kind, sweet, and thoughtful you are. If you aren’t the definition of a good person, I don’t know who is. I love you!

@selflessSpruce1515

Oh my dear good god, last night was the worst night in the history of the world. It won't let me post the story to the forum thread because it keeps saying "something in your forum post sounded like you might be in crisis. If you are thinking about harming yourself or someone else, please refer to these crisis resources." I tried deleting/replacing some of it, but it still won't let me post it. So here's the link to the google doc with the story of what happened last night:

https://docs.google.com/document/d/1iPBN1oY7QTNidg8-psBtmOQ8f5wgqZuklC2K-PeDhfE/edit?usp=sharing

@selflessSpruce1515

Out of everything in the world, one of the things I appreciate the most is our friendship. I’m so grateful for you. You are more than enough. My life is much better because you’re in it. You make me float up like millions of balloons. You’re more than an excellent friend. You’re one of the best friends I’ve ever had. I hope you’re proud of yourself and how far you’ve come because I know I am. Even the things you don’t like about yourself make you more lovable. I’m infinitely grateful we met. All the pain you’ve been through is valid and understandable. If I could take it away, I would. But I can’t, so all I can do is give you my love. Your existence makes me smile eternally. I trust you more than anyone on this planet. You’re a ray of sunshine on a desolate day. Loving you feels like the most natural thing in the world. I love and accept you just the way you are. You always make my day. You’re more than what I deserve. Somehow, you make time stop and fly at the same time. You’re amazing, and I’m lucky to even know you. You are beautiful inside and out. You always seem to know what I want to hear. You have a heart of gold. Thank you for being you. Many of my fondest memories include you. I don’t know what I did to deserve someone as loving as you. Life is always happier with you around. Nothing about you is mediocre. There’s ordinary. And then there’s you. I didn’t know how important friendship was until I met you. You’re my constant reminder that people can be good. You’re even better than a unicorn because you’re actually real. Thank you for existing. The world would be so boring without you. I know I can't imagine life without you. I'm sending you the best of wishes and I hope all your dreams come true. I'll be right by your side through everything. I love you beyond words, Spruce. Happy birthday.