The Grove of a Spruce Tree 🌲
Hello! You can call me Spruce. I just discovered this interesting diary entry section of 7 Cups, and this is something I’ve been looking for. I need a place where I can spill out all of my thoughts without criticism, and that’s not something I can really rely on through 1:1 chats (even though I haven’t been here for that long, it’s my upfront impression).
I would prefer to keep this as a space for myself, but if anyone would like to send supportive comments for my post, just dive right in! I don’t mind at all 😊
So for anyone who may be reading this, there may be some rough topics such as family stress, severe self-hate, and some pretty graphic flashbacks (but not too graphic). I will try my best not to make this an inappropriate space, but I just wanted to give a heads up just it case it starts getting to that point.
Donuts are in full supply at all times, so feel free to grab a snack when you travel by 😊 And feel free to greet me when you’re here - I absolutely love meeting new people, and I want to build my support group here on 7 Cups ❤️
Just wanted to drop hugss *drops a whole pile* and say that I miss youuuu. Hope you are alright over there, Sprumioneeee ❤️🌈
@selflessSpruce1515
💖 Spruceyyyy you're being misssyyyy. Hope you're doing okay and taking great care of your sweet self. 💖 *leaves hugs and caramel ice cream*
I appreciate the sweet messages from every single one of you 🤗 I’ve been thinking of y’all too, and the fact that I was in your minds means the worldddd to me, you have no idea 🥺💖
@selflessSpruce1515
Spucieeeeeeee I was searching for you and when I searched your profile I found out you were on a break 😔 I didn't think you will be back this soon 😀 I hope you are doing well ❤️
@selflessspruce1515 🤗💖
Knock knock?
Who's there?
Not a joke! It's a reminder note this time that someone's thinking of lovely Spruceyyy and hoping they are doing absolutely amazing. 💖
💖🤗💖
*shares caramel ice cream*
@Sunisshiningandsoareyou
:0 Sunny Sunnnnnnnnnnnn 🤗❤️❤️ It means so much that someone is thinking of me after being away for so long :') *noms ice cream and hugs tight*
How are youuu? 💖
@selflessSpruce1515
Aww what Don said^
Your presence here was so bright that it's hard to not miss you when you're here, Spruceyy, your presence here matters and has created so much impact for all of us lucky beans who got to know you and be your "friendsie". 💖
Forever in our thoughts!🤗
*hugs hugs and keeps hugging*
I've been okay, getting through haha!
How about youu? What all have you been upto off cups?😮 I hope you've been taking good care of yourself like the wonderful Sprucey-you deserves! 💖
@Sunisshiningandsoareyou
Awwwww 🤗 ❤️
Up to this point, I've just been delving deep into my schoolwork mostly, but now I'm on winter break so I'm trying to do some more self care ❤️
(By the way, I loveeeeee the pfp ❤️ An elfy Sunny Sun, hehe 🤗)
@selflessSpruce1515
Aw yay I'm glad you can engage in some self care over the break. ❤ 🤗
(Thankyou hehe elfy Sunny Sun sends you a box full of caramel ice cream 🥰)
Happy Holidays, Spruceyyy!❤
@selflessSpruce1515 Hey Spruce :) Hope things are going ok in your world. Thought I'd drop off a holiday rattie to wish you a Merry Christmas! ❤️ Hope you don't mind
Merry Christmas Spruce ❤️
@mytwistedsoul
Soulllllllll 💖 *hug hug* Thank you so much, and Merry Christmas to you tooooooo ❤️
@selflessSpruce1515 Spruce! Thank you ❤️ Gosh it's nice to see you! 😊
It’s wonderful to see you too, me friendsieeee! How have you been? ❤️
@selflessSpruce1515 I'm sorry to hear you're not feeling too good. Gotta make sure you have Spruce time to rest and relax 🙂
*sending you good vibes* ❤️ take good care of yourself ok?
Honestly, I don't know what's wrong with me. I feel like a completely different person who is so *** unstable that I can't even go a day without thinking about how useless I am to this world. I hate these thoughts with passion, yet they won't leave me tf alone. Most of the time, I feel trapped in my head, and I don't know how to break out of it. I'm so terrified. What can I *** do.. T-T
I can't even find a damn purpose in this world anymore. I thought that I would be okay, but after I lost the one person, the one person who believed in me, cared for me, loved me, I have felt so *** dead to the world and done with life. I even started having ideations, those of which I never even imaged were possible. How the *** am I supposed to heal from this ***, what the *** can I possibly do to not feel what I feel. I can't stay numb anymore, it doesn't last and it makes everything *** worse.
I just feel so done, alone, and unlovable. I am starting to lose hope more and more each day, and I don't know what to do. What is even the point? :')
Spruce, I want you to know that you're not alone and I've felt this before. I don't have much to say because I don't know what would help you right now but I thought I'd reach out here ❤️🩹❤️🩹❤️🩹
@JennyINFP
Aww, Jenny :') Honestly, I completely understand if you don't have a lot to say to this since it's not easy to figure out how to help in these kinds of situations, but the fact that you replied to my rant and made me feel heard means so much 🥺 I honestly appreciate you more than you realize, and yesssss, you are absolutely my sister by heart too 🤗 Thank you for always being there for me in group chats and entertaining me with your humorous stories, gossips, video clips, and more ❤️ Again, I appreciate you so much 💖
@selflessSpruce1515
You're welcome Spruce!! 🤗🤗 I hope things get better for you and that you know that you are also very loved in the chatrooms 💖
Happy New Years Eve!!
