Hiya spruce hope you're doing pawsome!

No matter what we have come through, or how many perils we have safely passed, or how imperfect and jagged our life has been, we cannot in our heart of hearts imagine how it could have been different. As we look back on it, it slips in behind us in orderly disarray, and, with all its mistakes, acquires a sort of eternal fitness, and even, at times, a poetic glamour." – Randolph Silliman Bourne

@selflessSpruce1515

Light is not proud :( Light wishes no one would eat glitter smh XD

Hey everyone 🤗

I wanted to let you all know that I will be resuming my self-care break starting tomorrow (on July 1st, where I am). This means that I will not be on cups at all, just so that I can focus on my studies and also on myself for a bit. Howeverrrrrr, I will be visiting cups on July 7th (my birthday) and on July 13th (and additional day to say goodbye to another member who will be going on a very long break) for a few hours each day. I will be able to reply to all pm's and forum tags then.

I will be on more consistently in the end of August, as I have mentioned in a previous post. However, I will not be in group chats as much as I used to– I wanted to make all of my teenie friendsies aware of that. You will definitely see me in forums though, so feel free to tag me any time you want me to contribute to any conversations. I'd absolutely love to contribute my ideas! 😛

I will miss you all sooooooo much, and I wish you all the very best with everything! You will be in my thoughts, and I love ya all 💖💖

Take care, everyone! *hugssssss* 🤗 ❤️❤️❤️

With so much love,

~ Spruca 🌲

Yayyy!!! Hewwo sprucy!! I think I muted I miss you!! I wanted to talk to u. I wish I could talk to little and Adrien too!! I glad I can talk to you tho. U my favourite spruca. I wuv you x

Wow, I haven't posted here in quite some time 😮 But I thought I would share one really great song that I found 🤗 I will start writing regular entries at the end of August, since I will be done with exams then ❤️

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This is one of my favorite songs at the moment, and actually all of the songs written by the group, "Of Monsters and Men," are absolutely beautiful (yet emotional in a wonderful way 💓). I've honestly never heard a song like this one in particular, because it's established like a mini-story that symbolizes how humans have to survive in this world- it's not easy, but it's how the story goes. ❤️ I hope that you enjoy this one, just as I have. 🤗 ❤️

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And I wanted to say thank you to everyone who wished me well on my break. I cannot emphasize enough how much your posts mean to me. I love ya all beyond words 🤗 ❤️

Also, some of you may noticed that whenever I was in group chats, I haven't been as talkative as before. Furthermore, I know that I haven't really been responding too much to forum tags either. I'm going through a bit of a difficult time in my offline life right now. I won't expand on this, and probably never will, but I really appreciate your patience and understanding. Thank you for the support and care you have shown towards me, especially during the dark times of my life- you all mean so much to me, you have no idea 💖💖💖

I wish you all the very best with everything, and hope you are doing well and staying safe ❤️ Take care, and see you very soon 🤗 ❤️❤️

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Tagging the visitors of my grove, specifically so that they can read the last portion of this post: @Angelx28 @Sunisshiningandsoareyou @emotionalTalker2260 @Everlee @coldbreeze00 @mytwistedsoul @fearfearfear @BookishBlue13 @AGuardianAngel @Wheeki16 @JennyINFP @SystemFireSkye @CupoSad076 @DonaldDraper @FreddieOnyx @jv13076 @BlueDarkAurora @TryingTBH2021 @taylorhugs12 @elli025 @Wefington @ruggedheart0 @kieran000 @Fluffysheep8 @KaikaiKitan @MelodyoftheOcean @TheRandomEMT @tidyHickory3283 @Swiftygirl13 @Sky9763 @Harsvin @HopieRemi @Iamsidhere @WarmLightXO @GloriaD @VaryingCloud @GoldenNest2727 @shinequeen001

💖 @selflessSpruce1515 💖

Spruceyyyyyy, Happy Happpy Birthdayyyyy. I love tagging you always, but this one's an extra special tag because it's a birthday wish tag hehe. I can honestly go on and on about the things I appreciate about you, the things you do, the beautiful words you shower upon everyone, the adorable gifs and reminders you leave in our threads, the sweet ways you make your presence felt, the wonderful ways you make us all know "I'm here for you, you're not alone.", the kind ways you make us feel special and make us feel like a better person for knowing you and being able to talk to you and receiving so much warmth from you. I'd go in more details but that'll take me months and It'll still be not enough, so here's what I'll say, Sprucey, we met almost randomly hehe, I remember our first forum interaction and call it something cosmic lol but with some people you just know instantly that okay, this one's different, they are "my" kind of special and they will make things better with their presence alone. You were and you are and you will be that person always, one who makes things magically better by being there, by being *yourself*. I feel proud of you every single day, how you battle all the challenges and how you find reasons to smile and even make others smile despite whatever situation you're facing, I call it your "always catching onto the rainbow end of things" and you inspire me so much to do the same. Thank*you* for being you, and for bringing so much joy and compassion to me and everyone else here. I hope the happiness, love and kindness you spread around always returns to you multi-fold, because you so very much deserve all of it and more.

Your existence is celebrated today and everyday. And I love you lots, today and everyday hehe. ❤

Sending lots of caramel ice cream your way. ❤

Happy Happy EveryDay! Stay Spruceyyyy! 😛💖

🤗 *wraps you in hugsss* 🤗

Just retagging @RhayneClouds, since they recently changed their username ❤️

This song- :') I listened to it around 5 times in a row, and I cried each time (like real tears 🥲). I felt every beat, every melody, and every lyric in my bones. No song has ever done that before, honestly. As an empath, I do internalize the emotions of everyone and everything, even songs. But the emotions from this song are so strong that I actually started shaking a bit.. ;-; It's so beautiful, and I need songs like this, which give me the chance to truly feel and to understand what I'm feeling. I haven't heard this song in years, and back then, I didn't feel anything like this- it shows how much I've changed, and how I'm more sensitive to other people's emotions and thoughts. I guess that's what trauma does- it changes you.. However, I don't think it changed me much negatively- it made me more self-aware, and I've been inspired to build myself back up again, brick by brick. I'm not going to be able to be that smiling and gleeful child again, who did not see and feel the toxicity of this world- no, I'm going to be something more. The strength I have developed through my challenges, and the empathic wonders that I have obtained over the years- they made me into a whole new person, and for the better too. It is songs like this that remind me of this. 🤗

Anyways, I won't leave you in suspense xD Here is the song:

Here is a sweet reminder for all of you 💖

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Tagging my grove residents: @Angelx28 @Sunisshiningandsoareyou @emotionalTalker2260 @Everlee @coldbreeze00 @mytwistedsoul @fearfearfear @BookishBlue13 @AGuardianAngel @Wheeki16 @JennyINFP @SystemFireSkye @CupoSad076 @DonaldDraper @FreddieOnyx @jv13076 @BlueDarkAurora @TryingTBH2021 @taylorhugs12 @elli025 @Wefington @ruggedheart0 @kieran000 @Fluffysheep8 @KaikaiKitan @MelodyoftheOcean @TheRandomEMT @tidyHickory3283 @Swiftygirl13 @Sky9763 @Harsvin @HopieRemi @Iamsidhere @WarmLightXO @GloriaD @VaryingCloud @GoldenNest2727 @shinequeen001

time to give spuca hugs *huggs*-maxx