Stormy corner

A lot of things got me overthinking lately. It's just that a lot of things make no sense.

Apparently you can be ill, without it showing on any test results, and that's scary, frankly. Plus 😨 best way to get it confirmed (possible tw for a word)

is by biopsy 🤡 considering i can trust no one that's a bit heavy thing as well.

Idk what I'll do with all the doubts on my mind and in my life, but i can't just sit and do nth either. 😵

Hopefully there's a sunshine after this flood.

@ArtemisStormWolf

Artee hows you? I miss you🥺

Happy friendship day Artee you've been vv kind and caring always and I wanted to send some love to you 💕💕 also cookies because why not 😛

Take care of you 🤗🤗

@ArtemisStormWolf

Life can definitely be really tough. Like you said, the pressure can be overwhelming. I hope you can take a well-rested break from all the stress. But I trust that you can pioneer through everything in life! I hope you have a great day!

Hi!

It's been ages i updated my own forum threed lmao.

Anyways im probably doing it right now bc i want to keep track of my own personal goals.

I got tired from people telling me what's what, what i need and so on. Tired of being put down, made to feel inferiour and mostly tired of being gaslighted and manipulated. Im not a child anymore and i don't have to tolerate abuse.

Just because ones abusing people don't see its abuse it doesn't mean it's not.

Anyhow let me skip to my goals list.

Goals:

1. Go to psych and see about diagnoses snd requirements for getting one, ask for assasment on social anxiety and/or general anxiety disorder

2. If diagnosed procede to ask for medication to deal wirh physical conditions

3. Find volunteer job to fullfil yourself and make yourself happ, it's not work for nothing because it's an opurtunity for growth and getting experience we can latter use to do much more. It also opens opportunities.

4. Overcome fear of leaving home, and fear of walking alone

5. Talk about my food fears and food discomfort with a psych

6. Figure out who i am, bc i feel like i lost my identify, what's my story, where do i come from, and where am i going

I think 6 things is good way to begin the journey.

Longest journeys start with taking a first step.

@ArtemisStormWolf Wolfiee💜💜💜

hello cups, 

my old vent place I even forgot I made for myself.  My life become so much different from what I wanted or hopped for. 

I don`t know where to start the story at, nor what I wanna focus most on.  Last year somewhere at the end of November or was it middle of it, I got to change place I live at, people I`m around and all of that happened in a single day. I was not given any heads up about it either and what hurts the most was sense of getting betrayed.  Place I got to feels like living in stone age and people there just have that closed mindset that irritates anyone who got to see the world outside. 

People I used to know there are all having their lives, different journeys as well so I cannot reconnect to anyone, nor make new friends no matter the effort I put into it. What is important to be stated here actually is the fact that I`m back to living with `mom` and her new family (step dad, and two kids). As the story always goes there`s adjustments, getting used to new things and people around us. Not an easy task for people who have difficulties with setting their boundaries as well. 

I vented a lot about living situation there, and most of my cups friends know how hard it really is. I`m constantly dealing with other people`s emotions and having to understand them, while being told I`m the one who has to do all the work and adjust to them. Unfortunately this is not a one way street - so doing all work on my own is not gonna bring anything anywhere. On top of having it difficult while living there I`m also trying to navigate my mental health and sleep issues, frankly now I feel like I should say that as humans we rather blame it on self than looking at bigger picture.

I`d say I`m depressed person because that`s how I am when I`m with them, but now being away for some time brought me to conclusion that some issues need change of environment if we want them solved.