Scattered Thoughts
Thought it might be a good idea to have my own thread where I can think things out and rant without feeling guilty about invading other peoples spaces.
@ThePizza I wanted to share this with you - I needed a laugh and thought it was funny
@mytwistedsoul
Ah that
@ThePizza Cat doesn't look like its too happy about it though :)
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Probably didn
@ThePizza I know I wouldn't have :)
feeling that if i dont talk to others then i shouldnt talk to myself either
@ThePizza
put it off, but why? pretense of needing sleep only gets so far when it doesnt account for all situations, all times of day
Just a panic attack that was worse than the usual but I
@ThePizza I'm still sitting here with you M :) Those are really hard to deal with - did you remember the 54321 thing? And deep breaths?
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You are all always welcome here--- I'm glad you liked it!@ThePizza Hey M your picture disappeared :(
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Can you see it?
@ThePizza can't here either. Saw it at first and then ot poofed
@mytwistedsoul Could it have tripped a censor or Idk been deleted for some reason? Who can we ask?
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the CML? @lavenderpeach1107
@ThePizza
Not anymore 
I was offered the BEST summer job today!
I wasnt even looking for a job lol
So you mom asked how would you feel about getting a summer job? And I was skeptical at first because I wanted extra downtime this summer and Im not sure what job Id get anyway (it would be hard to work in food service because allergies). But then she explained that my next door neighbor had asked if Id be willing to pet sit her cats on and off throughout the summer.
A Few Reasons Why This Is Amazing:
1. C a t s ! 💙
2. Shes my nextdoor neighbor so the commute is great!
3. She wants to pay me (I think I would actually be just as happy doing this for free too, because cats)
4. Did I mention the cats?
Im sooo excited for this! I grinned a lot more than usual today. My neighbor wont need me til another week or two but still, this is my first true job (even though its through a neighbor and not a company lol) and I got so lucky. I also got to meet the two cats today, Summer and Kiki, and theyre so great. Apparently they seem to like me a lot more than they like other strangers and that makes me feel special lol.
Yay :)
@ThePizza LOL! So cats are involved huh? I kind of think I saw you said something about cats. Seriously - that's awesome! A job with alot of bonuses. Plus you get some down time there and get to spend time with cats - not that you like cats or anything :)
It's really cool M. Congratulations!
Way to go on the academic camp too. I was wondering about it. Its a shame you couldn't go like last year - it sounded really pretty there
First job - wow - I'm impressed and so happy for you!
@mytwistedsoul
Thanks! Yeah and two of my friends from last year ended up at the same campus as me this year, and we all live in different states. I am having a lot of fun in the online one though so thats good. Ye excited for my new job, you know its funny now that you mention it I do really like cats idk how you knew— good instincts I guess. Haha still gotta wait like two weeks for it to start though
Started an anti-anxiety medication on Monday and possibly there are already results? Even though today there were still things I was anxious about it was all mental— like usually I feel it in the pit of my stomach and my limbs might feel a bit weak but that didnt really happen today, it was just in my brain. Well see if that continues
Bad day today. Nothing happened exactly just my brain going at it
Talked to a friend about it that I am close with but not as much as others and even if it had been someone else hhhhhhh abort abort I said too much gah Ill regret this tomorrow and Im already starting to now
God the thinking
Why does my brain latch on in this way, the game of imitation and justification