Pieces of the Jigsaw

Follow the regular exercise schedule.

Complete at least 3 topics everyday.

Do not overthink about those who spread hate.

Leave what is unnecessary.

Think about all that they have done for you.

Don't stop, move ahead.

Stay away from -----

Keep track of your time.

Do what is important.

Think about what you actually wanna do.

Time wait for nobody, you need to be quick.

There's a long way ahead.

You haven't even reached 50% of it.

It will be worth it.

You got this!

You will get there.

Hope, for the last time, just hope.

Stop it. Stop it. They aren't going to be there for you and you aren't go to be there for them so why are you overthinking about something that isn't going to help you in any way? Just let it be, you gotta stop being jealous of people and yes you are jealous, admit it, ADMIT IT. Now, we can finally try to work on how to find peace in yourself rather than being jealous of someone else for any any any damn reason. You don't need them. You weren't like this, you need to cut off the people who have made you this way. You need to let your actions speak more than your texts. You need to stop with finding flaws in everything. You need to believe in yourself and to work on yourself till you get where you wish to. You have to accept yourself but you don't have to settle with this version of yourself. You need to move on, you have a life ahead. You have so much more to do. Your dreams are big and these factors won't let you achieve them so eliminate them, just do it for yourself and you'll be proud of yourself, one day. It's okay to be selfish for yourself. You need to be selfish sometimes but you don't need to behave like the beast you have become, let it go. You know there's more to come.

You need to know that you only have so much time left to prove yourself and if you don't start now then there's no fucking way you are getting where you always wanted to. Work hard bitch, you are nowhere near your dreams, a little bit of harshness won't affect too much. This leniency ain't gonna take you anywhere.

Shut up. Shut up. Shut up. Shut up. Shut up. Shut up. Shut up. Shut up. Shut up. Shut up. Shut up. Shut up. Shut up. Shut up. Shut up. Shut up. Shut up. Shut up. Shut up. Shut up. Shut up. Shut up. Shut up. Shut up. Shut up. Shut up. Shut up. Shut up. Shut up. Shut up. Shut up. Dont say a word. Dont say a word. Dont say a word. Dont say a word. Dont say a word. Dont say a word. Dont say a word. Dont say a word. Dont say a word. Dont say a word. Dont say a word. Dont say a word. Dont say a word. Dont say a word. Dont say a word. Dont say a word. Dont say a word. Nobody cares. Nobody cares. Nobody cares. Nobody cares. Nobody cares. Nobody cares. Nobody cares. Nobody cares. Nobody cares. Nobody cares. Nobody cares. Nobody cares. Nobody cares. Nobody cares. Nobody cares. Nobody cares. Nobody cares. Nobody cares. Nobody cares. Dont tell them. Dont tell them. Dont tell them. Dont tell them. Dont tell them. Dont tell them. Dont tell them. Dont tell them. Dont tell them. Dont tell them. Dont tell them. Dont tell them. Dont tell them. Dont tell them. Dont tell them. Dont tell them. Dont tell them. Dont tell them. Show them the results. Show them the results. Show them the results. Show them the results. Show them the results. Show them the results. Show them the results. Show them the results. Show them the results. Show them the results. Show them the results. Show them the results.

You need to change. You need to change. You need to change. You need to change. You need to change. You need to change. You need to change. You need to change. You need to change. You need to change. You need to change. You need to change. You need to change. You need to change. You need to change. You need to change. You need to change. You need to change. You need to change. You need to change. You need to change. You need to change. You need to change. You need to change. You need to change. You need to change. You need to change. You need to change. You need to change. You need to change. You need to change. You need to change. You need to change. You need to change. You need to change. You need to change. You need to change. You need to change. You need to change. You need to change. You need to change. You need to change. You need to change. For yourself.

@Everleehi there

IM TIREDD OF IT ALL. END IT. FUCKING END IT BICHES I CANT TAKE IT ANYMORE. I AM TIRED

Only for my parents

I won't be shocked if you ever see this but I want you to know that what I did wasn't because of you. I did it for me, because I always disappointed everyone, because even after all my efforts, I was still never good enough, because I never met your expectations, because I never worked hard enough to get where you expected me to, because I was too depressed to even give a thought about anything else. It was totally not your fault. You gave me everything, every single thing I asked for even when I didn't deserve it, you gave me all of it and even if not that, you also gave me things that I never asked for, I wouldn't have asked for any better parents but I know you deserved a way better daughter. It was all my fault and you were right, I'm shameless and I deserve all those swear words and I'm just a huge fat blob of disappointment and I deserve none of what you gave me and I'm sorry for being such a mess. I'm sorry for not being a good daughter, I'm sorry for making you waste all your money, I'm sorry for everything. I tried though, I tried with no hope, I tried to be the daughter you wanted, I tried to please you, I tried to be the daughter you deserved, I tried to work hard on myself, my anger and I was ready to change my whole personality for you, I did but I couldn't continue to live with that. I know I'm too young to think about this but there has to be something that gave me these strong views on life. I was always afraid of being mocked by you, I said one word and you would repeat it till it felt like I was useless and made me feel guilty of telling you anything at all. I don't know if you seek betterment or perfection but I know I tried and I also know that you never needed a daughter like me, a fat daughter, who did nothing and always let you down. I'm sorry for everything, I'm sorry for being happy with my marks, I'm sorry for being content with myself, I should have thought of being better which I never did because I thought I was okay this way but it was too late before I realized it wasn't even satisfactory for you. I wish I could be better and I wish I could improve myself just so much to fit in but today while I sit amongst these stars I still wish for you all to live a better and peaceful life and I hope the best happens to you further. I am a coward and I didn't realize it for a long time that I wasn't the perfect piece between all you brave people. I wish I could repay it back to you someday. Thank you for everything and sorry for all the hurt caused by me.

I know I worked hard, I know I did. I tried, a lot and yet she doesn't appreciate me. She didn't even stop when my uncle and my dad both asked her to. She kept going even when I started crying. She said if I would have studied, I would have scored good, but I did study. I studied a lot, even when I couldn't keep going, even when I felt so numb, even when my head was hurting so bad, I still studied but she didn't even try to understand me rather she did all that drama. My uncle literally came to support me, my uncle that man who isn't even close to me, he came to support me but my mom didn't stop. I might have scored less but I don't deserve all this hate after this one exam and one more thing, my mom literally just cares about what she will say to others lol and she accepted she! She is more worried about answering others than supporting her own daughter. I know what I was going through when I wrote the exam and it wasn't easy. It definitely wasn't and it was like the first time after 2 years that I was a answering long answer questions in offline mode which is very very very different than the MCQs and I don't expect them to be all goood with me, of course they can criticize me but there has to be a limit dude. I worked hard and maybe my efforts were less in terms of the exam but it wasn't a case of never studying. I studied and I know that. She just wants me to compare with some xyz kid she did it and then she says "it's not about comparing" then why would you compare me to others lol if it's not about it? I don't understand honestly. There's just so much drama going on in this house always. I hate being here, I hate myself for not being one of them. You only understand others when you go through it, I wish they understood me.