Ni's Little Solace
Not sure why I am creating this thread exactly, and I'm doing this so late at night as well :') I just felt... like I should do this haha. I do have a one line a day thread although I... don't think I have felt so free over there to write as much as I wished. So I thought maybe... I should just make another thread, a diary perhaps.. where I can really be myself.. and maybe post pictures and quotes, literary quotes maybe... and poems.. specifically haiku hehe. Also vents.. thoughts and maybe letters :')
Replies are welcome as well <3 although please remember to stay respectful and kind.
*sending lots of love and hugs because why not*
@darkerplaces
hey rome buddy… i just realised i don’t have the script for mindful mondays 😶 i usually co-hosted fantastic fridays so i don’t have that script 😭 could rome buddy share da link? 💙
Nvm I asked Lena for the script <3 after they hosted the first session (:
@LoveMyMoonflowers hey sorry i just seen this hope ur ok
@DarkerPlaces
no worries! i’m okay, thanks. i hope your okay too 💜
Im ok just tired 🥱🥱 looking forward to hosting with u tho
I’m still so nervous
@darkerplaces
aunty nii hasn’t seen pictures of mustard hammie in a while 🥺
Brand new mustard pics taken rn for Aunty Ni
@DarkerPlaces
cuteness overload 🥺💕 she’s climbing like the spider-hammie she is in the first one 😛
@LoveMyMoonflowers
lol shes crazy i always think shes gonna fall but she doesnt lol
@DarkerPlaces
xD she’s definitely spider-hammie
@LoveMyMoonflowers
lol shes the best lol il try get a mod to open the room for our session
@LoveMyMoonflowers
dw ul be amazing
@LoveMyMoonflowersdo u want to do the intoduction or do u want me to start it off then u do the 1st activity?
@darkerplaces
Could Lena PM the keyword to everyone at the end? Or…?
Not sure what the keyword should be lol
@LoveMyMoonflowers
yeah u can pick the keyword n we can get lena to pm ppl 😊
@DarkerPlaces
alright! the keyword can be… plushie 🧸 idk. could you pick one? 🥺
@LoveMyMoonflowers
ofc Plushie is a good keyword lol
@DarkerPlaces
xD okay
@LoveMyMoonflowers
r u cohosting again next week with me? that was awesum
@LoveMyMoonflowers
yayyy
i can’t write anymore…
@LoveMyMoonflowers Hey you 💙 How are things in the world of Moon? I've missed talking with you. It's been so sweet of you to check in on me. It really means a lot to me. Thank you for being your wonderful sweet you 💙 *offers hugs*
@mytwistedsoul
soul 💜 hi buddy. thank you for checking on me 💙 i’ve missed you so much too, and i’ve missed our conversations in the diary spaces 💕 and just in forum-land in general. 💜
me knows life’s been… really hard (': and crazy lately, so it can be hard to find time to come on here sometimes.
i really do hope things get better 💕 please know we’re here for you and we care about you so so so *so* freaking much. you don’t have to do this alone 💕 i promise. and soul buddy… please be kind to yourself and patient with yourself also 🥺 i promise it’s okie to take your time to heal. 💜 please be gentle with you 🌈
i’m trying hehe (': idk anymore. it’s fine though 💙 i’ll be fine. me trying to reach out to some listeners/ATLs but i’ve just been finding it hard to talk about anything tbh. hehe. *hugs back* 💜 *massiiive squeezies if okay* you da bestestest soul. 💙
@LoveMyMoonflowers I see you trying 💙 I admire how hard you're trying Moon. I know it's not easy to keep fighting every day. If you need an ATL I know someone who's pretty good. She's very nice and doesn't pressure people to talk. You could maybe just introduce yourself to her and explain that it's been hard to talk about anything. I know she deals with it from me lol 🤪 Maybe it would be easier if she reaches out first?
@mytwistedsoul
Idk. 💙 I did contact an ATL recently - she’s so sweet and understanding 💜 I told her I find it hard to talk about things and she told me she wouldn’t push me to share anything (': and that we could take things slowly. 💙 The thing is, I’m so utterly horrible at explaining things (': lol. I guess after I *do* reach out, which is after a lot of overthinking, I just have such a hard time explaining anything… It feels like I make every conversation really awkward 😕 Idk.
I’m so sorry about the rant 😶 lol.
💜 Your ATL buddy really does sound like a lovely person though 🥺 I’ll definitely think about it… 💙 do you think it would be… awkward… if you said a teenie friend of yours needed help? 😬 Idk. 😭 thank you so much though buddy 💜 it means a lot and I appreciate your thoughtfulness (': your pawesome 🐾
I hear you about the gaslighting (': I get that completely. 💙 it’s okay to have trouble finding the words sometimes 💕 it really can be so difficult to… really describe… idk. Everything. (but me thinks soul buddy has written some things before they thought wouldn’t make sense (': but it did make sense. 💜 dw buddy) Life is crazy and weird but your still here buddy 🌈 your so strong and I’m proud of you. we are proud of you. 💙
thank you for being there (': it means so much to me that you care, too. I always feel so heard and understood around you, soul buddy 💜 you honestly have a beautiful way with words and the thought, effort and empathy you put into your replies means so so freaking much to me. 💙 Not sure I can explain the impact you’ve had on so many hoomans here (': your amazing. 💜 (and it’s okay if you don’t see that in yourself right now 💙 i get that completely.)
@LoveMyMoonflowers Yay you! I'm so proud of you for reaching out! She's sounds really great! I'm glad she's so understanding of taking things slowly. It takes time too - to warm up to people and build a level of trust with them - so I can understand the feeling awkward. And even then there's the whole - should I say that? What about this? And if you do say something sometimes there's a freak out after wards because omg what were you thinking?! 😅 Awww - no sorries needed 💙 Rant away ok?
I will definitely mention to my ATL friend that I have a teenie friend that might be interested in talking with her and that it would be awesome if she would reach out and introduce herself. Even if you dont really talk with her much at first - at least the door is open 💙
Maybe we think too much before we put things into words? It always seems to work better if I disconnect my brain from my fingers. The trick now is to post it before brain re-engages or it won't get posted. Brain is sneaky that way
Aww thank you for saying you're proud of me 💙 that means alot and I'm so glad I help you feel heard. Because I do hear you and see you Moon and I'm proud of you too! For being you and for trying so hard and for reaching out. I think you're the amazing one 💙
@mytwistedsoul
she really is great (: she’s awesome. 💜 awwe your way too sweet 🥺 thank you so much for being so kind and understanding buddy (': it means so much 💙 i always feel a bit amazed at the way you explain things so accurately - those feelings, i mean. hehe.
you don’t have to 💙 but you can, if you like. me appreciate you so much for thinking about it though 🥺🌈 so thank you. 💜 soul being their thoughtful self as always 🥰
we do, we really do lol. sometimes my brain goes crazy and mean and it just comes up with a million different ways i could have written/posted something ‘better.’ it just drives me crazy (': it’s okie to think a lot before 🌈 but like you said, if we just think *way too much* it will never get posted (':
sending lots of love! 💕
@LoveMyMoonflowers It can be hard to find one that has most of what we need or want. Some are super nice but don't understand where we're coming from. We've had enough bad ones that I don't allow them to initiate chats anymore
@mytwistedsoul
Mhm. 💜 I had one and she’s one of the sweetest hoomans in existence 🌈 but she’s on a break now because of exams hehe. 💙 I miss her but I know she’ll come back soon 💜 she’s like the teenie star of cups. 💙 hehe.
Yes defos :o it should definitely be an Olympic sport. we would do amazing in that 🥲 lol. Oh yes I know that feeling. i think its called thinking about thinking 🤔 and in the case of overthinking, it would be overthinking about overthinking :D our brains can be silly a lot of the time 🥲 sometimes i really just catch it and i think it’s funny but most of the time it doesn’t feel funny. 💙
awwe thank you 🌈
@LoveMyMoonflowers I hope she does well n her exams! Lol I do that too when I catch it happening. Laugh and make a joke. The next time I'll miss the signs and it runs wild. Those are anxiety and panic drenched moments and you're right - not funny at all 💙💙
i’m such a *** (':