Ni's Little Solace
Not sure why I am creating this thread exactly, and I'm doing this so late at night as well :') I just felt... like I should do this haha. I do have a one line a day thread although I... don't think I have felt so free over there to write as much as I wished. So I thought maybe... I should just make another thread, a diary perhaps.. where I can really be myself.. and maybe post pictures and quotes, literary quotes maybe... and poems.. specifically haiku hehe. Also vents.. thoughts and maybe letters :')
Replies are welcome as well <3 although please remember to stay respectful and kind.
*sending lots of love and hugs because why not*
I’m just tired..
I didn’t think I would say this but…
I wanna go home… :<
@LoveMyMoonflowers You're homesick? Does it help to talk to your parents on the phone?
@mytwistedsoul
hehe no I’m with them now. I’m not at home rn I’m staying somewhere else (':
how has soul buddy been doing? 💜
@LoveMyMoonflowers Oh lol! I understand :) just ready to go home from where you are. Nothing can match your own room 💙
Tbh - I've been better but it is what it is. Not much I can do to change things right now :/
How is you? Aside from being ready to go home 💙
@mytwistedsoul
Hehe yes 💕
Aww 😞 I hear you, yeah. I’m sorry life hasn’t been so amazing :/ here for you, if you need me 💜 *offers gentle hugs if okay*
Do you wanna talk about it? 💕 (me knows sometimes it can be a little difficult talking about it as well - and that’s okies too 💜)
I’ve been okay hehe. Just trying to distract myself from everything happening in my world :/
@LoveMyMoonflowers *hugs* thank you 💙 aww thank you for the offer. it's all depressing stuff tbh. Involving my father and my dog 😞
@mytwistedsoul
It’s okies to feel depressed sometimes (': your feelings are valid, okies? 💜🫂 and I’m so sorry to hear about your father and your dog 😞 I really hope everything gets better soonsies buddy 🫂💕
(No pressure to talk about it, of course 💕) Sending more love and warm vibes your way 🥺💜🫂 Here for you 💜
Hehe yes. I’m sorry for the late reply 😞 I am home now hehe :3 It was a pretty short trip. We stayed there for the whole day..
@LoveMyMoonflowers aw no such thing as a late reply 💙 glad you made it home safe and sound. Hope the trip wasn't too bad. Even with a short trip it can be really nice to get home 😊
@mytwistedsoul
Hehe, thank you so much 🥺💜 It was actually quite funsies, but I don’t like being away from home for too long T^T it makes me v tired :/
Aww I hear you 😞 I am so sorry that it can’t get better :< I’m sending so much love your way now 😞💜 I’m not sure what’s going on, but I’m so sorry things aren’t going well :(
You’re completely free to share as little or as much as you like buddy 🥺💜 and I promise this is a safe space and you can owlways add a TW if you feel that it might be triggering to someone 💜 (No pressure, of course 💕)
Thank you so much 💜 But honestly, just you being here, just you existing brings so much love and warmth on its own 💕 (Seriously)
Hehe things aren’t amazing but they’re not horrible either, in the world of Moonie (': I’m getting there, though. I’m trying. Everything is so confusing but I am trying (': hehe.
Also a little note for soul buddy 🥺💜
Thank you for being here, friend 💕 and for bringing me (and many others) so many smiles 💜 I appreciate you beyond words. 💜
@LoveMyMoonflowers You're so sweet 💙 Thank you for being you! 😊
@mytwistedsoul
Not exactly *anxious* but.. I just feel like ‘I need a break’ after being out for long periods of time hehe. It just makes me.. tired.. *sigh*
Oh noes! :( I am so so sorry to hear about your doggie 😞 I honestly don’t think your selfish buddy :< what is it that makes you think that? It sounds like you really care about your sweet doggie 😞💜 I’m so sorry to hear that about her and I wish there was something I could do :(
Aww friend that must be so so overwhelming, I’m really sorry to hear that about your father as well :( Sending safe huggles 🥺🫂
It’s okies 💜 I’m sorry you are feeling bad about that :< but I promise you are never ever a bother 💜 We are all absolutely free to share what’s happening in our lives 💕 even if it’s vv sad stuff 😞 Your feelings are so so valid and you never have to be sorry to talk about them 💜 Here for you.
Aww thank you 🥺🤧💙 Sometimes, I feel that trying is everything. Years from now we might look back at ourselves and be grateful that we tried and tried and tried 💜
Thank you so much 💙 I believe in you, too 💕 I hear your world and everything is so overwhelming right now 😞 But your not alone in this. We are here for you 💜 and I mean that. Many times people we know walk into our life, say they’re here for us and then walk right out without even thinking about the weight those words hold 😞
Me cannot poof any of your problems :< and I’m sorry about that. But me is here to listen owlways 💜 just a tag away. Me appreciate you so much 💜 And all the time and effort you put into your sweet, thoughtful messages 🥺💖
*accepts your big hugs* 🤧🫂
@LoveMyMoonflowers Kind of like you feel overwhelmed? Is your family understanding of this? Or do they get frustrated?
@mytwistedsoul
Yes, kind of like… feeling overwhelmed :/ Hehe no not really, I didn’t really say anything about it. I was having fun at the beginning and they noticed *that* but when I began to feel tired they didn’t really seem to notice it/they didn’t say anything. It’s fine though 💙
I understand 😞 I don’t have my own little animal friend yet, my parents aren’t so fond of having pets in the house, sadly.
I hear you 💜 But honestly I can imagine the pain you must be feeling as well, so it’s pretty natural that you haven’t made that call yet 😞 It really does sound so difficult :< and I am sorry you are feeling guilty for that :( *gentle hugs* 💙
I’m glad to hear that she’s not in any physical pain right now 💜 I think if she was it would be so much more overwhelming 😞 Aww… I hear you’re worrying that she may be mentally suffering 😞 Is there any way she can feel a little more relieved? I really wish I could do something :(
I’m definitely keeping you, your doggie and your father in my thoughts and prayers friend 💙 Aww. Your always free to vent buddy 💜 It’s your safe space and it’s okies to share your thoughts. It might not poof the problems 😞 but it can help a little bit 💙
Thank you for your big hugs 🫂💙 Your so sweet (': hehe yes poofing each others problems would be absolutely amazing 💜 Thank you for being there for me 🥺 I really appreciate that 💙 seriously.
Hehe yes, I really wish they would too. When I was a newbie and reached the five message limit, I’d be like ‘where’d the reply button go?’ lols :3 so we have to work around it by using the previous reply button… *sigh* they really should change that…
@LoveMyMoonflowers *scrolling scrolling scrolling* 😂
It must be frustrating for you though to not have them notice that you're tired. Tbh - I would've kept it to myself too. My family would've never tolerated it. Is your family open to talking with you about mental health stuff? Oh and before I forget - sometimes I can ask alot of questions lol but you're never required to answer if you don't want to ok? You'd think it would be easier now to talk about mental health since there's alot more focus on it 😕
You like animals too? I'm sorry your parents don't want animals in the house. I mean I can understand why people don't like pets. They're alot of work and responsibility. And they make messes. Nothing says love like muddy paw prints across a clean floor lol
It helps her a little to go outside sometimes. To get - Idk - new things to sniff and a change of scenery. Idk - tbh she had a bad day today. So - we get another day closer 😞
Sometimes I take that last reply button I get as a sign to stop talking lol. But I do wish they'd change it and make it a higher number. I mean if we can work around it why not just change it to the way it was? Isn't it basically then same thing? *smh* too many changes and too many bugs 😝
I hope you're taking good care of yourself. How has sleeping been lately? No thank you's ever needed ok? 💙 I'm just a tag away 😊
@mytwistedsoul
Yeah, it is a bit frustrating - but, honestly, I'm pretty used to it.
No, they're not really open to talking about that. Just the other day I heard my parents talking about mental health and saying things like it doesn't matter :/ They don't really take it seriously. I'm inclined to tell them 'I'm fine' because if I tell them the truth, then it just gets tense. It's like feeling not-so fine is wrong... which is why I found cupsies. I can't talk to my family about mental health.
Aww, no it's okay for you to ask questions 💜 It's nice to know someone cares (': So thank you 💕 Me hopes you know I care so much about you too buddy 💗
I love animals. I wish I had a cat but my parents are like... *sigh*
Aww I am glad going outside helps her a little bit 💜 Sometimes being outside can be fun and refreshing. But I'm sorry to hear she had a bad day 😔 Nuuu... *gentle hugs* I'm so so sorry friend. You and your sweet doggie don't deserve to feel this pain, I really am so sorry 😔
Fr, I feel the same way. I was especially sad about the forum threads showing up in your bio update. At least members don't have that update yet - at least I don't think so since mine aren't showing up. Hopefully they'll be able to smash the buggies though. Like the emoji poofing bug 😭 How do you feel about the forum thread one?
I'm trying, hehe. If taking care of myself means waking up everyday, eating, breathing, drinking water and doing some teeny weeny self-care stuff then I guess I'm doing pretty well lol. I hope your taking care of yourself too 💜 especially with everything that's happening in your world right now 😞
I just want to say sorry... I know I'm not so helpful or anything, and I can't do anything. I really wish I could do something for you 😔 if I could poof all the problems. I'm sorry...
I really do feel the urge to thank you, friend. Thank you's may not be needed, but I want you to know that I am so grateful for you and for all the warmth you bring with you, seriously. 💜 I'm just a tag away, too. I'm probably not so helpful but I'm here to listen to you and to just sit with you 💕 Sending lots of love your way, if okies.
@LoveMyMoonflowers It's really a shame that they're not more open to mental health. Because it affects so much of a person's life. Alot of times parents put so much stress on good grades but never really take into account that anxiety and depression can make it hard to get good grades. Worrying about keeping up those grades adds to anxiety. It's a vicious cycle imo. In their eyes it's not ok to be not ok 😕 I'm glad you found Cups because everyone should have a safe space to talk about this stuff
@mytwistedsoul
It really is, yeah 😞 Unfortunately it feels like most parents are this way :/ That’s so true tbh. Most of life doesn’t happen *outside* it happens *inside.* the mind. The heart. The inner world. But a lot of people don’t take that seriously :/
My parents are not really the ‘your grades/marks are your life’ types, except when it comes to maths. I usually don’t tell them when I get a bad grade/marks :/ lol. I’m homeschooled so it’s a bit different. In previous years my mum graded my work but this year the assessments are online…
I’m glad I found cupsies too 💜 it’s my safe space 💜
Aww I am glad to hear she had a better day 💙 I hear you 😞 *big hugs* 🫂 Sending so much love for your sweet doggie 💜 If it’s okay to ask, is she in any pain now? :(
Hehe I wish I could get one… I asked them if I could get one when I’m 15 but they were like ‘…’ xD it’s fine though.. *hopefully* I’ll be able to have a little kitty friend someday 🥲🐾
Fr they look like hieroglyphics. which is sad because we really do love emojis 💜 lol. we’re seeing a lot of hieroglyphics in people’s bios now yeah :/
I hear you. Some days we feel like it’s so easy to take care of ourselves while other days we’re just like… ‘bleh….’ (': even small things like drinking some more water 💜 can help. even if it’s hard sometimes 😞 I hope you are taking care of yourself friend 💙 even in small ways.
Thank you 🥺🤧 that’s so kind of you. You’ve been there for me, you’ve listened to me so much. And that means a lot 🤧💜 So I wanna be there for you too. I always will be 💜 just a tag away :3
Me too… I appreciate so many people here 💜 more than they know. They do so much… they’re just… amazing 💙 and that includes *you* Being here and being you, it’s been so much and it means so much 💜
@LoveMyMoonflowers You're absolutely right - not a lot of people take into consideration how that inner world can affect so much of the outer world. If we don't fall completely apart from the chaos - we just learn to hide it really good and lose touch with our emotions. We hide everything behind a mask - too bad the smile is just painted on 😞
@mytwistedsoul
That's so true tbh. You described it perfectly :'3 We lose touch with our emotions after wearing the mask for so long. Cupsies seems to be the place where we can take of our masks and be ourselves.
They're mostly focused on maths and science. This year, my science grades just... dropped lol.
*sigh* I wish. I seriously. need. a. cat. They are just so precious :'3 Hehe I'm thinking of munchkins. I love all cats but I really love munchkins hehe. My parents are both animal-hair-haters and non-animal-lovers. I think calling them animal-haters would be a little too strong lol.
I really wish we could redo them :/ I look back at a lot of posts and see the wonky emojis... but the recent posts look just fine :'3
Omg the potato 😭😂 that cracked me up sm. That reminds me of these two corgis on YouTube. I wonder if you've seen them before? Their names are Hammy and Olivia. Idk corgis just look like potatoes too 🤭🤭
We will get there 💜 And the great part is that we can fight and *defeat* our demons together. We don't have to do this alone 💜 Aww yes 🥺 I really am so glad I joined cupsies too. Bestest Bunwee, you, Sun buddy, Opti... and so many others. 💜 You're all so precious and I appreciate each and every one of you.
(Also there's just something I wanna say... it's about one of our buddies on cupsies. Lola-bean/Tiny's profile isn't showing up anymore :/ I'm not sure what happened. I'm really worried about her and hope she's okay...)
@LoveMyMoonflowers Ahhh not science too! Another bad subject for me 😂 What does Moon want to do when all grown up? Is science just not something you're interested in? It must get lonely doing school at home by yourself 😞
I just need to cry.
Can’t I just
end this?
Tbh…
the world’s too.. much. Everything is too much.
And I am nothing.
@LoveMyMoonflowers I disagree. You're Moon. You're more powerful than you know 💙
No one deserves to feel pain.
No one is worthless.
No one is unloved.
No one is unlovable.