My thoughts

I guess this is gonna be the place I let everything out... keeping things in gets extremely exhausting. And I have no idea how to start.
I'm worried about my future. Like, everything about it. I wish I had something to look forward to, as that'll make things easier. I don't know why, but I feel like I haven't found my purpose for existing yet. Almost everyone I know has a clear, well defined plan about their future and what they want in life. They know what they love doing and what they're talented in. They have a passion for something and it keeps them going. I can't seem to find anything like that. It feels like they're swimming, and I'm just trying my best to not drown. Thinking about the future fills me with dread. I have no idea what I wanna do, and it's a bit too late to start thinking about it. There's nothing I'm extremely passionate about. I can't think about a job I'll enjoy doing without worrying about my future. It should be easy, just choosing a major. But here I am, thinking about the job opportunities that goes with each major, and the salary, and if I'll be get a job in another country, if I'll ever have enough to move out and live on my own. Sometimes I think that maybe I won't ever have something I'd love to study, maybe I'll just have to choose the option that'll pay me well enough to move out. I am okay with that idea, but the difference between me and others is that I'm not passionate about it. If I'm doing something I love I'll give my best, but I don't think this will happen if I just randomly choose a career. I'm worried about moving out because I'll definitely miss my parents, but being around them is definitely not something that's gonna make me happy. I'm worried that they'll force me into doing something I don't wanna do.
(I'd appreciate it if no one replies to this)