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Modal0154 March 30th

Easter days 2k24+

Previously https://www.7cups.com/forum/journal/General_2520/2252k24_324465/?p=4

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Uggh you try to escape here and something drags you back here. The need or impulse to alleviate something sore. Put your pride aside but you find no content in producing content in how you find yourself yet again in this spot to reside.

This is why it's important to learn to not to take it all so seriously, preferably not via indifference or an ignorant sort of humour. Humour that understated key to wisdom, difficult to entertain whereas too many think vice-versa a course to take.

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I don't like how Psychforum's journal section is moderated and I'm fairly surprised by how neither Wrongplanet nor Reddit (as far as I know) have sections for journalling. Ditching this place would be easier if the prospect of immediate contact with listeners wasn't justified by my experiences.

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Modal0154 OP April 27th

The work that goes into making a 'traditional' kind of drum from the leather like covering to the woodworking for the barrel like body: https://www.reddit.com/r/Satisfyingasfuck/s/wacoXe0Xa2


Modal0154 OP April 28th

Is practicing pottery actually beneficial for the wrist ?. Is sculpting ?. Motives for maybe taking a class.


Modal0154 OP April 28th

Bench press, squat, and deadlift..if I only ever practiced though with a rod even if it's not a metal one, might that be enough that 'in the long run' might that culminate into something as beneficial as this Billy Blanks video ? https://youtu.be/GOaIp2VObXQ?si=yCPXuOMMVfzz7YZb 

No disrespect to those who struggle with weight but me entering lifting with my inexperience at this point in life makes me feel not too far off from someone who 'morbidly' struggles with their weight and is a stereotypical subject of arguable emotional exploitation on a TLC show.

._. D--n that's hard to say

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Modal0154 OP April 28th

Fond memory of the time I was using a trap bar weight (sans plates) since instances wherein weight rooms are empty or precious. 

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If I knew more photography and cinematography terms...cooler AI outputs

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Modal0154 OP June 24th

Solo aqui para actualizar mi imagen de perfil..>~< ugh, espero no tener tan turbio un semana como la ultima.


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Modal0154 OP April 28th

If I go through drivers ed but don't make it adequately through driving lessons or if the instructor truly pans out to be an insufferable mercenary..it's the f--g validation *of experience* *1 that'll make me go "Okay I did that..it's confirmed that I won't feasible ever fully accomplish it..leave me alone, it's been confirmed now I'll d--n well move onto what next thing was on my mind that this d--n well has been blocking/clogging me up for years now"

*1 ~"all the world is a stage but where's the audience ?!?"~Funky frog bait (YouTuber) short

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Modal0154 OP July 2nd

the mouldiness of the quinoa salad was sorely discouraging, that discouragement made me more vulnerable to pornography use, the pornography use led to my holiday off post-pornography hang-up, the hang-up made me time my biking and be muddled in my mind for whenst looking at snails, I accidentally stepped on one, the accidental snail stepping hang-up muddled my exercise attempt whilst at my parents, the discouragement and remorse made go through tvtropes takes on the movie 'Hereditary' and my morbid curiosity brought me to look through the local library catalogue when it came to that movie to look through library member comments as to get a reflection on what this confounded community thinks of that intensely macabre slow-burn of a movie.. some confoundedly poorly worded takes but -_- `_` >~< the combination of morbid impression, valid fright and disgust was there even if to my bafflement there were also call of it being 'boring'. Monotony can be terrifying but d--n as someone who's only known of that movie 'via proxy' of video reviews on it etc, since I'm too dreading of direct exposure to it, that f--g baffles me and amplifies my thoughts of locals being dumba--s all the more.

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No one on this platform can prove that what can journaled up here won't sooner get feedback 'just as helpful' and d--n sooner if input into ChatGPT or the like.

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Modal0154 OP April 28th

No siento muy comodo con esto diario en particular por que no me gusta el habito de teclando, de haciendo mención de cosas que ni si quiera hare, talbez. Es un habito que me gustaria cesar para que no sueno tan 'quejon' y talbez sera por lo que cierro este diario a pesar de que talbez no se vuelve muy largo.

Modal0154 OP April 28th

Let me say this...when someone opens up to you in a chat ,even if it'll seem abrupt on your end PLEASE ,PLEASE f---g have the etiquette to say however briefly how your not up to listening any longer.

Everyone born after 90's in the first world or otherwise has valid mental health issues , right ?!?! . Yet I f--g loathe how as recognized as that is, too many are on here presumptuously thinking they can be listeners for potentially deeply ontologically sensitive topics but f--g can't put up to read what someone's typing ?!. If we had voice chatting options like *** would any of you be less cowardly !?!. 

*** f--k !. This coming from a self-hating coward who can't even drive !.

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Modal0154 OP April 28th

Can you blame ppl for opting for possibly expensive therapy appointments if irl meatspace is full of narrow-minded blustering *** and online is full of place holding fools who can't even state if they stand the span of a typed *but still CLOSE to* real time conversation or even a lop-sided mainly-coming-from-one-person rant !?!?.

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Modal0154 OP April 28th

On here the prospect of *immeediacy* in contrast to possibly waiting for weeks even if you can afford to see a counsellor is here, which is helpful even for less than upper-medium intensity worries a far more helpful model than that stupid 'we're here for you but maybe still a cr--py conversationalist' brink of suicide enacting model that crisis lines have, which isn't exactly difficult to overlook when you're that level of off already.

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Modal0154 OP April 29th

S--t like this happening is why the Boomers rag on how apparently petty and trivial mental health et al, esp. for anyone born after '80 !

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Modal0154 OP August 8th

Let's say that the stormy July 14th and 24th entries were to've followed after this storm of thoughts 

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Modal0154 OP April 29th

https://tvtropes.org/pmwiki/pmwiki.php/AFoolAndHisNewMoneyAreSoonParted/RealLife

When poor or middle-class people win the lottery, gain an inheritance, or otherwise come into a large sum of money very quickly, there's a good chance that they'll be broke a short time later. Unlike on TV, there's rarely a Reset Button. This sort of thing is so common that the condition was given the name "sudden wealth syndrome". According to the TLC show "The Lottery Changed my Life," around one-third of lottery jackpot winners go bankrupt within five years of winning.

[**] And God forbid you let other people know about your sudden increase in wealth if you can stay anonymous. Lottery winners such as Abraham Shakespeare have been murdered in an attempt to steal their earnings. Lottery winners are thirty times more likely to be murdered than the average person, and 130 times more likely to be murdered by a family member. Having a sudden influx of wealth generally makes you a target for the likes of con artists, beggars, phony debt collectors, and kidnappers (to try and get ransom money). Ways to get around this include hiring security, moving to a secured location before securing the winnings, and having a trusted law firm claim the earnings for you (which would mean a cut of the earnings going to them, but better than having the full amount and getting killed for it). If you're thinking "Well, I'll just ask the lottery people to not announce that I won", in most US states you can't. Only a handful of states in America * allow you to claim your lottery winnings anonymously. [**]

Modal0154 OP July 14th

Vaguely gray clouds,fog as you look up at higher buildings And intense winds make for an interesting ‘spraying like’ rain which I like the look of.

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Modal0154 OP July 24th

Currently something akin to ibid with winds made apparent and sounds of thunder but no lightning for this morning 

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Modal0154 OP July 19th

Proof is in the pudding, the Devil’s in the details, how can I ever fail ?, reading between the lines one more time


Modal0154 OP August 8th

In case my nephew becomes interested in superheroes and loses interest one way or another, whether due to a deconstruction of the idealism, I'd like to reserve this video for such an occasion 

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LjRjanSzlFM                                                    

..it had some neat points about how while yes it's ultimately a power fantasy that's very easy to be cynical of, in a sense it could be said to've roots and be reflective of a 'noblesse oblige' which long ago ppl ideally expected out of overclass persons like aristocrats with militaristic privileges/'a warrior culture' among other neat points

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Over the course of the last decade, for all it's toxic corporatism it's been a neat feat to've seen how much internet traffic (at least done with Anglophonic attitude) is centred around maybe less than 3 dozen websites, AI making a lot of void like websites might make 'the dead internet' theory not quite completely far-fetched yet this site which I used to occasion on (http://www.comicbookreligion.com/) hasn't quite changed much with it's quasi-geocities mid 00's look and unlikeliness to update relevantly anymore, dare I say.