March thoughts
Ughh , I am being triggered by the smell of old person diarrhea! I am going to go crazy, I can't stand living here, my husband, I discovered is lazy , he is all about taking advantage of freebies, as long he doesn't have to do a thing. I am the one caring for this woman, even on days I am not here, he leaves her messes for me to clean, I am so angry, I get the truth ,he does not love me, it is all about him, he tells me nothing! And if I ask , I am told it is none of my business! I am waiting for the moment to be self sufficient again, I have never be treated so horrible! I deserve better, but that won't happen, I will take care of my kids and when they are grown, I can figure out how my life will be and not depend on someone who doesn't even care if I exist!
Well Wednesday was a very stressful day , the woman I care for, fell and I called 911, was taken to ER, I called her daughter, it took her over an hour to get there, she doesn't live more than 40 minutes away. Well she fractured her pelvis and admitted her, so I feel bad, but at the same time like a weight has been lifted. The daughter are at the hospital playing the concerned part, but it is there act, I feel bad for this woman, actually on most days she was ok, I have been to visit today and plan to go back another day or 2, Monday leaving for the beach for 3 days! I am a little bit excited. But scared too. I fear going away because sometimes, husband acts worse on weekends, ughh