Just adding a page to the book, here.
5/1/20
I think I am at a stage in my life where I want CONNECTIONS. I am 30 years old and I want to connect with people and feel like I belong.
Don't get me wrong. I have people that I talk to everyday, and I am a social person. But I would prefer now to connect with people on a deeper level rather than a surface level.
On the flip side of being social, I am introverted and it is very hard for me to let people in due to my past and being hurt by people. At this point I am ready to ignore that side and let people in who share the same interests and can have wonderful conversations.
I don't need anyone trying to f*** me, or trying to get to know me under false pretenses or to feed their own needs. I just want to know there are people out there who are maybe experiencing the same thing I am or have ever been through this before.
5/4/20
To feel the air today felt so wonderful.
The breeze against my skin.
The motion of the car.
The anticipation of Summer around the corner. Although the world is different
The feeling is still the same.
The glow of the late Spring sun is radiant.
5/5/20
Sometimes I just have to let it go. LET IT GO. Please.
We all make mistakes.
And in this case, you're not the only one who made this mistake. But you're the hardest on yourself.
Let it ALL go.
Today's date.
People are full of bullshit.
I woke up today with negative energy. I don't know why.
I did yoga. Came onto work. Drank some tea. Ate breakfast. Did my morning hygiene routine.
Yet, still.
Why do people have to hurt and come with all the other bullshit but clarity??
What's wrong with just being a decent human being?
It is not my place to control what others do. And I am learning this. It is in my control what I accept from others. It is frustrating when you get the same kind of bullshit being thrown at you all the damn time.
I would love my mind to just be clear.
Take me back to just a couple of days ago when my spirit was not disturbed.
5/9/20
Damn. I need some human affection.
Anyone else feel like this during this time?
Even if you don't it's okay. Self-love is the bee's knees but sometimes you need that human touch.
Not a sexual thing. Just a touch is enough.
In these times that we live in it's a luxury now. A touch would beyond comforting right now. Like a cup of something warm in your favorite mug.
5/11/20
My emotions are so heavy today. I don't know what's going on.
But I think there could be a transformation going on.
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