JoeTamez's Virtual Journal

Hi im Joe

heres a few things you should know about me

Ive been self harming since 7th grade and now im in 11th

Ive been sexually assaulted multiple times by the same guy from 7th- 9th grade

i have Suicidal thoughts every day

My distant relitive is my best friend

I blame myself for everything

I hate being ignored, it makes me feel like a waste of space and that leads to self harm

I think thats enough for now <3

@JoeTamez

It's so good to meet you, Joe! Let's not forget: you love popcorn! *shares some freshly popped popcorn*

Welcome to our community, we're so happy to get to know you better. ❤️ Take care and stay awesome, Joe!

@JoeTamez

On a serious note, I'm sorry for everything that has happened to you. You didn't deserve any of it, and you're very much loved and valued here. ❤️ You can always come talk to us in the chat rooms, or on PMs if you're needing some support. You're not a waste of space at all, Joe, your warm, encouraging presence is always welcome. ❤️

@hopebeyondpain

Thank you Hope, i cant tell you how much it means to me to hear someon say those things to me thank you for everything

Hello my groupies

Today was ok.

My friend is ignoring me because they want nothing to do with me now cause we fought over something now they leave the chat when i enter

I think i was raped acciently on new years eve by someone close to me and i really need to talk about it

first day back again and people are arguing with me and fighting each other after i sent trigger warnings for my poems

@Joe00

Hey Joe ❤️❤️ It's really good to hear from you again

I think you did the right thing by sending a trigger warning, I would've done the same thing. It's not your fault that other people act the way they do ❤️

If you'd like, you can send your poem here too, I'd love to read it ❤️

@hopebeyondpain

I missed you <3 thx for always coming to comment in my journal, its greatly appreaciated <3

Here are my poems

Poem one

The bears are eating her alive

All night

They feast on her pain and heartbreak

Her sorrow is immense

The bears are eating her alive

All night

She thinks of everything she lost

Her pain is intense

The bears are eating her alive

All night

They leave scratches and cuts

Her screaming is loud

It is morning

The bears have left

There is no sign that they were there

She knows they will be back

Again

poem two

“You are worthless “

The bears screamed

They used their nails to cut at her flesh

Her screaming was loud

“You are Pathetic”

The bears roared

They used their nails to cut at her flesh

Her crying was intense

“You’re no good”

The bears shouted

They used their nail to cut at her flesh

Her pain was immense

The nights go on

She takes her pills

Hoping

Praying

That the bears don't come back

@Joe00

Hey Joe ❤️ Aww, I've missed you too

It sounds like these two poems mean a lot to you, and you put a lot of your heart into it. I like it ❤️

Take care ❤️

@Joe00

hi joe! thank you so much for sharing this with us

i'm just letting you know that i've moved your post to the diary entries sub-forum in the general support subcommunity because it's more relevant to your thread!

i hope you can get the very best support

⋆ ˚｡⋆✿˚ no rain, no flowers. ˚✿⋆｡˚ ⋆

im moving to the adult side on my member account on the 1st of February and ill be with the oldies. im so nervous. i hope they are nice to me

Hey Joe, it's good to hear from you again! :-) I moved to the oldie's side several months ago and so far everyone has been nice. I hope that's true for you too. My PMs are always open of you want to pop by! <3