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I hope to record more soon. I just don't know. My paranoia is making me want to delete this thread, but I can't find the delete button, lol

@AlexFox800 Feel free to share more about this :).

Grow up wings!

@AlexFox800 It's completely fine to feel paranoid about sharing your feelings. But you don't have to be afraid, people want to hear your thoughts and worries and they want to help you in whatever ways they can

3/19/2020

I've been doing some vent art recently and it's nice to get some feelings out. I have such a hard time talking about my feelings since I don't trust people a lot.

3/23/20

Im a bit anxious about my therapist appointment tomorrow. I need to talk about what I'm truly feeling and I'm so worried. I've tried before, but I always chicken out. I've been struggling and I know I'm not ok. Hopefully I can get the courage for tomorrow.

I'll update if I manage to do it...

3/24/20

I managed to talk a little bit about how I'm feeling, but not a lot. My therapist could I was keeping something, but didn't go on it too much. Other than that, today's been okay

3/27/20

I feel so disconnected. My mind hurts and I've been depressed everyday this week. I feel lost and alone

3/30/20

Today didn't have a great start. I was heavily triggered, and accidentally banged the wall lightly. LIGHTLY. It was an accident. I was in so much pain and in the verge of screaming.

What did my mom do? Lecture me. She told to shape up and I would NEVER go to college and a job like that. Wow...This was a small accident because I was triggered RIGHT AFTER I got up!!! She just kept going on and on. I finally managed to let her give me a minute in my room alone. I wanted to yell at her, but I smartly kept my cool.

4/1/20

Muhahahaha, it's April fools day!