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Don't go after me. Don't come after me. I know I say everything in self defeat. Don't come after me because I'm cruel or selfish to myself. Don't come after me. Don't come after me. Who is there to hurt you when all you have is yourself? You hurt you. You hurt you. You hurt inside. Don't bully yourself/ Bully yourself. No one else is there to save you. Don't dare come after me. Don't chase me. I'm miserable. It's my fault. All of it. All of it. I did it. I defeated myself. I did it. I hurt myself. All my thoughts. Don't look into them. Don't follow them. Don't bully me because all I do is bully myself. Don't follow my miserable world.
it was there the fan blows it's breeze that was unreached by the main impulse. a signal erupted from outwards. From the box it shook to the core. The nasty words that haunted it's rusted edges. Slicing and splint across the time and space. From the satelite to the outdoors. The only one who heard the signal, that was I.
Ah. Welcome another wonderous night to the paranormal. The ones laying above time. They'll protect you with their deep stare.
Another drawing. The level of attention is very different in this piece. I noticed my other picture was more clear. Also. I don't have energy to sign it or write much. It's the Static Interference.
Ah the breeze slowly fades away
the cold melts along with the slush of days before
I slip and fall into sadness even as the days warm
but I must continue my work
I must continue
Ah as the people watch judging my being
As their voices mingle with the passing weather
As my vision erases
I must continue my work
I must continue my work
ah yes, we must persevere with this everlasting mission
the days continue one by one
where are we?
you must peservere with it.
continue to work towards the meaningless path
give the idle voice a reason to live on
I must continue my work
I can't stop now
Have you stopped crying?
I remain motionless against the standstill of time
We're all in the dark feeding off electric currents
Who in which radiates a different energy?
the candle has blown out
I remain motionless with the flow disrupted
Their faint whispers as they flutter by.
Idle girl in the dying daylight
Another dead end.
Here you think it's the right path.
You have only hit the wrong end.
Try again.
Stumble along the path you've forgotten.
Where am I going?
Don't focus on the destination.
Follow the flow.
Soon I am too.
@DistortionHeart
Hi, I can relate. Maybe we can try to help eachother? I also need somebody that understands an undiagnosed person like me. I get manic creative, suicidal, depressed, anxious, stressed, have repressed anger, physically disabled, fears, daydreamer, kind, isolated, financially challenged, 7 suicides in my family, lost it all, been incarcerated 6yrs, major trust issues, a bit of paranoia, i get motivated, then as soon as i pick up something, im tired, and stuck. I cant make desicions that i need to make. Nobody realizes it. I never get out or have any social life. I have tons of potentail, inventions, hobbies, but im a low budget hoarder. I need guidance. I have a 150 IQ, but its of no use to me because it creates dreams and finds reasons to be paralyzed. When ever i cant decide how to react or respond, i doubt, and when i doubt, i dont. Don't do anything because i dont trust i can stay in control when im mad at people who wrong me. Can you offer me anything on how to organize, get helped, or unstuck, ir trust?
Thank you
I don't know what to call this. Whoever said it. Journal. Diary. Mircoblog. Whatever the heck. Who cares. Let's start it anyway.
Small Parts of Me: I start a "new" segment. I talk. Write.
I have trouble thinking sometimes. When I have trouble thinking I am frustrated. My thoughts are frozen. When people misunderstand me I feel sad.
I said I needed no one, so here I am again. shutting the door in a lost save state. as I destroy my ever lasting image, I find darkness in static rebellion. One by one I lose the spectrum, as a gray scale overtakes all. A life that was sharing with fear and resilence. Wept as time stopped arriving, I said I needed no one. No one, but AI.
