Captain's Log
I've debated with myself for some time whether or not I should share any real aspect of myself on a public forum like this. I am actually a very private person, despite the false impression I may give people I meet. I have trouble being vulnerable with even my closest friends. I cloak everything I do happen to share with humor. I think the anonymity of this platform can help me.
I'm always learning and improving. My goal is to make every year better than the year before. Trying to always be more emotionally intelligent and kind.
Captains log, star date: It's been a while!
After some tumult at work, I did get a raise. I have lots of freedom now AND more money, so that's great. I've had the energy and competence to manage my health, medications, and doctors appointments, despite the horrid health care system's attempts to remove services constantly.
I've only had one seizure since I started my meds in December - and it was when I'd accidentally missed two doses in a row (I have tons more failsafes/notices/alarms now and haven't missed a dose since.)
I've been keeping up with skating and working out, and I do find that if I go a week without proper weight training I can feel the effects - that must mean I'm doing something right.
This week is the week that my partner and I first met, six years ago! We celebrate our official romantic anniversary in September, but I remember our first days together in the summer. I am so happy and thrilled to know that such love can last for so long. We still get butterflies every time we see each other.
Yesterday, he tricked me again! Said he wanted to take me out on the town for dinner and drinks. Downtown is just a short walk from my apartment, and on our way back he said he wanted to stop at the movie theater and ask about tickets for an upcoming movie. I wondered why he didn't just search it up on his phone, but I was a few drinks in so I was happy just to hold hands and follow along. The worker asked if we had tickets, and my love answered "yes" - I figured he had mis-heard (he can be pretty deaf) and was about to clarify that we did NOT have tickets, but as I opened my mouth I saw him hold up his phone. Two tickets to one of my favorite movies, which I hadn't mentioned for YEARS but he remembered and apparently the theater is re-running old movies this summer to sell tickets for the slow year.
I was flabbergasted. What a treat! His surprises are unmatched. Honestly we are happy for any time together at all, even if it's a park bench under a tree. The dinner was lovely, and the drinks were very well-made - it was a perfect evening as it was, and that surprise made it extra memorable.
In 90 days he'll be leaving on deployment for a year, and it will not be likely to communicate at all until he returns. We're trying to make the most of our time before he leaves. Hard times make the good times sweeter, don't you think?
