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brightPenguin4569
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PathStep 20 Compassion hearts487 Forum posts216 Forum upvotes302 Current upvotes302 Age GroupAdult Last activeOctober, 2024 Member sinceNovember 27, 2019
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Hi there. I'm Bright Penguin. I'm struggling to keep in touch with my emotion. I feel a certain way, but think another way -- and my brain always wins. I vent here once in a while, but most of the time I feel numb.






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Getting Irritated Easily
Relationship Stress / by brightPenguin4569
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 June 6th, 2023
...See more Hi folks, I have just realized what's wrong with myself. I get irritated easily by other people. I realize that whenever I start to get close to people, I would notice their weaknesses or bad habits. Almost immediately, I would start thinking that they are not "relationship/friendship material". This mindset would lead me to distance myself from them. Because of this, I find it hard to be close to other people. Even when I'm nice to them, deep down I feel that I'm only doing it for pragmatic reason -- not because I'm being authentic to myself. Has any of you experienced this? What should I do? Any comment or advice is welcome! Thanks!
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Struggle to Meditate Consistently
Mindfulness Center / by brightPenguin4569
Last post
 March 2nd, 2022
...See more Hi Mindfulness folks, I am a bright penguin, but I'm not too good at meditating. I used to meditate for 15 minutes before sleep every day, but I struggled to keep this up for more than 2 weeks. Typically, I would be tempted to do other things before sleep, like listening to music and reading a book. What are some tips for meditating consistently every day for the rest of your life? Has any of you noticed any significant benefit from consistent meditation? Best regards, Bright Penguin
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Scared of Commitment
Relationship Stress / by brightPenguin4569
Last post
 December 15th, 2021
...See more Hi everyone, I've been thinking about relationships lately. It's been a long time since I last dated (about 7 years ago), and I feel that I have discovered why this is the case. On one hand, I feel that I'm not ready to settle -- but this is a story for another day. On the other hand, I am afraid to lose my autonomy. I am scared of losing myself in relationship that I can forget what it is that really matters in my life. Has any of you been afraid of commitment? How did you handle it? Looking for input here. Best regards, Bright Penguin
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Diary of a Workaholic...
Journals & Diaries / by brightPenguin4569
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 August 4th
...See more Dear diary, I am a Bright Penguin and a workaholic one too. This is my first entry and I was prompted to write this because I need someone to talk to. My employer has just ordered everyone to start working from office again and I feel sad because of it. Now I have less time to spend around my mother and my dog. Moreover, I have been overworked lately due to lack of staff in my team, so I may have been doing what should have been done by a team of 2-4 people. On top of that, I also have a part-time job, am preparing for a certification, as well as looking for another job. It's difficult to juggle this all already, but today I felt that I hit my limit. After nearly 12 hours at work (which happens every day), I crashed at home. I was supposed to workout, prepare for an upcoming interview and take a test for my certification. I ended up watching YouTube for 1.5 hour, did not workout, did not prepare for the interview, and did not do well on the test. There were 22 problems, I was only able to reach 18 questions even after skipping a handful of those. Out of the questions I answered, I was pretty sure some of them were wrong. Tomorrow, everything starts all over again. I am going to wake up at 5, reach the office at 7.30 and crashed at home again at 9pm. I wonder how I can get out of this trap. This is not where I wanted to be at this age. Sincerely, Bright (and Workaholic) Penguin
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Lukewarm Responses in Sharing Circle
Group Support / by brightPenguin4569
Last post
 January 10th, 2021
...See more Hello everyone, I recently vented out a bit in the Sharing Circle, but felt underwhelmed. I have had perhaps near to 3 minutes of sharing a deeply personal issue there, but after a while I felt alone because of the lack of responses. Later on, I visited the Sharing Circle again and, this time, someone else shared his/her issue. I think I now understood why people feel hesitant to respond. The person who shared his/her issue seems very distressed and keeps asking for our opinion/advice. However the rules of the group support room strictly prohibits advice, even when it is requested. As someone who has vented in Sharing Circle before, I think I will appreciate response in the form of advice even if I end up not following it. In the internet as in real life, I think people really appreciate it when you respond to their story. Perhaps, the rule of "No Advice" need to be revised or relaxed at least. I feel that general non-controversial advice such as "forgive yourself", "don't neglect yourself" etc., are more likely to be beneficial to the chatroom than to be harmful. Again, thanks 7 Cups community for being here while I was facing a difficult problem. I wrote this thread only as a suggestion which may strengthen our community even more.
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Am I Depressed?
Depression Support / by brightPenguin4569
Last post
 April 22nd, 2020
...See more Hello everyone, I joined 7Cups about several months ago, when I had just returned to my home country, after 6 years of living abroad. I initially thought that I only experienced reverse culture shock and nothing more, but now I have doubts. I check all the boxes for a happy life: I have a good job and career prospect, I love and feel loved back by my family, and I also have no trouble dating (at least many people have told me so, if I had put myself out there more often). However, I have just realized that I spent most of my waking hours working which somehow numb my feeling. When I have finished all my tasks at night, though, I feel a rush of emotion. It was a mix of loneliness, nostalgia, and a sense that something in my life is missing. It feels as if nobody will ever understand me and that I will never meet someone who truly does. I also feel an urge to just run away to place no one can find (I usually accomplish this by reading fiction). I usually feel relief too at night though. It is as if I get a respite from having to deal with so many people who will never understand me. Sorry for the rant. I just need someone's opinion about this. Should I seek help? Maybe I should try speaking to one of the therapists here at 7Cups.
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