Heartstopper S3

Does somebody watch Heartstopper here, and did you watch S3 already? I'm totally drained from that season. It was good, but damn I didn't think I would see so many sad sides of 4 whole characters in one season. And the scene from solitaire where Nick and Charlie fight took me out even more. Now I don't know what to do with my life after waiting months for the new season. I'm also watching Agatha all along, but where I live, I have to wait until every Thursday until I can watch a new episode. I'm thinking on getting all of the books since I only started showing interest to Heartstopper begin of the year(I know it's diabolical I never watch trending stuff in the time they are actually trending and I don't know why😭) but I'm scared of the heartbreak I will go through reading everything(especially Solitaire&Nick and Charlie)