Ramblings about Insomnia...
So, at my time of writing this, its just after 5AM. Im sat up, wide awake, hunched over the laptop like some fiendish vampire feeding from the glow of the screen listening to some bizarre rare 80s song that I cant explain how I found nor how I am currently singing along to it at this particular moment.
I wanted to talk a little bit about insomnia, and how it affects different people, a large majority of us, and how it can alter a lot of considerable things about us as people: mood, motivation, appetite and just the general drive to do anything.
Now, personally speaking - Ive suffered from insomnia for many years. I have tried every method there is in the book (the fictitious book of legend) from medical methods, to playing relaxing ocean sounds (made me feel sea sick) to trying out an assortment of drinks like Horlicks (a malty drink) and calming teas just to help unwind and ease into a peaceful night of sleep and wondrous dreams about eyebrows and pirate bacon, you know the drill.
Except most nights; I am awake. I cant tell you possibly why this happens; it just does. There are a whole bunch of reasons that can come into play for why each person might be lying there, staring at their ceiling and wondering, How did I get here? Its 4 in the morning. I have to be awake in three hours. Dark thoughts can come into play, unwanted energy that makes us feel like whipping out the saxophone {insert applicable instrument here - triangles are welcome} to just feelings of general unease that make us feel like our bodies are tense and cant relax, and our mind follows suit by perhaps dragging up that memory from all those years ago - you know the one. People in chronic pain suffer too, unable to rest easy at nights due to the aching in their bodies. Of course, not all reasons that cause insomnia are related to mental or physical illnesses, some people can purely just cannot sleep. I realise that there are so many other reasons out there that can cause insomnia; Im selling a lot of people short here, but if anyone sees this, please - feel free to let me know. The point Im trying to make is; it can affect anyone in any different walk of life. That makes it a big issue, doesnt it? It seems like a big issue at the time certainly when you have stayed up all night and have to go to work, or school, or the store because the groceries are needed...or just getting in the shower! Despite the temporary relief that brings, you know, that weariness can cling.
To talk really briefly about how it affects others, without making broad claims, as, much like everyone suffers in a different way, everyone has different ways to deal with it. Coffee, exercise, activities, planned days to keep the body/mind busy, a Harry Potter movie marathon - something that wills you through the day ahead. But the body becomes a tender thing on no sleep and I know that from experience. My own personal method? It gets to that point where the suns risen and everyone is getting up and ready for their day, I tend to think, Ill stick it out all day. Its 9AM and I feel great! Come lunchtime, Im considering kicking the dog from his bed and crashing there Im that tired. So some of the symptoms of insomnia are as follows: awakening too early, not feeling well rested at all, constant tiredness through the day, irritability towards things and others, depression and anxiety increased, finding it hard to focus on tasks and to pay attention to things, Increased errors or accidents, tension headaches, distress in the stomach and intestines (gastrointestinal tract) and those awful, plaguing ongoing worries about sleep. Its not nice, and I know its not nice.
I realise that Ive rambled on quite a bit here, and as you can tell Im a totally professional writer (Ha!) and may have meandered through things a bit without much a point unifying everything.
Well there is a point, and, its not the best one in the world, but its a point.
Sometimes, setting up alone, all distractions aside (laptops, phones, games, books) when you hit that moment of Oh Im not going to sleep, things can get lonely. Youre awake whilst everyone sleeps. Its lonely, its isolating and it can be downright horrific sometimes. But heres a tip. It wont change your life, or make any of the problems disappear but it may come in useful for those dark nights.
Look out the window. Stare up at the night sky. And think to yourself, I am not alone. Because you are not alone. Out there, somewhere in the world, somebody is looking to the sky and thinking the same thing. Under the blanket of the darkest nights, you are never alone.
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@TheDeaningOfLife
Thanks so much for sharing this with all of us. You know, it really can be hard to figure out what to do with insomnia. I really appreciate you sharing your struggles. Hopefully more people will share them here also--perhaps we call all learn some tricks together!! By the way, congrats on initiating your first forum thread!!!! @Roadie
wow dean, you're a great writer and just straight-out funny in general ❤️
I could imagine that insomnia is hard to deal with - sleeping is great and it's sad that some of us aren't able to enjoy it often
--and now I have just learned some more things about insomnia!! such info. many great. much thanks.
and congrats on your awesome first thread!!
tagging a few great friends to help spread it around ❤️
@RebeccaEmily @theworldisquiethere @Ace13 @pray4theheartless @MaddyIsHere
Thank you so much for sharing your story with us! You're such a wonderful writer and getting a new perspective and more information on insomnia is really helpful both to listeners and members on this site. I really appreciate you taking the time to teach us about insomnia and I truly admire the courage with which you're facing this in your life.
@TheDeaningOfLife
I don't think I have insomnia, but there are certainly nights when I find it extremely difficult to fall asleep because there are so many different things going on in my mind and no matter how hard I will myself to stop thinking about them, I just can't. Hence, I think I understand when you say that it can be isolating— to be the only one who is still wide awake in the middle of the night. However, your post kindly reminds us that we are never alone in our struggle and this helps to make it a little more bearable. So, thank you for sharing your experience with us Dean!
Oh Dean.
You continue to be an inspiration to me in so many ways. I'm so grateful for your sense of humour in hard times and of course your thoughtful insight all the time. You are right, you are not alone. No one is. We are on a large, lonely, planet. That's why this website is so popular and successful. Anytime you're looking up at that moon feeling alone, know that I'm on the other side of the world doing the same and thinking of you :).
@TheDeaningOfLife
Wow Dean, thank you so much for sharing this insightful retelling of your experiences. Insomnia can be so difficult to deal with, especially when it comes along with other complications, symptoms or emotions to overcome, like loneliness, weariness, lack of motivation, etc.
I can relate a lot to your experiences and it's nice to hear that I'm not the only one who feels this way at times. And you are right, we aren't alone. Even in those difficult times, there are other people going through the same thing, and if not, there are other people waiting to support you. Being on 7 Cups has taught me that there's always someone there for you.
I wanted to thank you again for sharing your perspective on insomnia. It was insightful, honest, and motivating to read. After reading this, I feel ready to fight all the negative aspects of insomnia the best I can, especially the feeling of loneliness.
Great thread, Dean!
@TheDeaningOfLife
I just read your post and I want to give you a round of applause for being so bravely honest and so amazingly strong for dealing with this issue. *applauds vigorously*
I've never really struggled with insomnia like you, but I did have a period of a few weeks in my life when it was really difficult for me to fall asleep and it was one of the most horrible experiences of my life. I can remember feeling panicked from 4pm onwards knowing I'd have to go to bed in a few hours. Most of the time it made me feel as if I were losing my mind. Luckily, I was able to overcome it for which I am very grateful.
I appreciate both your vulnerability and your strength. *hands you a medal* You're amazing.
@TheDeaningOfLife - thank you for this amazing insightful post.
Reading through it I agree a lot with you there - I've never been diagnosed with insomnia but I suffer from terrible sleep problems. When you're awake in the night and everyone else is sleeping..to be honest it can get really boring!! And you end up not knowing what to do with yourself at times. Laptop, TV, Music..not much to do at that time! It's terrifying too!!
We have to continue to remember that we're not alone - there's always someone out there that may be awake during the night as well - feeling terrified, lonely or downright bored! Let's all send each other good thoughts - we're not going to give up! <3
Thank you for sharing.I have insomnia alot of times from chronic pain and illness.Knowing I'm not alone and there are others who understand helps,though I am sorry you and others go thru it.Your article was well written and an inspiration.
@TheDeaningOfLife Thank you so much for your post. I'm also a fellow insomniac at times, 50% of the time I guess. Although I can entertain myself quite well, in the end it becomes a lonely affair. For me the insomnia is mostly related to me letting me brain get too active during the day.