Letters to myself (or others)
Whoever I am, good or bad, happy or sad, is part of one universe.
I am glad that I exist. My existence might not have made much of a contribution, but I'm glad I can experience the goodness of happiness, hope, kindness and love.
I'm grateful, for the moments where I could witness such powerful stories, such as those of Luke Skywalker, and Captain America, which gave me strength at certain times.
I am happy to have this wonderful body which functions normally.
I know that these words were of no sense in my times of fear and guilt, but this is my love letter to myself. I've hated myself enough in the past. Past which cannot be changed now, but the present is all mine to live.
There have been scary times, times where my actions made no sense, my vision was unclear, and my thoughts weren't mine (were mixed up with other's thoughts), but they have been teachers to me.
My experiences taught me things the school couldn't. I am thankful for everything that I've learnt, learning may or may not be fun, but it satisfies me, for I am a curious being, and learning also makes me feel safer. I learn little every day, and that is alright, because one lesson is enough if understood.
I want to tell myself that it is okay to feel, and to express our feelings for we are social and emotional beings, if it is totally okay to dance in joy, why is it not okay to cry in misery.
I assure myself that I am not a fake attention seeker, and that my emotions exist. They are real and valid. I request myself to not hide my emotions from myself. I also want to add that others emotions may vary from mine, and that is alright, I do not have to lie to myself about feelings and thoughts.
I would like to remind myself that there will always be others in worse conditions than me, but that does not mean that my condition does not exist. I will not again let myself desire destruction again.
I love myself and that is totally acceptable because if people can hate themselves, why can one not love themselves?
I love myself. The world may have other feelings for me, but the life is mine and I must prioritise.
I love myself