I'm proud of myself because... (Big thanks to everyone as well!)
So I was bawling my eyes out today, but it was tears of happiness and sadness and I was really confused initially.
This person on YouTube had put together these Weibo challenges (Belly button challenge, collar bone challenge, etc) and the last "challenge" was to love yourself. When I heard that I just lost it because my body image and self-esteem are crap (partly because I'm genderqueer/AFABand y'know, dysphoria).
So I'm going to try and love myself a bit more, even though I think my stomach is too big, my thighs don't have a big gap, and I fail at the collarbone challenge (even though my collarbones are visible). I guess I'll try to do things a bit differently tomorrow and see how my mood changes :) Thank you guys for helping me get to this point. I couldn't have done this without you <3