My life I am Proud
I have been a recovering addict since the age of 18 years of age. I started using drugs at the age of 12 but have had 2 relapses from 12 to 18 years of age. I was told my one of my mother's co-workers that I wouldn't be anything in life, that I would be unmarried, barefoot, and pregnant. I did want to become a professional wrestler, but the "one" I thought I was with wasn't such a great guy. He did have some connections and access to a wrestling ring, but one of our friends played a rib saying that I wasn't pregnant with his child I was pregnant with someone else's. He was a jealous type and when we got home, I remember blacking out and waking up in the hospital. I was 18 and almost what my mom's co-worker said I would be. I was a high school drop out, lost my baby and thought I lost everything so I went right back into drugs. I was so messed up that I thought I one point I could climb the ladder, get on the terrace land on the tree and the car. I had a 50/50 shot at death or life.
So with the aid of my mom's co-workers, one of which I adopted as a uncle figure helped me to get into a meth program to get clean, got me a job as a receptionist and showed me the effects of meth. I was too proud to lose my teeth so I made a agreement with the counselor and told me I would withdrawal cutting down such a high dose. By that time my mom gave birth to a set of twins and I knew she didnt trust anyone. My parents are divorced when I was 19, so we all come from different dads. Anyway, I quit the job and now I was on meth taking care of two kids who screamed all the time and thought I wasn't going to be able to handle it.
By the time I was 24 I decided to give school another shot. I thought of what my mom's co-working saying that I wasn't going to be anyone. So I proved him wrong. I went to school 3 times a week at night, took care of the twins during the day while my mom worked, and worked a part-time job on the weekends. I had left my dream behind to be a wrestler for two reasons, one was the right choice, and the other was the wrong choice, I didn't go back out of fear my ex would be there everywhere I trained. But it doesn't stop me from watching and going to shows. I Thank Jeff Hardy for getting me off that ladder I wanted to jump off of because I at the time had my own apartment still getting high and heard his theme music, so I got off it and watched his match, took a shower and fell asleep
May 2006 I graduated with a Associates Degree in Human Services and got my GED at the same time, became a Certified HIV Counselor, Certified Facilitator, Certified working with kids with ADHD, Certified Facilitator on Women's Condoms. I because and Outreach Coordinator to bring people to get tested for HIV or other services. Throughout all of this, I had forgot I was on meth, because I forgot to take it all this time. I had a lot of positive things going on my plate that the same person who said I wasn't going to be anything, became my partner, A Husband. We have beene married for 11 years
I went back to school as a medical assistant and I'm awaiting my day to walk tdown that aisle again.
I hope my story is part of an inspiration to those who feel they can't do it. you can.
My life has changed so much, that if I did die no one would know what it would be not even me.
I'm proud that I'm alive because I lived to tell it
That's a really great thing. I did pills for a very long time. It's a waste of time and money. You could have been a wrestler. I watch wrestling on regular basis. The Hardy Boys are gone .. I love Randy Orton. John Cena is so annoying. I think you would have been a better wrestler b/c you sound like you really like it. Some of the female wrestlers act so fake, but they get paid a lot of money! :)
@transam85 The Hardy Boys still exist, they work for TNA now. I've actually had the privilege of meeting both of them on separate occasions and told them just the part of recovery and who impacted my life then and now. Yes I probably would have been real good at it. I actually did better than that bum I was with. I don't have any regrets on what I did and how I did it. I'm just glad that I was able to raise such cool kids with my mom. They showed me patience and understanding, My Husband cared and now is married to me, Jeff Hardy showed me how to be me and not be afraid of it, Matt Hardy taught me the believe all things are possible. My adopted uncle always says I shined better than the rest, and My Parents are proud of me everyday, especially my Father who immigrated from Mexico 45 years ago
@transam85 I do agree with you that the women's division isn't great like it used to be, reality shows are for people who don't have talent and these women do, I'm a bit impartial about John Cena the only thing I wish he did stop doing is talk to much ying yang and change up his tactics. Randy Orton is what he is, the man is a genius
John Cena is commercial now, but a lot of kids look up to him. What about that goofy Russian guy Rusev? lol The WWE got political now also. "The Authority" and Stephanie McMahon is a bitch but she's so pretty .. lol
You are a very brave individual!! Well done and keep up the positivity and good work. I admire you.
@asg Thank you very much. I'm not really completely cured, it's been 15 years and at times the urges comeback to haunt you. I've learned positivity through asmr videos on youtube. The best way how I deal with the urges is the get pizza, 22oz coke and watch Hardy Boy wrestling VHS tapes I still have, that and listening to rock music to soothe the soul. Thank you also for the admiration, I still have flaws, but that only makes me human.
You should be proud of yourself. Keep up the good wok, and keep the positive attitude.
